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Sunday, May 24, 2026

NINE DAY: Novena to the Holy Spirit

ONE

Charity

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.

Amen.

Let us bow down in humility at the power and grandeur of the Holy Spirit. Let us worship the Holy Trinity and give glory today to the Paraclete, our Advocate.

O Holy Spirit, by Your power, Christ was raised from the dead to save us all. By Your grace, miracles are performed in Jesus’ name. By Your love, we are protected from evil. And so, we ask with humility and a beggar’s heart for Your gift of Charity within us.

The great charity of all the host of Saints is only made possible by your power, O Divine Spirit. Increase in me, the virtue of charity that I may love as God loves with the selflessness of the Saints.

Holy Spirit we ask for the grace of becoming the Flow of Your Love..

Amen.

Come Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of your faithful and enkindle in them the fire of your love. Send forth your Spirit and they shall be created. And You shall renew the face of the earth.

O, God, who by the light of the Holy Spirit, did instruct the hearts of the faithful, grant that by the same Holy Spirit we may be truly wise and ever enjoy His consolations, through Christ Our Lord,

Amen.

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.

Amen.

Tuesday, May 19, 2026

126.01 Pray through this first half of the Passion

Use the Application of the Five Senses (p. 142) to deepen and simplify your prayer. I’m really not sure how this "application" will “simplify player.” Not sure how more about “being,” might simplify anything at all. Resting in the presence and this Beingness seems even more intense rather than simplifying anything, I mean, paying attention to my deeper emotions seems crazy as I’ve learned to block my empathy for years. Wow, it’s really about a total reversal. I need to accept that. I have to go back and feel and understand everything I experience. I mean I remember my mom’s passing and never crying, I guess 35 years of getting bullied and beaten stopped my crying completely. Then I remember crying with Kim the first time. I was always so grateful for her, teaching me to cry again.

Here again, I get to Experience a stronger connection with my Maker. Everything about this is about Jesus!!! It’s really about understanding my own deeper responsibilities. I know I feel pressed to do more and I know that I’m only 16 again, which really means I need to restore my aggressive, non-stop passion to get things done, to create, to paint, and to build and to LOVE EVERYTHING. Wow, I need to start here with SEEL and in this deeper understanding of Easter, where Jesus Died for our sins, so we could get closer to our Holy GOD, really acknowledging this new Life and Deeper experience. Yes, Jesus died and went to hell to beat all sin and all evil, to pay the price so we all could be forgiven, to be sin free and able to get closer to our Holy GOD! . . So again, it’s really about stepping into another space and time of rapid change and powerful experiences, where I belong. I said that in conversation with Emily this last weekend, how everything in my life has been very powerful and very drastic. I must continue to make my Bible and SEEL readings part of my daily routine, in that I feel the responsibility, the desire, the passion to step forward with Jesus to share more of the visions I experience. I need to step into this stronger and know it’s my time and space to make more happen. My Happiness in my BEingness has gotten easier and easier, as I step every day into greater obedience even now, as I read 1 Samual 15:22 in my Bible-in-year-app: I understand my place more and more.

What this is really about is stepping beyond the mind of thinking or visualizing; and returning to simple being in the real experience of these E-MOTIONS, to allow this “energy in motion.” Yes, what emotions come to you from this BEing here with Jesus during these experiences. As you get deeper this will be getting very powerful. You really have known a lot of power intimately already. And now to step into everything stronger will affect everyone!

I always feel so much love and joy with You Jesus. And I have no idea what I'm doing sometimes and I now have another notice from the city. Bonnie is complaining again about all the things in my yard that I've been working on. Some of them are just old BS. While some are valid. And I know and TRUST IN JESUS. I must do my lessons in my Bible readings now, and then my biking and churching, and everything exactly as I have been doing all this year. Jesus is very specific about me taking a break from grading papers to work in the yard. He woke me up at 1am again today, I haven’t eaten yet and I already have my 2nd cup of coffee. While Mass, this morning was beautiful and the Bible-in-a-year app got me here too, it is about Obeying God’s Voice:

We have been very clear with you, and the tasks are very specific and detailed. Next on your list is this SEEL Work too. Work now is really specific, riding your bike into the Exodus 90 meeting at Saint Raphael's is next. And your video is on before you leave at 7am.

