132.03 SEEL Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom FULFILLS GODS WILL but

SEEL 132.03 Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to FULFILL GODS WILL, Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to FULFILL GODS WILL, Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to FULFILL GODS WILL, Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to FULFILL GODS WILL,Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to bring the St Pete Catholics to save the whole country!

I love You so very much! I know we are starting something completely new this week. And I love you and thank you as we get more serious about what’s happening here. I realize that I have encountered the same things over and over again. It’s really been all my life almost. I mean, I’ve always seen this monster chasing after me. I smell them. I hear him. I know what he’s doing.  But somehow, I'm always protected or just out of reach.

What Happened just now was really significant because you ran out to find your iphone and he was walking in with his wife. So he immediately said something to Fr Curtis. Of course Father Curtis saw you run by so his perspective was already jarred. satan knows how to twist every circumstance into his dominion… especially with those who are weak physically, or trapped in selfish ego. You’ve spent your whole life dealing with this, while most other people have never encountered it at all. So it’s not just your responsibility. It’s more of an obligation and a duty. Just like picking up the word on fire this morning. You already know your place and your tasks before you.

Yes Jesus I love your Word! I’m so grateful to have this time together with you and I know you need me to file that letter as soon as possible. Do you want me to put it in the post office box near the church, or near St Pauls? Where do you want to put it?

DAY 6: Read Isaiah 65:17-25. Ask: What is my vision of a "new heaven and a new earth"?

We have been getting you ready for so much here. Once again your vision of 10 days comes back to what you shared with Clayton, who is only ten years old!

Yes honoring Your Word! Yes I had such a wonderful conversation with Clayton and it felt so joyful to share my experience with him. I had opened the doorway between us and he walked over. Then I told him he was always welcome and could do whatever he wanted if he earned it with me, clear and honest. He and his sister Kilani have heard that before, and helped with lots of things around the house and yard.

I think this was so much clearer and direct for him. I even told him how I was guided by Jesus to share this with him. And of course he questioned that, so I told him to read my journal there on my laptop as I was writing before he came in. So he stepped up and read the short passage about helping those in need. And yes he understands it was about helping him and his sister. So then I continued with how JESUS was LOVE, an everything we are is only sustained by Love. Then I showed him the equation of energy and matter to say the calculus symbols take the equation of the line and transform it into an area and then a volume, representing God, and All existence. He really seemed to understand me, and I was astonished. 

Sadly his Sister had missed this as she hadn't come over with him again and I Flashed to how they exploit children, especially pretty girls that age.

Course I had to go tell their father. He’s in Christ too a lot, so I shared how he might want to watch out how they are holding her away from him, and could easily be exploiting her for more money since thats why they keep them, and this area of Florida is filled with satan and pornography and crap piled high around us. I mean, both kids love coming to my home, and she’s missed it many times now. And even on Halloween seems weird to have her miss it. But he said she was trick-or-treating with her “teacher” which might only be BS from the lady who has custody now. He me he was able to get the kids more often as the lady reread the court orders.

Read Nightly

Yes, I need to get focused on finishing my SEEL Work now.

Of course Revelations now. Charlie told me to read the first page of revelations, and that’s all I needed. Course two bibles I would got rev1:1-12 and the third is rev 1:1-6 on the first page. . . So this is what I do every night now

Yea I know all the spree and punctuation is to make the auto-reader do what I want it to… yes I need to edit it again to take out one coma…

 DAY 7 Read Revelation 21:1-7. Ask: What is my dream of a "new heaven and a new earth"?

. What you experienced now reading this was really important. You have always seen and understood something completely different than everyone else. That is who you are, that is why you are here. You write and share as best as you can. Some listen and some understand. But deer inside you shift their vibration, you hear and open all who listen to southing more. This shift on Earth is felt across the galaxies and all life grows and benefits. Yes and some there on Earth.

Yes i know everything is connected and i know we are all moving closer to You and sharing more into Your Word. Everything is wonderful, except my long to-do list today. You give me so much to do and I struggle sometimes to keep up. And yes, I know I always have the best cup of coffee and the next support ever . . . Thank you so much Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, 

Yes WRITE this down, as I Share the Waters of Life. . . Ad I know there’s no city coming down from anywhere. And the term in the bible for city is likely really community and family instead. Especially as I read here about the Bride Dressed in Beauty. . . And immediately I FLASHED to finishing up the Art Room. I think that’s all that’s left for someone to come into the Healing Center and really have access and resources to heal and revive and come more deeply into the Love and Bliss we have  here. Yes. To conclude DAY 7 in my bedroom, visioning the space with visitors from afar is really just wonderful . . . To consider, to feel, to really laugh about.

132.02 FULFILL GODS WILL, in Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom!

Day One: Philippians 4:4-9

Yes, I finally figured out how to post my pictures into my blog. I go in the photos and I hit copy and then I go in the blogger and I hit paste. I don’t use the Blogg app at all because it doesn’t know what it’s doing.

Of this sounds like everything I'll learned now. It's all confuse

wow, this sounds like everything. I’ve learned here. It’s all condensed together. I’m really impressed by how well this has come together. I’m talking to my iPad now. I realize that I can do this so fast if I just stay focused and clear. I mean Jesus is with me all the time anyway it’s just about being clear and focused. 

I love you Jesus, thank you so much for all that you do for me. I know you’ve been wanting me to write more all the time. I know I’ve got to use my microphone more. I know everything is gonna come together exactly like you planned. I know I’m at peace and joy and that the chaos will continue. I Mean satan always tries to mess with me all the time. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve beat his stupid ass into the dirt. But he still comes up with a new scam, and a new way of messing with me. It’s almost funny sometimes.

