SEEL #129: LOVE CONTEMPLATION silent adoration, prayer, and communion with GOD

WEEK OF PRAYER #29: THE CONTEMPLATION OF THE LOVE OF GOD

Wow, this is the goal and focus of all these lessons: God wants our Loving friendship. Not just to be best-buds, but to have that Love beyond all things. God wants to be known by us, where we seek the deepest passion and action in experience. These passionate divine desires are the source of our deepest needs to know, love, and serve God. Wow, so much happening so quickly. I visited our new mayor today. . . 

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His Purpose.” Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭28‬ ‭KJV‬‬  

I’m starting this next Lesson in SEEL and again I feel so blessed to know and experience so much here before me, that seemingly is out of reach for so many people. I really have come to learn how RARE my real experience is!  I know this is my place and time to step stronger into the place that I know and have helped to create. 

Yes, I know Jesus as my Best-Bud, and I know everything was planned and set by our works together. Yes, I literally said three words today, how my dream for this city won a Disney’s award in the 1980’s? Wow, what a crazy thing to say!?!?! And now again I hear the JoyFm Prayers: Psalms 59:16 “But I will sing of thy power; Yea, I will sing aloud of thy mercy in the morning: For thou hast been my defense and refuge in the day of my trouble. Unto thee, O my strength, will I sing: For God is my defense, and the God of my mercy.” Psalm‬ ‭59‬:‭16‬-‭17‬ ‭KJV wow, and the rain comes down on me now. . . wow. . .‬‬

I’m so blessed to have this experience to share and read and learn more about this special relationship and experience that I have with God. Yes Father, Son and Holy Ghost. It’s really remarkable how much comes together for me each and every day. As I open this book and read of God’s Love while simultaneously Listening to Charles Stanley who is repeating the same ideas and same words that the Radio brings forth to me as well.

Yes, 12:02pm 7/18/2026 I’ve biked home from the 9:30am meeting in his new suite and I’ve come into my room. Completed Day 168 from Bible in a Year with Fr. Mike and then opened this blog to continue with this lessons, adding the Grace I FEEL NOW knowing we have a neighbor running to be our Mayor. FOR THE PEOPLE, sounds like cleaning up shop, since burrowcrates are always about MORE burrowcrates and not much else. . .  

Of course, now back to my original writing, it’s all connecting to the deeper power and Love of God Flowing through so strong and vibrantly. And I savor the feeling and the sounds of the thunder and rainstorm overhead now . . . . THANK YOU Dearest Love Lord Jesus!

More critical to our experience is recognizing our responsibility to stay in this flow of the love of Jesus, whatever that responsibility means for each one of us! To carry our cross as Jesus did! And I know I can do more than I do, and I know it’s all been given to me, exactly as I asked, I couldn’t have decided anything better. We couldn’t have decided anything better. Each blessing gets stronger, and more focused, each opportunity is clear and strong stepping out before me.

I’m sitting in the mass now at St Raphael in the old church, Caverly Hall and it’s all set up with chairs and Mary just got up and walked past me and said good morning!  My first instinctive desire was to stand up and hug her . . . And soon Roy came by too, reaching out to shake my hand and I did stand up and hug him. I snapped a screenshot here of these writing and spontaneously sending to Lisette, anticipating her entry into Mass, knowing I can hug her too . . . lol, it’s funny how I can hug one but not another. Of course, after I sent it to her I found typos and needed to edit it. Just like speaking and sharing with people. One person asks something that gets me racing down some rabbit hole, while the next person, next question has me done in seconds. . . 

Yes, SEEL Day ONE starts with the phrase again to:  ask for what you desire. I want Jesus to return Home and help me restore the Garden of Eden for all Earth to enjoy and share in. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ in Profound Gratitude for allowing me to become this love and service of Your bountiful expression of Your Mercy and Glory to bring Mankind forward into Your Will in All Things. 

Here again, in this next lesson, the first point in day one is about Gratitude for the wonderful Gifts God Desires for me, that never cease to amaze me. Each day I’m blessed beyond reason as I feel this wonderful sense of joy and happiness as I experience: the goodness and wonder of my daily encounters in each moment before me.