We need you to get more deeply into your very personal and intimate experiences. Your ACE Scores must each be opened up to express the full violence and conflicts witnessed in your childhood. You really only remember and have acknowledged a tiny fraction of what you actually experienced . . . . Having your pen and paper now gets you so excited, as you are ready to share more. You get so much understanding and satisfaction when you write and explore deeper into your experiences.

This means more deeply sharing what shows up for you spontaneously in your community interactions. No more hiding behind your pen or your readings, or any more hiding at all. It is about discovering what is still hidden and buried inside of you and then allowing it all to BE expressed more fully and clearly.

It's important to accept that everyone has trauma. Your work now is about sharing the very specific and the very deepest secret insights and knowledge that you have lived. You must accept that task of sharing first. Each time you meet and discuss events and experiences with others you MUST ALLOW FLOW in whatever you feel. Recognize these deeper more powerful emotions will come out more and more as you progress and share FREELY with all your peers. YES ALL. It’s vitally important for you to forget the fears and stay open to God’s Grace in Flow and real Feelings in the days ahead of you.

These deeper experiences, that we all seek and desire to resolve, are all in the Bible. All your Bible studying is critical, especially now, and especially SEEL . . . . Each moment that you have here is central to your growth. You do know and understand our experiences writing together with you here also are critically significant. And you see the synchronicity and coincidence as so many things you write line up together in truth and power throughout your waking days. This makes it very clear you are doing Gods work and moving in the right direction. TRUST and FLOW in Peace and Ease.

Now deeper into DAY 1 Mark 14:12-72. Wow this is a lot to read at once for me, you need to remember that I started reading with Dr. Nord’s instructions in his Power and Control class with my MBA . . . lol . . .

WOW, and as I read this again and markup fresh new insights . . . . Everything gets stronger! How does my own suffering unite with Jesus suffering on the cross? Now above these daily reading of today’s service bring me deeper and deeper into "god's Plan" here in DAY 1 Mark 14:12-72. Wow How does my own suffering unite with Jesus suffering on the cross?

I realize that my own suffering has ended. And I’ve really been placed into a new state of BEing with Jesus. Yes, a deeper, stronger safe communion of safety and peace. Of course, I’m challenged with what this means and how I can step into it more and get to where I do whatever I am best at doing. And I guess reading more deeply into this . . . Where the first yellow highlight was about making ready with the water and the Covenant Ritual and sacred sacrament.

This covenant that “killed the Passover” . . . That we might eat and step beyond the history of violence and sacrifices. TO really accept all that Jesus has given to us.

“Mayest” literal meaning for me today is accepting this awesome trip to my daughter and family showing me now more than ever that I MUST share more of who I am and what I can do. Wow, or what I know I can do. . .

Yes, the MAYA phrase reminded me of the Indigenous aspect that my Mother brought to me. So I know it’s time. The Thursday classes with the Divine Chaplet inspired me to share about going barefoot, and I offered to share the experience with them. We planned to do it next week, so they asked the priest who spoke about what could happen if they are not clear and strong in Christ. Wow, talking about fear and insecurity instead of Power and Faith. SO BE IT, I can only do what they allow me to do.

I’m always struggling with putting these photos into the blog. Sometimes I can’t find the right pictures, then I can’t get them in the right order, and then I can’t get them to fit right, or justify the text right for me. It’s really weird how much of a pain it is sometimes, as I want everything together to read and FLOW WITH EASE. Course it’s getting better every day. I mean the Apple updates are coming all the time. I have said its weekly updates, but it seems even more often than that.

When I started these SEEL Readings again today, I knew I had to read over each Bible verses again. It’s about editing and improving, which requires me to be present in the Spirit of these passages NOW. I read this already, since it was so long. In the first reading I was with the yellow highlighter and that showed what jumped out to me was in the water. Yes, its was all about water, which always resonates with me as a PhD in Water Resource Engineering. Yes, and this water from Jesus is really about the Living Water of the Holy Spirit. So this young man with the water jug, was supposed to be Saint Mark. Lol, course I’m now 16 again, so I also feel like the lucky kid ready to serve the Savior! Course, I learned about this kid with The Chosen! This beautiful reading now brings water back to the central force of life, which is really at my source of all Life as part of the Trinity in the Love for all life everyday. And then it ends with His new Drink will be in the Kingdom after He is risen!