So I’m constantly in Grace, and I always feel peace, and I always feel joy, and it’s always so much fun to be playing with Jesus. I feel like that’s what I’m doing most of my day, is just playing with Jesus. He wants me to clean, he wants me to build, he wants me to fix. Mostly I'm just doing whatever he wants me to do. It’s clearly kind of fun most of the time, I love it when He surprises me!  Like on Friday, telling me to get a beer and a burger. I think that’s neat when he tells me to do that!

DAY 2 Read Romans 12:9-21 (living a Christian life)

OK, this reminds me of being in college again. The Dean told me to stop helping people because I was spending too much time helping others and I was always ready to fix anything. So everybody was taking advantage of me and he noticed!  He told me to stop helping others. He really just wanted me to finish my dissertation. I was spending too much time running around doing stuff for everyone else… 

Yes, now I notice Jesus wants to share more with me might

What we have really been waiting is for you to really step into this gift you created with us?

Now you are ready to get busy and get this done. Just stay on the path and stay very focused and take your time. There’s no rush. Everything is gonna be just fine.

You know we wanted you to do it this way for years you always wanted to do this too. You’re finally realizing that it’s all in your Hands. It always has been! This is why we came here. Remember, you beat the system at 16!?! She’s still doing the exact same thing your voice done, here now 2:01;28am 11/1/2026

Word! Wow this is really to cool. I stated my fast. Oh yea burger was last meal! Coffee all day. Then I mixed all my powders no 

DAY 3 Read James 2:14-17 ("Faith by itself, if it has no works, is dead"). Yes this is where I begin

What might happen beyond all your understanding is a beauty and grace all it's own.

I know it’s all The Word! And the experience of good deeds is really beyond the understanding of most people. Except for those I meet, as all my encounters adds light and truth to my days.

What do you mean?

. What happened yesterday with Clayton?

We shared Your Word! It was a good deed. He’s been a miss since he broke my singing bowl. But still hasn’t offered to replace it  . . . Or even apologized? Wow that’s weird.? I wonder how that’s coming through…. My last

What might surprise you is exactly how this is all planned for you. Like your little white pencil that never runs out of ink. little write pencil, little white pencil, little write pencil, little write pencil,

. When you rode your bike off and saw the dream at sixteen. . . You actually dreamed more about people together on transit infrastructure than anything. The Desperate Realization that all mankind's life is trapped in a car. 

YOUR Word! I love it when You do this. It’s so cool THIS year having so much with You at the same time. When I see the Bible verse and it slams me like this. I mean, it’s just wonderful to have the revelation and experience a deeper understanding and deeper truth I share with you. Every detail I hear and see and feel just reinforces your love and brings out more of this experience with you. I’m so grateful that I had this opportunity to learn to grow with you and I know I have so much more to do.

DAY 4 Read 1 John 4:7-21 (God is love)

What DID YOU LEARN NOW

YES The living water is Eucharist. The Eucharist Christ blood Christ covenant Christ love all of Christ is given to us every day. I can’t believe that people don’t understand the salvation and the sanctity that God is given to us with faith.

Like Moses with the snake on the stick.  The same snake we worship in medicine . . . So we’re worshiping satan instead of having faith in God, which is all the sacraments in our church and in our history wow DAY 4 Read 1 John 4:7-21 (God is love) The love that never ends, never ceases, never stops. . . 

DAY 5 Read Colossians 3:12-17 ("Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony")

Wow, that's for sure. 3:40:40am Sun Nov 1, 2026… and here again I go back and forth. Using the regular keyboard now. . . But also know I need to reheat my coffee and get outside to pee…before my PrayerLine Time!

This passage here from Colossians was so cool because it’s all about Being in love with God and being thankful and grateful that He IS with us, AND Gives us wisdom and guidance and insight into everything all the time. Everything is by the word of God. Everything is the Rule of Christ by his word.

Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to FULFILL GODS WILL, THIS TIME AND FOREVER!!!

132.01# SEEL been chosen and called out by name

WEEK OF PRAYER #32:  

LOOKING AHEAD WITH HOPE WE CONTINUE OUR SPIRITUAL INVENTORY, but now we focus more on the future. Some questions to consider as you sift through the graces: 

How have I grown in gratitude for the gifts God has given me?

I really have become very conscious and clear about all the Love that GOD has shared with me throughout my entire life. God has formed the earth and made it for me to live His Will. I AM really so much beyond grateful. I more careful to stay in th Trinity, and ask for guidance in all my actions careful to love everyone i meet, and ever task before me. I know this is all here for me to more fully express and LIVE the LOVE of God. Like again, in this morning Bible Reading Isaiah 45:1 from Mass . . . I AM the anointed called by name. I know I have been chosen and called out by name. I know He has called me and gifted me again and again. I will BUILD HIS CITY Isaiah 45:13, I committed to afte my Death at age sixteen.

I really seem to have always known something about this all my life. Not just that I was different or gifted somehow, where I was exempt from all sorts of things, or privileged. I live by another rule book listening to Saints and Guardian angels instead of ego and flesh, so Jesus provides everything for me.  I was really just like “everyone else God called” in the Bible to come out and do more: like I need to FAST now, as I got Larry’s Food card and my fridge is empty now. I accepted that calling from Jesus and stepped into it all with deep passion and Trust! Just like I know I can FAST for 40 days. Similarly HE told me to do the PrayerLine daily again, and it’s really been completely wonderful!