Wow, as I read this page from the SEEL book, and considered my experience today, I started this page again, and then I jumped up with a leg cramp and went downstairs, not sure what I needed to do. Seeing Larry I told him about meeting Charles this morning. Again Giving ALL that I am.  Course, Larry has met Charles before, and so I shared my first encounter with the bike ride and then the followup this morning.  All is God's Gift that is ALL I AM to share and give forward

Knowing the clarity and focus shared with Charles was so much more than I could understand or express to Larry. I explained to Larry about my accident and being “sent to Tampa” to win the Dreamers and Doers award my college freshman year. That I shared with Charles again today. And then explained to Larry how starting STARS was my own attempt to build the Visions I had witnessed with my accident as the task before me to do Gods WILL.  ALL YOURS JESUS!

Yes, pondering these deep personal creations, redemption and gifts granted for me to share . . . Wow, and here again I could share something so deep and intimate for me and know it only opens the door for more growth. To consider this as a “redemption” or restoration of the dream and passions of connecting people to Health and Truth in Love with Jesus. Again here speaking of the Vision and Dream I’ve seen countless times morphed into physical expressions before my eyes for so long.  It’s really remarkable when I consider that I'm back to the same place I started sharing the one incredible vision that I had.

Now considering all that I’ve seen and put forward, I realize that I can now again rewrite the vision and passion for a new experience and a new place. How can I give all of this for a new experience, and a new opportunity for my city and my community to step into a new place.

 

DAY 2: Repetition of the first point of the Contemplation. If helpful in your prayer of thanksgiving, revisit Psalm 139 from earlier in the retreat or Psalm 138, a hymn of gratitude. In praying with the Take, Lord, Receive prayer, ask: What are my particular gifts, talents, and other blessings that I want to offer for the service of God and others? 

Yes Christ Love through FAITH!  Wow, “contemplate” my Bountiful Gifts, Talents and Blessings from this first point in the Love of Jesus. How powerful is this going to get now? I’ve never shared so much of God Visions in Me to anyone, since NJ Late nights talking with Joyce Spielberger . . . WOW!

To really consider, view, and think about all that I’ve been Given!?!?! I mean, even to consider the last few days and what it really means for me to even share or speak about what I’ve seen and shared. It’s really just remarkable to remember. I mean now to have a moment of blessing, where I'm comfortable and quiet in my big king bed, with the grounded silver sheet plugged in the wall, a bamboo mattress, organic linen sheets . . . Covered by some soft felt “weighted” blanket an AirBnB Guest left for me. . . .

I thought I was pleased and gifted when I moved into this house where all the furniture was left behind. But I never slept in a big king bed before . . . And my white pencil on this iPad, interrupted by nibbling my organic nut mix, with a scoop of my organic died fruit mix and some three daughters brewery strong Mexican Stout.  And I laugh tying to "lookup" Stout similar to the "contemplation" checkup that i did, and posted up above.

I mean, every tiny detail of my experience, trying to write this in bed now, really SCREAMS of the Complete Passion, Pleasure, and Extreme DELIGHT, Savored with my Lord Jesus Christ . . . . I am in FULL-REALIZATION now again that God, Father, Son and Holy Ghost equally savor this moment WITH US! 

I mean, then I’ll speak to my iPad and realize how much easier it is to just share the feeling of the power of this moment with my words as a bubble of warmth from my heart envelops my voice. And then I focus to feel the warmth of my heart fill, and swell above my chest, knowing that these words will have no meaning until one feels Christ in Church, Family, Love, and Experience . . . While simultaneously my chest bone springs up again. . . And I think I can snap a picture to share now too!

What’s more remarkable than everything is how much I really hunger to snap pictures and suddenly film and edit a short video clip here, to discover my beer glass has “Merry Christmas” written in raised letters across the bottom, how appropriate to share this mement.

  

Then these above verses includes all I’ve studied today, with the three hearts from the Charles Stanley Podcasts: KNOWing how Christ Dwells in the Love with Me, and Each day I’m sharing and learning more about this experience and how to bring it forth for others. And I accept and step stronger into this moment of strength and justice knowing full well the mighty strength and transitions before us.

Yes, this Wondrous Lord God filled with Blessing and Kindness approaches this movement with me, and I’ve barely dreamt at all what could manifest with the fall classes, entrepreneurship sustainability and mangroves. . .  