Now I need to consider the new readings and how the purple in 14:32-52 is deeper anguish and heavy anxiety in “hoping beyond hope” that this cup could pass from Him. It’s crazy how these two sections split by the text in the screenshot captures certain verses together for me to share here. Above the Purple was the Cup of Joy in the New Covenant, while next the cup is heavy and the burden is great, stepping into the next place of His Passion again centered on the Living Water of the Holy Spirit . . . And as I realize this in this new reading of these verses, I also see the yellow from the last reading where God’s Will is still the priority, and God in the Spirit is ready and willing. But the flesh is weak.

And it’s really my third time reading this, as it was such a long powerful section and to really “apply the five senses” means adding everything I get related to this. So the first was yellow, second was purple, and now comes the red clouds after my powerful experience with my daughter and her family.

We are pleased with your work. And again you certainly have seen and experienced so much around you, feeling wonderful and focused in grace. This Covenant that you Accepted and brought into your experience has so much more meaning now. You can see and feel how the Daily Mass, Readings, and studies all fit together into more clarity and focus for you.

It’s funny as I read and write here, I have the video from Matthew Leonard doing the Nine Grades of Prayer by St Teresa of Avila in the background now.

Yes, I’m sure I’ll find more synchronicity to post here as i read . . . so the yellow in this next piece was all about the real experiences of Jesus confirming all to be done in Gods Will, though weak in the flesh as we all are. But the Spirit is ready. This is the deep personal commitment we will feel when we are joined in the unified way of Christ. Tasting the Divine Nature with the relationship in Christ as discussed in the Prayer of Union: https://www.scienceofsainthood.com/st-teresa-of-avila-individual-course

I knew that would happen. So the Purple in this verse was really as I knew I needed to get deeper into my own personal experience of reading and then these verses resonated and aligned with everything I’m doing and experiencing moving forward.

Yes, I never could learn this before. Only now with the latest upgrades online can I select the TEXT, and “Right Click” to look up words, and search for the deeper meanings and understanding I want to FEEL MORE INTO MY FLOW OF SPIRIT:

We are very clear with you again and it’s obvious how much work you need to do.

I am a member and “communicant” in church and this community more than ever. It's about the whole experience with the sacraments and other processes in this community sharing with God's people. And I realize the deeper issues i have to address likely spin around the need to resolve the “unforgiveness” deep inside me https://www.intouch.org/listen/radio/freedom-from-bondage-part-1

I mean, Jesus is here in the gardens preparing to leave “life on Earth” as he knows it, and he can’t get his dearest disciples to stay awake and watch for him. I guess he knows he’s got the “date with destiny,” and can’t miss it. . . . So he asked for some support from his team . . . . But they can’t stay awake. And though he woke them three times, he still has compassion and forgiveness for them, even at this desperate time for him.

What you are doing now is accepting that you are still VERY FAR from the true experience of Jesus. You might feel love, and support your peers, stepping into the challenges that appear before you. But recognize you still have a long way to go. So that’s why these bible readings and SEEL lessons are so important for you.

I have also been doing the Consecration to Mary again! https://hallow.app.link/EgxWHeDFs3b I was speaking about this with the Men at the Society of Saint Joseph Tuesday mornings at St Paul's. I said how I had done this Consecration with the Exodus 90 Men. Each time we finished one lesson we would find another. And I remembered the first time doing it and listening to Mary, and recognizing this voice inside of me. Then I said how I grew-up in the woods and was always hearing the trees or animals speaking to me, and now suddenly I realized it was Saint Mary instead.

It's something I've realized over and over again. My mom was clearly a very strong Catholic who secretly taught me so many things I didn't know that were Catholic. Every day I learn something new in Catholicism and discover something already inside of me from my mom. It's really been very powerful as Puerto Rico and Florida were all missionary work of the Franciscan Monks so the clarity and focus is very powerful for me.