How has my understanding of call or vocation evolved over the weeks?

I really have grown to Accept and Trust this experience as i come to understand more and more everyday. I'm not questioning every step, or arguing all the time along the way, but really just accept and move on. Once again, I know I'm getting ready for something else. Something much stronger and far reaching, that I wont expect or understand at first, as I KNOW Jesus Loves Surprises. And to surprise us and bring us into a deeper place of Joy and Love is the primary focus here all the time for me now! God’s loving kindness never ends, unchanging faithfulness unwavering strength and goodness shared with me always!

Have I made a significant decision during the retreat, or do I need God's help in making such a decision in the future?

I'm always making significant decisions . . . lol . . . YES, all choices are significant; ALWAYS LISTEN TO GODS LAW = Word. . . . . This retreat has helped me realize how to LISTEN to every tiny detail of Your Love and Direction through Your Word . . .

Stopping to clean up or make more coffee or have a beer with peanuts, are all important.  I've learned that every Word of God is significant. . . HIS WORD IS LAW, and we can only approach Him with the Eucharist in forgiveness to be in His Holy Love when we always listen. It's not my place to judge and choose, which words I listen to, and which words I miss.  I've noticed that the Guardian Angels, Ancestors and Guides that I hear ALWAYS sing a chorus of Praises to Jesus!!! Yes, that the Word and Name of Jesus is constant sung in prayers, always with the Voice and Words that I hear in direction. Isaiah 45 know God! That feels like something else that I specifically asked for. Like hearing Gods' Perspective all the time, or recognizing His Love and Joy in All things around me, these all feel very familiar. Like these were things that I specifically demanded before I awoke in the Hospital. 

How would I like to structure my prayer life in the future?

I've been telling Jesus I wanted to just DO IT, or to be completely accepting His word more actively. I know They (The Trinity) like to be challenged, or the idea of wrestling in sought. I seem to have been wrestling forever. It seems like debating things seems to be something else necessary in this relationship . . . Not Like a lovers quarrels, but just the point of deciding together, and sharing the. Different passions and perspectives . . . Brothers, in a wedding commitment of covenant . . . I realize it's really about making this personal experience more two sided and more dynamic. I have been saying that I'm done with arguing and second guessing. I want to JUST DO, and get things done as He says so i can move on with whatever is next. I mean, it's really annoying sometimes that whenever I DO SOMETHING, most anything, it's always including layers and layers of elements.  I mean, it seems random that I pick things up, and move things all over, all the time. It drives me crazy that I never feel like I'm finished with anything . . . But then I'm always surprised when the last piece falls into place and I SEE the magnificent results of the random movements and changes over the months. WOW, like building my Duck Pond and moving plants outside. I know they all want to come inside with me, and I just need to figure how to water them ALL DAILY, so it becomes another constant habit, like the PrayerLine and All the Todd and Kevin Taught me with the Exodus 90. (Yes Exodus started with LENT, so 001-028 is Lent and Exodus while SEEL started Harriet at 01, and Dr.Alex at 101) . . . 

I guess this has happened with the Ducks. I've started to build a duck house and I know it's not done yet. But what's happened so remarkable is that some random pieces I've picked-up around the neighborhood have come together almost magically. I'm very impressed and inspired to see the duck space taking shape. And it drained just right. . . As the duck waste will be great fertilizer for countess fruits and vegetables. . . Wow!

What commitments do I want to renew or make to my family, friends, church, or community?

I've been engaging and doing more and more in my church and community. This picture above starts with the transit loop that i see around my house whenever i FLASH, yes there under the white “LIBRARY” label and then the Church Roof Tile Task that I started is the next pic. I know I have so much more to do and see little elements here and there that I never have considered before.  I know it’s really about focus and clarity. I’m always moving ahead and always seem to be in the right place at the right time. Like Sharing with Clayton today, where he read that blog page under the loop above.  WOW! What a smart kid, ready to read and share with me. So I said it was all about Jesus. And he’s Like “Jesus? Do you mean Church.” 

And no, Jesus is everywhere and everything. There is only ONE LIFE here and it’s all Love. Course he laughed and looked at me, like I was from another Planet. So then I popped open that equation up there and he’s seen this e=mc2 before and knows that. So yes, we are all energy and matter, and this squiggle line here is an integral in calculus. Yes he knows calculus, so then that math equation is a line, then the integral makes it an area, and then the next makes it into a volume, and then the next puts it into motion through space and time so now you have everything. Yes, everything, that’s Love, That’s God, all energy and matter come from Love and God where we can each grow the fruit of the spirit, like Dr Alex explains there ===>

Wow, was that neat to share with Clayton, where he could actually follow me and understand. And so I said how it’s about stepping into this, and recognizing our place. Our Place to Listen and Follow God. Yes to simply do His Will. . . ALWAYS

Crazy I’ve biked out to see Dean Frazer over and over again. No one there the last time. Got a flat tire there once and walked home. I’ve spoken to Brain about doing more and he gave me a few things to do. Today I cleaned and sorted the roof tiles as noted above with the picture. I think we have a set ready to go already. It’s funny, I took pictures to show what I did, and can’t seem to play with pictures yet to get them in here with my writing. Yes, I know this writing now is a priority, and I’ll add pic’s later. Jesus told me to stop for a beer and burger again so I’m here at Three Daughters reading and writing again.

Wow I love this place:

How can I better care for myself?