Matthew 5:16 “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” Matthew‬ ‭5‬:‭16‬ ‭KJV‬‬… and it brings me back to these good works in your Will. And I see a long progression of works I must complete today beginning with my morning walk to Mass. Yes, I've been attending every day again. As each morning I do all my regular podcasts and even had my iPhone read my email messages that included Chris Stephanic and Cathy Kaster 

And I find my next space hungry and ready for me to chase, pursue and catch now: Wow, and I know Christ Jesus is ready and anxious to share

Here again you are ready to step into another place, deeper, stronger, and you know it's where discernment wins and grows stronger! Each step you take, and each moment means more and more for you as this power and desire to express more comes through to you strong and stronger each moment.

More clear and more focused about myself and my own Deeper desires to really BE GODS TEMPLE, here and now in this Good City and Catholic Community. . . 

you are more than ready to do each step before your . . . . you have some wonderful tasks at hand and each has a timing and sequence where this love bubbling from your breast becomes more and more apparent to you . . . Fearless you move forward, calling forth your peers and friends . . . 

What is more perplexing than all is accepting this love and all it really means for me right now.  I go to Mass again, and stop to do Bible in a Year with Fr. Mike, then call people I need to meet and share with. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to listen and learn where I must go next. . . 

My Morning bike ride to Mass, had in walking in the soon enough just to kneel as Mass was starting. I watched the older women in front of me struggling at stand, and again my first instinct was to go Hug Her, just like Mass in Caverly when Tom with his walker struggled to stand next to me. . . and Mary . . . So I wondered watching the process of Mass what could I say to the Father about healing these people before me?

Is that what I need to do next?  Ask permission to heal people?  Like excuse me Father, I'm the "Name of Knowledge" where I've learned and experience God in ALL THINGS, sorta like Saint Ignatius teaches all the Jesuits in Lesson 29. Yes Jesus Created all and Has some essence in all things we can connect to BY CHOICE to learn, grow and heal from the Love of God around us. So each person now before me with back pain and mobility issues will feel relief if they take off their shoes and hug me. Placing our hearts together, I can describe in detail the experience of our magnetic hearts spinning together and connecting to Earth Magnetism to release all pain, trauma, sickness into the Earth.

Then . . . .

This better get focused again on SEEL! 

128.02 that I might have a Full Life and a Glorious experience

DAY 2 Read Luke 24:36-49 (Jesus appears to the apostles). Notice how the risen Christ greets his friends, and us, with the gift of peace. Where in your life do you wish for peace? In what situations can you give the gift of peace?

Now again this lesson asking about Peace and my wish for peace is always seeking a greater expression of Divinity throughout our experience and lives. NOT JUST my own! I requested peace for this home and have been pleasantly surprised about how things turned out yesterday with the MMM, and suddenly having the extra cash required.

And similarly the first thing that jumps out at me from this next Lesson Verse is Jesus responding to the "Questions of the Heart."  Of course, it's always about the focus and power of the Holy Spirit residing in the Heart.  And again this is what every experience has been about for me this week. Everything I am doing and working on or thinking about is here at this same point about the power and focus of LOVE from my heart.

I really thought is was powerful about how Jesus “ate before them.” Like with Emmaus, it was about breaking bread and here again eating fish. I’m certain this has something to do with the Prophecies and/or the Jewish traditions.  Something about BEing in the physical body needing food is really fundamental to “it is written” and these disciples being “witnesses” to this experience that he shared with them. 

Interesting, this makes me curious about my blogs and recordings and all the efforts I go through to update these Apple, Adobe, and Google technology tools to provide me greater ease in sharing these deeper messages and insights before me. Of course, I begin my day with the Prayerline where Jesus encourages me to share the Renounce and Command :

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You got me, as usual. . . Yes Healing Ministry, Dr. A told me to call Harriet and we just chatted on the phone for 10 minutes . . As noted above she recommended this school. . . And I know it’s time for me to start healing people. I’ve seen so many people getting close to me that are resonating in that vibration. I’ve even had encounters with babies again. And I explained that to the counselor this week, how babies always see JESUS inside of me. It’s happened all my life for a baby to see Jesus, and I know that’s what they saw. Because I share Jesus and I share this Love that is so real . . . that babies always know!

I’ve always Felt like they were looking over my head, over My shoulders or really just looking straight through me. It’s really wonderful because I see the wonder in their eyes and they smile. It’s always so beautiful . . . . Then, writing through these lessons, I remembered the experience of how the babies would always respond to me In Waldwick United Methodist Church and the nursery ladies asking me to come back and volunteer every week and it is always so beautiful!!