Thursday, May 7, 2026

SEEL 125.00 more understanding and learning into my own trauma

WEEK OF PRAYER #25: THE SUFFERING AND DEATH OF JESUS.

Mission in the Humility, living humanity accepting the real consequences and faithful obedience necessary to do gods works before us. And again it is so very clear and strong to know we each have a cross to carry.

We have laid this all out very strong and clear for you each step is ready. . . consider how you are called to be more compassionate in the particulars of your own life, loving the invisible crosses of all the people bearing around you….

It is so easy to say yes lord and to do all you’ve set before me and know it’s all in your light . . . I am always challenged and pressed to do more and learn more and grow more. Grief has really never “registered” for me. At least not since my accident. I guess I realized or experienced how death wasn’t real. It was really only a transition from one experience of life in this body to another experience of life without this body. So to give up my suffering or accept the suffering of another. . . Really is not out of reach either. It’s really about empathy, which I’ve understood and watched for years as well. I try not to engage too deeply, but readily recognize that I’m really always connected to all things.

What are you waiting for?

Yes, i know, i need to get more deeply into my Bible studies and readings with you… DAY 1 LUKE 23:1-25 where this first verse was about Jesus getting “convicted.” What I felt about this was how the Roman’s really didn’t want anything to do with the lies the Jews were pulling. But still the impact of Jesus on them was to make them friends!

I mean, Jesus already knows what’s happening, or where it ends, and the important result presented here is that the two leaders became friends, how weird is that. These men recognize something deeper in this experience, growing and learning individually. How remarkable is that!

And again the power and clarity of this verse is remarkable. As Jesus steps into the place to be the Lamb for sacrifice, as the priests and scribes think they know what they are doing. Yes the religious leaders and lawyers of the Jewish people are lost and sinful, full of pride and arrogance insighting the crowd similar to the propaganda and gossip we see everywhere today. . .

Now I wonder as I review DAY 2 MATTHEW 27:26-31.

I guess what is more remarkable to me is how Jesus enhances my experiences out here online all the time. I open this picture app to markup my screen shot picture from the Bible verse reading for today. And it has new features for marking-up the text. I can use the pen still like marking in the verses in big read text, but now I can also paste a box and arrow in. Yes I can shade it back to highlight what I want and everything i express more and more each moment gets clear and strong. . .

Yes I always feel so blessed in everything that I do or try to do . . . And it’s really weird. And familiar. I mean as I read this verse and feel into Jesus experiences, it’s obvious He’s being treated badly, but it also seems like he’s not concerned about it. He doesn’t argue or respond to them. It’s like just accepting what happened.

As weird as it is to write this now . . . . His experience really feels familiar, as I was always picked-on. My brother and father were bullies, like some kids at school. I just accepted it and never really defended myself or argued. Sure I tried to argue with my bother sometimes, but it never mattered as it would always ended with my loss. Like my dad, what could I do there? It was like school too, where I could just hide from the bullies who would get after me all the time. I mean, like Jesus did here, you just accept what is coming. I guess He really already knew where it was all going. . . Course I never had a clue, never knew if someone would find me, catch me, or whether my dad would use a belt or his hand, or something else. . . . It was just accepted as par-for-the-course, whether I liked it or not. I just accept!

Now again DAY 3 Luke 23:26-32 Speaks of the way of the cross. . . And Jesus speaks to the women about the times to come . . . Where we should be weeping for our children. This really feels powerful too, like above in Day 2 Jesus seems to be just going along, knowing the end is near, and seemingly going through the motions necessary to complete the tasks before Him.

Again He is very conscious of what’s ahead of Him, and knowing His death is near, these ideas feel like what He might perceive as the results of this. Here the religious leaders and lawyers of the time have brought about His death. This implies that evil has taken over and any life there after will be dreadful indeed. It feels like speculation to me now. Just like Jesus asking for “this cup to be taken away from him,” as He prayed in the garden before being arrested.

Jesus certainly knew what was coming, but maybe not the details or the exact experiences as these depended on the choices of others. Like Judas betrayal with a kiss, pointing out Jesus could have occurred in a great number of methods . . . Jesus certainly knew it was coming, but the specific details and expression could have been a surprise. Similarly the women weeping for their children was simply expressing how dreadful the world would become without JESUS. Again something He certainly knew.