Yes burger today as my last meal before starting my fast. I ate most everything in my fridge. Yes I had the last eggs for breakfast before the PrayerLine today. I need to take apart my fridge and dishwasher to clean them all out. I haven’t had a working ice maker in months.

Yes the “fast” is about taking better care of myself. I know I can do so much better. I eat really careful and always have the best meals. The beer and kombucha I have all the time are always really good too. But NO FOOD for a month brings so much clarity and focus. . . And more time, as making food can take hours too!

How has my sensitivity to the poor and marginalized deepened over the retreat?

Well, I wouldn't say anything is deeper, though my homeless tenant is back in-line with his regular rent payments. He's not been regular since before Christmas, so I hope he's more stable now. I regularly send him business development opportunities and ask for him to do things related to entrepreneurship. He's still not cleared his own room and continues to add junk in there, even as I have removed things, saying that all that remained could be sold. I do think he has made his bed finally, but really not much more!

My teaching also regularly encourages business development, I'm always trying to improve things for everyone, though it seems like I’m all alone in my efforts, I post and encourage but have no idea if anyone listens and does anything with what I share.

In what concrete ways can I serve those in need?

THIS NEXT section is what Clayton read! I posted to his Dad too. HERE’s my Open Door deal. I told Larry the Laundry Machines were open for him. I’m out of detergent, so if he does a load for me, he can wash all of his too . . . Buys the Soap and Does it all.

I wonder how my efforts in teaching and urban agriculture might inspire and direct people to support more of “those in need I guess . . .yes!!!😆💞👍🥰❤️😝🥳😮🤪🤩🥸🏍️🤣

Yes, I know this is where you want me because you want to write about the ten days. I love you so very much. I am so grateful to be here with you now and I know now again everything will completely shift in 10 days. Nothing I could do or really understand. I guess I see so much coming together again.

Wow this hit me when Lisette visited.

10 days left!

Snapped the pic!?!?

10 days to what?

I heard when we had a 1000 left, 

then when we saved the first 100,

course when Joni died and I learned “we made it!!!!”

Wow, that came out with Dick Alexander. He’s on a men’s group just like this “STARS” group. I must share when something powerful happens.

This morning, Larry son read this page in my blog about the next 10 days here.

I open the door between us and I told him he was welcome anytime I was here.

Rule1-love god and neighbor in complete transparency, never hide or deceive here in my space or you are not welcome here.

Rule2-must tell me when he leaves or are done with whatever we start…

Rule3-we could do whatever he wants!  Games, Lego’s, paint, everything comes with a chore or price. Like you want to SMASH this Angel Statue, on the Floor, ok here you go smash it, but it costs your right leg!

Rule4- everything has a price: projects 4 credit; Oh yes extra pic’s of other similar projects helping at the church.

How have I grown in faith, hope, and love, and where does such life giving growth lead me now? Be specific.

 Wow, this experience of opening more of my space to the homeless child that visits me monthly was such an awesome blessing. I told him I talked to my son this morning too. Course he didn’t believe me, so I said he could look and see for himself. . . My Son Christopher, just got Married 10/10/25 as CLAIR, as he decided to be She instead?!?!?!

131.02 enter a personal relationship with Jesus!

We need to integrate the graces from all he SEEL Experiences into daily life and as I reread this Line now . . . and “I only wanna be with you” is the chorus on the radio I hear now. . . And I read the Grace about Deepening Awareness and Gratitude for GOD!  I just left a session with Scott and was told it was time for lunch and a beer. So I’m at Three Daughters crying as I type now in such grace and gratitude. Yes, I knew I had to stop somewhere. After my Code Hearing this morning I was mad and frustrated so READY for a beer . . . . so now, THANK YOU JESUS!

Please forgive me for not honoring this moment more deeply with you!  DAY 1: Romans 8:14-27 (living in the Spirit). It is really so clear about my place here more than ever. And to Cry ABBA FATHER!  Whenever I go back and read the work I’ve done here on this blog with SEEL, it gets stronger and stronger. Everything is very much in-sink and compliments my experience and work. I’m always feeling challenged and know my place is about trust, and being real with this experience every day.

Yes, it’s work for me to take the time and address and do all the things I can before me . . . I’m always listening and always moving forward with each action and each challenge.

Your impact is really a lot deeper than you know. You are surprised at the PrayerLine, where you speak to the same people again and again. But this isn’t just an odd chance. This is critical to the shifts that you are creating in their lives and all those that they reach. Each step and each interaction is critical to the growth and change you are here for. EVEN NOW!

I can see how much I do and really never know what the impact is or where things shift. I do not judge it or question it, but simply allow what’s before me to be whatever it needs to be. Of course, I try to guide people to do the same. To really Trust in Jesus and not judge the circumstances and efforts of satan to interfere and mess with us. But we all must recognize each step is learning to get closer to God, and find the deeper meaning and insights we need to stay at peace and move forward in the Joy and Love of God.

I’m here with Leon at Three Daughters ordering my second beer. I know I’ve been led by God, and know how Jesus is my Brother, and how I can share in the Trinity as the Family that I know and love this experience so deeply. This has been my life, and I know it’s becoming more clear and stable all the time. Here by the Spirit of God to be joint-heirs with Christ Jesus, sharing a beer justified and glorified in this Love experience with Jesus!

What are you feeling now? 

I keep wanting to review this blog in more detail FROM THE BEGINNING to find whatever I need in this next assignment before me. Wow, so I went back and found the place where Dr A started with me. . . To “whom Much is given, Much is Expected”

Your comment there now wasn’t even close. You are beyond the billions now. And it’s certainly more than you expected or understood. But you can DO IT, and each step you take to make this experience as you know it needed to be. Again now doing what you are led to do, even if it’s really something that you NEVER do. Recognize most of your peers rely and survive only because of this beer and relaxing at the end of the day that you are lucky to do once a month. Yes, that is why you are here now, you recognize this joy and gift we share with you. 

Yes, I know I can, or WE CAN . . . And as I read this blog posting for Friday, September 29, 2023, I never noticed how it’s September 20, 2026 now . . . 3 years, minus 9 days . . . Course 3+9=12. . . 1+2=3 bringing us through to the twelve disciples and the Trinity again exactly where I belong . . . and I always see this synergy and always feel this relationship with You Dear God. It’s really my deepest Gift to share in the Perceptions of God . . . Wow, so much Power in these words . . . Like my LOVE; And I remember how I prayed in the hospital at 16, how I wanted us all to survive, not just the few, but He created all of us, and we all have a place, so why not find a way for us all to survive?

Your impact is more clear to you now as you realize this is your work and your mission here before you to save the Earth. AS YOU ASKED TO. It was your deepest desire to find a way to save everyone. There in your deathbed, seeing your body alone in the hospital you KNEW you had to come back. YOU KNEW that if God gave you the opportunity to save everything and everyone then you had to come back knowing you could make it happen. You just needed the opportunity, and somehow you knew you could do it. And now again you are here changing everything. Because YOU KNOW you CAN!

I can deeply understand how my place is growing and more defined and stronger all the time . . . where the Prayer of a Righteous person is ever powerful! I literally just asked Leon about the owner who is now on the City Council . . . . Nothing surprises me, it’s really just beautiful how Jesus makes things grow and shift all the time . . . .

Yes this is still about your impact, as your call was a bit more extreme and powerful than most. You came here with us before you recognized how important your call was. And still this power and focus you keep as your own personal responsibility, and really do not share as much as you can. Countless people have written books and published stories to get rich and famous from the same experience that you had. And still to this day you accept the minimum and strive to be happy and comfortable alone and without, stepping humbly into this work before you.

I know it’s better for me to just be at ease, and not seek more. There is always more for me to do already, so to ask for more seems crazy, as I can only do so much . . . and I accept all that You Give me!

DAY 2 Read Romans 8:28-39 (a hymn to God's glory; nothing can separate us from the love of God in Christ). Wow so much comes so close to home for me. Of Course, Christ is with me all the time. And for me to finally really know and accept this, is really a great Honor and Glory in God. It’s always about me understanding the next steps and to be slow and clear about what it is that You have set before me. I’m always wondering what could possibly be next, but I’m always ready for anything and accept the challenges before me. And I Really do know it’s always the best thing I could think about and certainly not anything knew, but just where I belong.

All things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His Purpose . . . he did predestinate to be conformed to the image of His Son . . . he is glorified.

Wow, I am in such Joy, as I’ve come to know how much God is with me all the time and how strong this experience is in every step as I move forward. As we are “more than conquerors” stepping beyond all the challenges and experiences before us.

DAY 3: Psalm 63:1-8 ("I will bless you as long as I live"). Now this psalm is wonderful and clear for me, it's even really about how I am feeling right now. I know I've been sent here, and I know I am ready for whatever it is that you have prepared me for. I know this is my place and time, just like I know I have all that I could need for whatever is before me.

Yes I really LONG FOR YOU Jesus. I’m always working and pushing to learn and do whatever it is that I must do before me. And I know this is critical and know it’s exactly where I need to be moving forward. 

Blessed be my son, you will be glorified as you step into all that is before you. It’s nothing new or beyond you. It’s the tasks and places you have created and each is waiting for you and your action as noted in your Love and Faithfulness.

I can’t imagine what that really means nor do I know what could be next or what I am getting prepared for. I'm still Sorta tired and frustrated about all that I need to do. I am always so grateful to be able to be ready and to study My Bible and all that You set before me, and I know it really means I am ready for whatever is next. Course, I'm tired still and just want to sleep and I know Your right hand holds me up!

DAY 4: Ephesians 1:15-23 (the power and hope Christ offers believers) Ok I try to stay in trust and focus as I know Christ is with me, ALWAYS with me every day!

You will be glorified my son for all you do.

I don’t always feel like I’m doing what to need to do and i do sense so much guidance and direction all the time. I recognize how much i hear and listen and then also see when I’m stubborn and do things on my own, or really make the conscious choice to ignore the guidance that I get all the time!

Yes be glorified by staying there in truth, it’s not always easy, nor is it supposed to be.

I get it! I realized how I have this constant hum of Spirit in my head, like the background sounds of angels singing. And It’s really the Praise of Jesus Christ that I required to move to Tampa. I really never knew this or understood it completely.

This is why you have been so Glorified, speak more about what you have now learned.

I realized how I asked for God’s Perspective on all the Tasks before me and I also know I asked for the Name of Jesus Christ to come through in all the Guidance I received. But I never realized how strong and specific these requests really were! I certainly didn’t realize that they carried and continued throughout my life. 

Yes this is glorified because you are stepping into the Power and Truth of God. Making such specific requests brings you into the timelessness of God. Like David in the Bible KNEW he could beat Goliath. This was the Wisdom and Knowing that HE REQUESTED. God chose him above all others because of His Choices.  