We are looking forward to hear what you have to say and share about this. . .

This DAY 4 Luke 23:33-49 really has only three phrases spoken by Jesus here: “Father forgive them,” “be with me in Paradise,” and “into thy hands” . . . These are clear, strong statements again. It really feels like Jesus is just going through the motions. Like he already knew what was coming or already had prepared for what was next. It was all a matter of fact now.

I guess I recognize this level of understanding as well, as I step into things before me. I always feel like I'm making a choice or deciding something myself. But then often find I'm really just going through the motions and doing what has been setup before me. It’s like I don’t know what is next, somehow I’ve been prepared but don’t know exactly what is next enough to be surprised. All to bring us to know Act 4:12 only through Jesus that we can come to God.

You need to remember you too had countless years of suffering. Your own death experience was very violent and traumatic too. Certainly not at the level that Jesus endured, but you must realize your own experiences were considerable, and much beyond what any of your peers have seen. You have to recall the realization which the police shared with you. They chose not to arrest you or enforce the laws knowing you had already been punished. Recognize this was in direct violation of their job requirements, meaning the police risked their jobs and professional careers by ignoring the crimes you engaged in. They showed real compassion and empathy to your pain and suffering, much beyond the mockery and scorn Jesus endured.

Now again to start DAY FIVE, we have a repetition of one of these previous days of prayer. I'm perplexed at this scenario where my own death and trauma were brought before me now. And I realize it’s something I’ve not fully understood throughout my life, as I really have had ALL these “adverse childhood experiences.” This is something that I know my children haven’t addressed yet either. And it’s critically important that i share and love them more than ever before. Apparently I’ve been given more understanding and learning into my own trauma. Literally within the last weeks as my children and other events have shown up simultaneously. It’s kinda weird of course, as I’m heading north to see my daughter for my birthday. She always makes my days and visits really special . . . Yes I'll see my son towards the end of June too.

I guess that awesomeness of my daughter repeats all the time too. But here in this SEEL Lesson to review the last days of Jesus on Earth, I wonder what else I could find in this now. I guess it’s about acknowledging my own trauma, or sharing it more deeply with my children.

And now to see what shows up and how I have the time and opportunity to explore and address this more deeply. Yes, now I’m alone to pray and share more with Jesus. Like today on the Prayerline, hearing people in trouble and conflict, and teaching the Power of The Word in Jesus. Yes I shared the Renounce and Command phrases several times again. Yes very specific phrases for each experience we can name.

And as annoying as it gets people always try to add to my phrase and list a bunch of things at once gettin lost in the listing and forgetting the whole point of taking control and becoming more into the power of God. I guess what’s kinda weird now as i recognize these words I’m using . . . Jesus Himself told us the same things over and over again and we still couldn’t listen, accept and understand.

This really comes through so clear and strong again now as the story with DAY SIX Isaiah 52:13-53:12 brings us back to the Prophesies again where it is all about the about MOST HIGH Jesus . . . . Holy Son of the Father where the KINGS are speechless and He must suffer and die. . .Yes The SON is despised and rejected to be the Man of Sorrows Acquainted with Grief!

WOW, Surely He has born our grief to carry our sorrows wounded and bruised for Our Transgressions. And so this is really about me now!

And I need to really come to terms with what this means in the deeper TRUTH OF CHRIST.

Yes, were you wounded and bruised for your transgressions?

It is never clear to me what it’s all about. How I am always blessed with so much clarity and focus stepping into this experience and learning at such a deeper level. Yes, I know grief, I’ve died already, so grief really has no meaning for me because I know deep down inside that death really doesn’t mean anything. So all the world struggling to find the cure for aging and death are really wasting their time since Jesus Already has beat them both.

Again we are searching and seeking beyond God when in fact it’s all in God already. . . . And the Ultimate Gift from God is that of His One and Only SON!

?yes, and you gave up your son as well. . .

Ok this gets wicked intimidating as I am not Christ.