His request for Wisdom and the Grace of God, actually steps beyond time and carries throughout his life. Like you requested God’s Perspective and Name of Jesus Christ in your Praise before coming to Tampa, and this also was a Timeless Request. Requests of God in God become timeless and carry throughout your life, just like David Had the wisdom in youth, that he only asked for much later in life.

I can understand this. And I guess I sorta see and knew this already even as my Daily Mass gives us a time of all things. Like this morning I knew to snap a picture of my Prayerline Request before I finished it. And then I DID NOT! So in the next second when the screen reset, and I lost all I had written, I felt like such an idiot, not listening to the guidance that hums in my heart all the time. And this guidance is always there, and always humming Praises in the Name of Jesus Christ . . . EXACTLY as I asked for: to always be strong and clear in the Spirit.

DAY 5: John 15:1-8 (the vine and the branches). I really love this Bible Verse. It’s one I need to remember, because I am always saying this. Not so much about the pruning, but more speaking about the Fruit of the Spirit that are always present with Jesus Christ. Doing the work of Jesus brings us more Fruit. And I guess I need to be real about the Pruning too. Yesterday, Anna called again while I was deep in my legal mess. Pulling together my research and data trying to get very strong and focused. She wanted to read her own court motion. I told her reading wouldn’t register and asked her to send me screenshots. Wow, what a mess. I explained that she was saying the same words over and over again and really wasting the time of the judge. She wouldn’t listen and kept wanting to read it to me.

Of course, now I realize she has never listened to me. Each time I pray with her she’s in the same place, the same arrogant ego in the way of real progress. She’s never done the Renounce and Command, which I’ve gone over with her over and over again. Yes, it was obvious she never did it, or never understood why, as I told her to recite it again after me. Clearly she never had tried before. Like the crap she wrote for the judge repeating gibberish over and over again that really only gets annoying.  

After over an hour on the phone with her still demanding to read it all to me, irregardless of wasting my time as well. I finally told her that I had to get back to my own work with my own court hearing on Monday. And I hung-up the phone. Yes, I blocked her from my phone again. I did that once before, when I realized she wasn’t growing and learning, but only staying in herself refusing to listen to me. I get that from Larry too, where I need to evict him for not doing anything to improve his life, my space, or improve anything. 

I guess it’s important to see that I need to prune too. Clip away the dead stuff that is not growing, but stuck in the same-old same-old. Of course, then I checked my email to find this InTouch daily devotion that gives me more insights and deeper understanding into THE WAY of God and Christ in the Trinity . . . Feeling this Holy Spirit guiding me to transform from the inside out, where I too must learn to prune my time and efforts, to be more focused and ready for whatever Jesus puts next before me. And of course, I’ve got to click the next link on the website with the Daily Devotions so knowing Jesus is Trusting the inner conviction in God; https://www.intouch.org/listen/radio/what-it-means-to-believe-in-jesus-2 STEPPING into this deeper personal relationship and love of believing in Jesus Christ as a Person of the Trinity.

Accepting this Relationship is to have the confident conviction that Jesus is as the Bible says, that He does what He says He’ll do, yes always HE will do as His Promises, Believe in Jesus and risk your personal future all for Jesus! This is the real relationship: Knowledge, Conviction, and Trust!  It’s in these Facts, that we each enter a personal relationship, and place all our trust into this moment with God. As a living Child of God, when we enter a personal relationship with Jesus!

DAY 6: John 15:9-17 (I have said these things to you so that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be complete").  Ok this was kinda neato too.  As I read this piece, I noticed tears with this Phrase "learned from my Father I have Made known to you" . . . . and Being Chosen and Appointed continues from the last piece about David and understanding how my Choices have Impacted my Whole life. Yes I can feel how this Makes JOY complete and FULL, very real and powerful.  And I guess it's really about this Knowledge and Understanding of God that I just spoke about, which makes these Indigenous tasks so strong to bring forward to Humanity. 

I'm not sure why I know this. Or how Seeing the Perspective of God in each action brings me greater insights and understanding into all of this. It's really kinda neato as I consider how all this is coming together . . . Pruning and more focus and building and changing and always something more!

DAY 7: Psalm 118:21-29 ("Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures for ever.") Yes, I'm so glad to get this last verse in here now. I've been struggling with the technology, it's just annoying and I'm always blaming the rift between microsoft, apple and adobe. . . . yes these firms are still fighting and competing like spoiled children in a playpen. Such fools, they need to learn what cooperation means before it's too late.

son you are glorified in all these tasks before you as you are more capable than ever and again this experience is evolving every moment into power and focus as none other could even understand.

I get it and I know what this means as I'm pushing in three or four different directions and I know that I will be able to step into so much more than ever before. That's just my "lot in life." Like David knew what he was doing because the memory of his CHOICE was deep inside of him, whether he knew and understood it or not. Like my work here is so clear and strong, whether I know and accept it all or not. It's really kinda weird sometimes, I know what I can do and I know my limits and still I end up pushing these beyond my own understanding.

What You do is very much in tune with these deeper issues that you simple Know at another level.  It's all about levels of vibrational energies. And each moment you shift things for everyone, since You are simply more connected to things beyond even your own understanding.  Like do you remember talking with the Aliens in High School?  Yes, that was more real than you know, and there are a lot of deeper levels there too that you've never exlpored, but you Know, Felt and Experienced.