You have been called, and you are a Son as are all your peers and colleagues. Each has been called similarly and each listens and follows as best as they can.

I come now to DAY SEVEN and John 10:1-18 (Jesus, the Good Shepherd).…

?do you hear this call before you now to share more clearly and more strongly??

I get it more crazy stuff before me. . . Wow, what’s the Good Shepherd here to teach me now . . .

Heavenly Father, help us to follow the model of your son, Jesus. He seemed to us to be cool, come, and collected in his life. in all that he did. He was very... at peace.  He was very compassionate. He was very in tune with his relationship with you. Give us the strength to follow the model that he presented to us and for us.  A new way of being in this life. Help us to disconnect from the model that society offers, that our culture seems to be eaten up with the do, do, do mentality, instead of the B, B, B, mentality. You have given us free will, you have given us choice.  Help us make those deliberate choices. To disconnect from culture and follow the model of Jesus. And we pray these things in Jesus' name.  Amen. Father and Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.

Thursday, April 23, 2026

124 SEELING the I AM stepping forward now

I'm doing the next week in SEEL PRAYER #24: THE ARREST OF JESUS and find so much, so strong, coming to me from all directions expressing the same ideas. I know to stop and wait and listen. Yes, Lecto Listening - sounds better than divine listening, which is really the meaning I’m focused on. I’m still doing Lectio Divina or Divine reading with my Lectio Listening as the voice of God is really ever present.

As noted at the right, reading this first page filled me with the Love of Jesus. I shared a lot on the PrayerLine again this week, and this piece about the Blood of Jesus came through so strong in all of these experiences. I am careful to ask people on the PrayerLine if I can share more, or only ask when they have said something specifically that I can respond to.

I always start by saying how God created us in His Image and set us down in the Garden of Eden, Naked and it was all GOOD . . . Until the snake showed up and messed it all up. Then when God came back and found out what happened the first thing he did was sacrifice an animal to make clothing to cover their sin.

Yes, so sin results in death and the blood that covers the sin all started here with Adam and Eve. So when Jesus came to bring us back home, he became the ultimate sacrifice, providing the blood to forgive all sin.

Yes, the ultimate love to give his life for a friend. Or really for all of us. This came through to me stronger than ever this Easter Season, as I recognized how GOD is Holy and pure so He can’t get near any Sin at all. So for people to have any relationship or any experience of God at all we need to be cleared of all sin. Which Jesus did for everyone.

Course as with all love, the conscious aspect of asking, seeking and requesting it, is really fundamental. We can’t have love without actively seeking and acknowledging it. I mean, it’s really not just a feeling or emotion, it is the fundamental power of creation . . . Which brings be back to Fr. Kevin and “Each One, Teach One” as the basic place of love for our neighbor and God.

I am a living, breathing, walking testimony
I am the living proof of what the Lord has done
You May call it crazy, but they can't take away my story
'Cause I am a living, breathing, walking testimony . . . (Song my Terran

Testimony (from the Angel Original Series Miracle

So DAY ONE was Matthew 26:47-56. This is really strong for me since this coincided with the Bible verses in mass, Luke 24-13-35. The couple was walking to Emmaus after the Crucifixion and Jesus joined them. He explained the Prophecies from Moses saying this same as I highlighted here at right.

Of course, the next thing I heard was Bishop Barrron who breaks it down for me even more: Bishop Barron reflects on how Jesus interpreted the scriptures beginning with Moses and all the prophets to show that the entire Old Testament serves as a template or lens through which one must view Jesus. (5:41 - 6:04). This highlights several Old Testament figures and patterns that prefigure Christ:

Adam: Jesus is the first man of the new creation (6:28 - 6:35).
Noah: Jesus is the new Noah, whose "ark" provides salvation during the flood of sin (6:38 - 6:50).
Abraham and Isaac: Jesus is the fulfillment of the covenant and the true son sacrificed by the Father on the "mount" of the cross (6:51 - 7:27).
Jacob: Jesus is the true ladder connecting heaven and earth (7:29 - 7:53).
Moses: Jesus is the new lawgiver who leads people from the slavery of sin into the freedom of the children of God (7:54 - 8:16).
David: Jesus is the king who takes on the powers of the world, just as David fought Goliath (8:18 - 8:33).
Jonah: Jesus is the sign who spends three days in the "belly of the earth" (8:34 - 8:47).
Isaiah and the Prophets: Jesus fulfills the suffering servant role in Isaiah 53, the "thrust through" messiah of Zechariah, and the bringer of the new covenant promised by Jeremiah (8:50 - 9:26).

DAY TWO John 18:12-27 is a longer piece and it really didn’t catch me much at all. Jesus seemed almost frustrated with them. Like all this work, and effort and still they couldn’t come up with one phrase against him. Course then the last line was Prophecy again, where he had told Peter this would happen only few hours earlier.

So now I wonder where my lesson is in that. And I gross it is really about my own place in the prophesy of God. I noticed that last week where the experience and stories of Saint Faustina resulting in her diary is very similar to my own.

I Start with my DAY THREE Matthew 26:57-75. This brings me back to the last phrases I wrote about Saint Faustina Mercy Sunday where we are able to step beyond all sin. Here the Pharisee teased him about prophesy by hitting him and asking who did it. Then Peter completed the prophesy denying three times before the cock crows.

God has given more than I could ever want or need always asking me to write and share as much as I can.

Has 800-223-9286 share the love on spirit FM may 16-17 Glory in the Gardens: Busch Gardens Celebration DAY FOUR Luke 22:66-71

Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,

THIS is awesome the Divine Mercy Chaplet just started on the Radio.. . . And it really brought me to tears again.

just wwowwww… like I read this section of the Bible. . . And Yes ye say I am. And everything comes to a head for me. Reflecting on this as I prepare to visit with Sr.Dick as I am learning and realizing that my challenges and expectations, are not all my own. I know this is my challenge before me …

I need to recognize my place and responsibility in this time I have… like doing my grades and my studies as I am finding more trauma and pain in my history. And I Realize how again I am meeting with a new councilor and have so much to share and understand more deeply.

This brings me to a new place of power and focus. I know my place. I’ve been very clear and strong with who I am and what I do. . . .

And then the DAY Five, Six and Seven it all slams me in the face as Isaiah Speaks and shared (Luke 22:19-20, creating the Eucharist, in the New Covenant in Blood, with Charles Stanley on the Radio now)

It's always slamming me in the face. Like yesterday speaking to a counselor who actually asked me about childhood Trauma. . . And my first thought was how my dad had always been out to get me. As I recall now, I actually told her a great deal beyond so much I;ve shared or considered in years. . . Wow, so I need to really step into more and more. . . Which kinda freaks me out a bit . . .here typing to share with my kids too!

Wednesday, April 8, 2026

123.00 hind-sight is 20/20

Week 23 is next for me in SEEL.

This section really pulled me into the sense of the prophetic Jesus. I mean, knowing that he was here on a mission and had to get things done . . . Very important things. Even things he might not have understood or been clear about until the moment that everything came together.

He sorta always knew what was next because he had been here from the beginning and simply stepped into the role and responsibility when it was time to. I mean he certainly planned it all with God and the Holy Spirit. I often get this feeling about me too. And it’s interesting as we are surprised what happens or surprised what we need to do, but then step into it almost automatically or blindly anyway.

I remember this same feeling with my experience with Fr. Curtis, where I simply did what was opened for me. I mean, I never really thought about it or planned. I realized how he was speaking about community and specifically how to engage the Catholic Community. And we had just had a meeting together, where he wanted me to get professional help about boundaries and engaging in this community better on his terms. So I knew I had to speak to him about it more, feeling again how he was speaking directly to me.

Funny, as I realized this was importantly for me to step into. I didn’t really remember much of the details from his homily at all. Course the clip I sent Ben was there on my iPhone, so I pulled it up into the transcripts and read it at that very moment. This was just enough to have this profound experience, or really enough to accept the direction and step intro the actions I was called to with confidence.

Like the four bible verses we are studying this week in SEEL. Each listed here has a very powerful prophetic element to it. Or should I say that’s what jumped out at me when I read each one as highlighted here in yellow during my first read.