I admit I haven't thought about that in YEARS. When I went back and read it, I recognized so much that was clearly still inside of me. I took the ACE's test again, as I'm sure I've done a thousand times now. Of course, it give me more to explore. Yes, I'm always ready for more lessons and more learning. I'm always accepting whatever Jesus places before me . . . Sometimes I wonder what it's all about. Like today I've been outside for an hour here and there, building a Duck Box. Yes, I spoke to someone about getting four baby ducks.  And of course the Code Enforcement Board wants me to empty the trailer behind my house.  So that means I have to build something with all the wood out there . . . . Sure a Duck Box, why not? I'd love to eat duck eggs each day . . . two or three even.  Why not?

131.01 Gathering Graces

WEEK OF PRAYER #31: GATHERING THE GRACES:  

OK, a new week. Exploring all the key Graces and lessons that changed my life through these SEEL EXERCISES. . . Wow, that's really asking a lot. I've been having synchronicity and Godincident (“co’incident” in the Spirit of God: God’incident . . . aka Ben+Sten) followed by synchronicity and Godincident for many months now. And it's such a challenge to accept and move forward into all these things before me, when it’s almost constant Love and Grace from GOD! In Peace and Joy!

Yes, I know I'm in God's Hands, where I know intimately the Peace, Love and Joy that He IS!  I know I've been protected and guided all of my life. I see and recognize the power and focus more and more all the time. Everything I do, whether I want to; or fight for hours before I finally doing it anyway . . . It always comes out beneficial: resulting in more Fruit of the Spirit. I'm always finding more Peace and Love in everything, no matter what it is.  Even my selfish arrogant delays and second guessing usually turns out to be better anyway.

I'm trying to be real and practical about my place and LOVE experience. Like caring for my yard and being responsible over my tools or whatever resources I have and the works before me. . . Uhg, like this assignment in SEEL and these lessons today.

• How has my awareness of God's presence in my life grown or shifted? 

Wow, this has blown up more every day. This morning in Mass, I was so filled with the Love and Joy of Jesus, I was literally vibrating in my seat. Several times I noticed I had lost touch with the Church and the Mass. I was deep into the Feelings of this Heart Energy pumping up through me in my Breath, and I didn’t notice people sitting or standing. Yes, the sun was in my face again . . . like the odd corner of the stained glass windows always reflects the full sun straight into my face!  Then the breath gets very strong and I feel so much coming up inside of me. I noticed this vibration of Love starts on my bike, and as soon as I start moving my breath gets so clear and strong. If I hear a bird, I’ll start chirping and singing out to them too: “hello, hello; hello from my heart.” I’ve also noticed that the chirp sounds I make will vary based on what I hear. I’m instinctively repeating the bird sounds almost immediately.

I guess, that was one of the first things I noticed with the Exodus 90 group too. We did the consecration to Saint Mary, and I recognized Her voice and realized I had spoken with Her constantly in the woods as a child. I’m not even sure if I thought I was speaking to Mother Nature, or to the trees, or something else. But it was so obvious that I already deeply knew Saint Mary so very well, it was like old friends coming together again in this experience with Exodus 90. I realize now that this is one of those spontaneous realizations I will just SHARE at the moment. And I wonder if this was what Fr. Curtis was mad about hearing such gossip about me getting lost rambling down some rabbithole.

With SEEL as well, it’s gotten very obvious that I have a constant conversation with the Trinity and ongoing experience that is simply unending. I mean several times, Jesus came through that moment online to me to share another trip into a rabbithole even on ZOOM for all to see and hear.  I’m only now fully realizing how much this is about my active ongoing relationship God.

That active experience of Prayers Insistently is really just my present life experience, and it became more and more obvious to me as I went through these many SEEL Exercises. I mean, I never seem to stop this constant ongoing conversation and suddenly I have a clear understanding of these experiences. I really never understood what it was or what I was doing, or that it was something unique, private, and personal to just me!?!? Each moment I’m challenged to move on and do more and more in the Joy and Love of God. Like the Prayerline this morning, someone told me they were instructed to give everything away and go out with only a bag to be homeless. So after the prayers and doing the “Renounce and Command” Lessons, I told him it was important to ask for the Name of Jesus Christ. Knowing and hearing the name of God can only come through the Trinity: God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit of Angels and Saints. I told him satan was always in deceptions and could pretend to be any voice at any time, BUT ONLY GOD could reply with the Name of “Jesus Christ!”

This bible verse from Isaiah came through to me so strong. This was from the Fr. Mike readings, and it was so clear and strong like God Speaking directly to ME. Yes I felt how I was called as a Teacher or whatever, and I listened to this Day in the App over and over again. Day 212 in the ascensionpress.com Bible in a Year . . . Yes, Jesus is always doing what he needed to do to get me where I needed to be. And I know this already. Now SEEL has been very clear and focused to get me right where I needed to be in My life and Spirit with GOD.

• What ways of praying were most meaningful or challenging for me? 

I’ve found Prayer in all aspects of my life. I know Jesus and God in each experience and challenge before me. Every moment I’m pulled to know and experience this Love and Divinity. I know God’s guidance and symbols come to me in everything around me. Having grown up in the Woods, knowing Saint Mary deeply, brings me to see and Know God in all Nature and all Life around me all the time. Having this Perspective of God, really means that I can see God in Everything. This means I’m always seeking God and Always seeking to understand the symbols and relationships around me more deeply, as I need to adopt and understand what He gives to me every moment. 

Thus, the greatest challenge here is that I needed to recognize this Relationship with God more fully. Sure I’ve talked to the trees and birds and bunnies all my Life. AND NOW, this moment I realized how my family was always violent to me, so I learned from birth to AVOID PEOPLE!  And my Mom tried to protect me and hide me from this violence . . . She taught me the Prayer of Saint Michael to protect myself and I realize it helped to block my own EMPATHY. I could feel people driving by in a car, deeply sense their Angels, pickup their hearts and minds. Wow, all this was blocked by Saint Michael spinning his Sward and Shield around me for DECADES! 