And I guess we all really have a sense of this. I mean as we are conscious of our own personal experiences with Christ, we are all pulled to do things we might not completely understand. Men always want to be in control which often means we sidestep God's directions or abridge and adjust things to one own liking.

But “Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord” . . . And it really is all about BEing the hands and feet of Jesus here on Earth. Fulfilling what it is that we are Called to, whether we really understand it or not. And I get this knowing from the experience of how God really likes to surprise us. Not so much because he never wants us to know what’s next, but more so it’s about the “surprise” and the authentic joy and excitement that surprises bring into our hearts.

Like these four bible verses we are studying this week in SEEL. Each has a very powerful prophetic element to it. Or should I say that’s what jumped out at me when I read each one. Like here with Matthew 26:23 which was highlighted purple when Dick asked me to skip a week again. It's funny how each time he does that, I spend another week praying, feeling, and exploring the same Bible verses again, adding this new purple in insights to the yellow that I started with.

So here, the purple was prophetic as Jesus spoke or knew what would happen as he “dipped his hand into the bowl” again. Still his disciples didn't believe him or understand what it meant to be betrayed to death, “as it is written.” Now to be with and know this with Jesus is key.

We each are given tasks and responsibilities where we know and step into more and more each day. BEing the hands and feet of Jesus! And now this morning with Mass, where they repeated the Bible versus I heard on the Hallow app earlier. Yes, I hear and learn about the same experience again where Jesus is not understood and must explain the scriptures, as I highlighted again here in yellow from the Mass Daily Readings at left.

And what I found more powerful today was now highlighted purple where Christ revealed Himself to them with the breaking of bread. While above the same passage of power was in Matthew 26:28 where the blood of the covenant was shared for the forgiveness of our sins . . . Again where Jesus shares the powerful experience which we may not fully understand,

This really feels like the most profound and important statement of all. Beyond BEing the hands and feet of Jesus is really the requirement for us all to be sinless before we approach God. God is Holy and for us to approach Him we must be sinless! And again this really feels like a critical statement or fundamental knowledge that Jesus has really struggled to express and make clean to us all.

This again brings me to the power and focus of my time and experience with Jesus.

I mean this next Bible verse John 13:1-17 is the same teaching again. Not just that they do not know or understand now, but that they will understand later, as he specifically explains in the passage. And again the prophetic nature of his words really comes through so strongly.

Speaking very clearly about the example Christ provides in washing their feet. Which again presses me forward to do God's will in this very time and moment.

I know how I need to do so much. It's gotten really cold and rainy outside. So I really don't want to go any where or do anything but know my place and responsibility to get things done, as the servant to heal and serve others in my community as needed.

I stopped my reading and witting here for Jesus, because He wanted me to bring the chicken soup to Annette. I was supposed to visit her yesterday but it was cold and raining. I almost used that excuse today too, but He wouldn’t stand for it telling me to drive my truck instead.

Then I brought a big jar of my chicken soup. I never was sure why I made it or who it was for. But she finished her first bowl while I was there with her. So it was really clear to me now what it was all about. Just like Jesus tells the disciples, whether we know or understand is really not relevant, we just need to have Faith and follow directions

And now I see this really has brought me to this last verse in this weeks SEEL Exercise Matthew 16:26-46 which mimics my lesson today with Annett to simply do God’s will, don’t question, don’t struggle to understand or anything but simply do it. Of course, over the weekend I was struggling with the kitchen and the chicken soup as I felt like I’ve been eating too much and needed another fast day. Course, I bought the veggies and everything for the soup whether I was wanting it or not, and simply did what I was told. . . Lost completely about why, but did it anyway. And now hind-sight is 20/20 and I’ll bring Annett more soup tomorrow.

Sunday, May 24, 2026

NINE DAY: Novena to the Holy Spirit

Tuesday, May 19, 2026

126.01 Pray through this first half of the Passion

Thursday, May 7, 2026

SEEL 125.00 more understanding and learning into my own trauma

Thursday, April 23, 2026

124 SEELING the I AM stepping forward now

Testimony (from the Angel Original Series Miracle

Wednesday, April 8, 2026

123.00 hind-sight is 20/20

127: THE RESURRECTION OF JESUS CHRIST