Now as I’ve shared the MOST powerful and meaningful praying is with my Bike Ride, and then stepping into a Church with Christ in my Heart. Each Corporal Prayer in mass brings me deeper into a stronger vibrations of Love and Joy. Anytime I share with another soul, animal, vegetable, or mineral I have invited Christ into my Heart. Everything gets stronger in this love vibration.  I know the challenge I have now is to carry Christ in my Heart all the time.

• How have I grown in knowledge and love of Christ? 

Yes the Love and Knowledge of Christ is my life, Christ’s LOVE is growing into my Life Constantly.  I know this is really endless. And I know that I can BE and DO anything in Christ. Wow, to consider what this means is really remarkable. One day riding my Bike into church, I had the sudden revelation that we had succeeded in saving 1000 people. Suddenly I was in Tears. It was a powerful and abrupt realization. Like something clicked over the edge that moment. Now 1000s saved! And then I knew we could save everyone. . . Wow. . . Yes everyone had me deeper in tears.

I remember one experience online in ZOOM, where I remembered when Joni died and came to ask “if we made it.”  I was knocked down on the steps and looked up at the pictures of her and her family on my wall. “Yes, we made it” we saved the last city. She knew that’s what raised me in the hospital in 1980. She knew her hubby was convinced and dedicated to complete whatever we had started with God. She knew it was critically important for us to do these challenges before us. She just wanted the greater perspective from God, and came to me at her moment of death . . . And I’m sure she had all things confirmed stepping into her new life with God. It was a spontaneous expression, where I fell into this rabbithole and spoke out the experience there for all to see, as I could remember more details and got a deeper understanding again. Every time I share something of my past experiences I hear a bit more details . . . I think this is why I am always gettin lost down a rabbithole talking and sharing too much for all the sheeple who refuse to understand. 

That’s My Truth!  Yes, satan is a lie, death is a lie, there is only Love. There is ONLY GOD. Truth can never contradict Truth. We all can choose to BE LOVE, and be with God is the Free act of Faith into this experience with God.

• Where have I experienced greater interior freedom? 

There is ONLY Love. 

There is ONLY GOD.  

There is ONLY Truth 

And Truth can never contradict Truth. And there is nothing more real than this.

We all can choose to BE LOVE, and this is the freedom and deeper Truth I’ve come to know intimately in my relationship with Christ Jesus. And we all have a Cross to bear, moving forward into the love experience ONLY God Creates. He Creates only Freedom, Joy, Peace, and Love to bring us deeper into the experience before us. This is really the greatest interior freedom. God is about doing the Right things at the right times. And this comes easy with His continued Guidance that we can step into daily with only our choice!

• Where is there still disorder or lack of interior freedom in my life? 

Ok, I Lack the Love of a petite goddess here to love and care for me again. There is ONLY GOD’s Love, and my only lack in freedom is to share more at church, and a partner. Yes, a close female intimacy would be nice too. I actually cried the other day about being alone. Yes, I know Jesus and the Trinity is always with me walking in His Spirit. While truth is, personal interaction is necessary. Truth can never contradict Truth. And the Truth of my interactions socially is that i need to start sharing more of who i really am. And I guess evangelize, share the Love of Jesus. Ok, I guess I have Lack in fear to heal people! Yes, Hug MORE to HEAL!

Wow, I said it.  We all can choose to BE LOVE TO HEAL PEOPLE.

Weee, that was fun. ;-D))) I love to share with people and that experience of healing in the hugs is always so wonderful.  I know I need to find out how to share this more openly. Wow, as I write this now, I sense the fear of discovery where everyone wants something . . . . So maybe I need to stay hidden!

• How do I most usually experience consolation and desolation?

Love. There is ONLY GOD. Truth can never contradict Truth. We all can choose to BE LOVE, it’s so cool to copy a phrase in this blog to get the layout and format right. Everything is always perfect. So repeating these phrases of love and truth are really ideal here and belong here. And I’ve edited and expanded the copied phrases before, while this time speaking of consolation is really acknowledging that I’m never in desolation. I can always be grateful and confident in the blessing and Loves of GOD!

Yes, I still get stuck and frustrated at times too. But resolutions are always obvious and things end up better, stronger, more focused.

Auditio divina (also called audio divina) is a contemplative prayer practice of sacred listening derived from the ancient Benedictine tradition of lectio divina (divine reading). Instead of reading a passage of scripture, you listen deeply to a piece of music, a sacred hymn, or song lyrics to encounter God and let the sound or message penetrate your heart.

The Four Steps of Auditio Divina

1. Audio (Listening): Listen to a short song or musical piece (typically 3 to 5 minutes) for the first time without distraction, letting the melody and cadence wash over you. Notice any initial words, phrases, or emotional resonance.
2. Meditatio (Meditation): Listen to the piece a second time. Ruminate on the specific lyrics, sounds, or feelings that stand out, considering what they might mean or why they captured your attention.
3. Oratio (Prayer): Turn your thoughts into a conversation with God. Express what you felt during the music, ask why a certain message resonated with you, and listen for how it applies to your life.
4. Contemplatio (Contemplation): Rest quietly in God's presence. Give thanks for the time of prayer and allow the peace and message of the music to sink deeply into your soul.