What are you feeling now? It’s really nice of you to copy in these lines for us. Like taking the red pen with your paper journal . . . You accept and acknowledge how much we desire to share and be with you. Now again skipping sleep tonight so you can complete these tasks we have outlined for you. And you know you can do anything, so skipping a meal or a night never slows you down at all.

You got me. 10:44pm. Yes I seem to be getting ready for some serious storms. My tarp blew apart outside and I've got the tie things down better.

DAY 3 Repetition. Who or what gives me joy? 

I realize my ultimate joy has become a sharing and doing things with Jesus. The morning bike ride has gotten so intense and so focused. After my accident I’m sore all over the place, but I don’t care, because I need to get out for the Sunrise and I need to get out for Mass. I would do the same prayers with the sunshine two or three times if I could. I love every minute of it. I’m trying to say “Hello from my heart” again as I’m riding; it’s just totally bliss completely. It's really singing to the birds, and loving every second of these experiences, and Jesus is always consoling me and encouraging me to keep going and doing more and more every moment, knowing how Jesus makes everything work just right along with God.

DAY 4 Read John 20:19-23 (Jesus appears to the disciples). Notice how Jesus meets the disciples amid their fears and gives them the comfort of the Spirit in such an intimate gesture. The Spirit liberates them from their fears and sends them out of their locked room to a world in need. What fears do you face? Where do you experience the comfort of the risen Christ? Are you experiencing a sense of mission at this point in your retreat?

It's really remarkable every moment as I know I can do more and more in this direct experience with Jesus. And I'm really fearless about it. As I know it's all just perfect . . . Now at 11:33pm of course, why else would you stop me to write again. And now more than ever there is a stronger focus, stronger clarity, stronger peace in this love experience with you! I've cleared out my fridge tonight. Larry worked with Leslie and then gave me some cash so I could go shopping and I got all I needed to make New chicken soup. New steak, new lamb, and a new fruit salad. Yes my fridge was empty yesterday, so I decided to clean it out.

Started with five jars of chicken soup stuff in a big pot with a whole chicken. Yes this cleaned out my freezer. Remade the Golden Milk all ready too . . . And now all we need is to finish the fruit salad, so when that's all done, what is next for me. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ  . . . . You are really the best ever!

 

Oh yes, Read John 20:19-23 and feel the Joy of this Purple Heart here with Jesus Breathing on me again now, as He sends me forward to do and share what is best with Him! So now again; I drop a picture in, to make the screen space big on my iPad. Yes it gets big enough for me to use my pen again. It's really remarkable how powerful every moment is for me, as my writing needs another picture from this next verse.

What are you Up to now?

DAY 5: Read John 20:24-31 (Jesus appears to "doubting Thomas"). Notice how compassionately Jesus deals with doubts, which are a natural part of a faith journey. Periods of doubt and questioning can lead to a stronger, more deeply held faith. The key is to keep the conversation going with the Lord, as you have been doing throughout your retreat and as Thomas does with Jesus. Can you relate to Thomas's doubting? Can you say with him the great proclamation of faith that concludes this Gospel story: "My Lord and my God!"

DAY 6: Read John 21:1-19 (Jesus appears to Peter and the disciples). Imagine yourself in this very dynamic scene. Can you feel the disciples' excitement and wonder and Peter's enthusiasm? Listen to the intimate dialogue between Jesus and Peter. Imagine Jesus saying the same to you. Notice the command that Jesus leaves Peter. How are you called to"feed" and "tend" to others? 

DAY 7: Repetition.

You got me, as I know this conversation keeps going, and going, and going, and I just love how strong and clear You are telling me that my fasting and sleep doesn’t matter, cause I’m with You and that means everything will be fine with me whether I’m ready for it or not. Like Thomas, having Your reassurance is so powerful and Joyful. Yes, we all doubt sometime whether we know it or not! Each moment with You gets us more focused and clear … accepting my place and time this moment with you in critical. I choose to be in Joy, I chose to accept this Love and Peace with Jesus. Sitting here continuing all that Jesus brings to me!

DAY 5: Read John 20:24-31. This verse where Thomas asked to touch and see only what Jesus Himself could provide. This powerful experience in 8 days Bringing PEACE, brings me so much intimacy with Jesus. Then I’ve always felt this power of believing so strongly "without ever seeing" Jesus . . . But the Beauty and Joy He shares in all my experiences come through so strongly that I know His presence and BELIEVE so deeply and confidently, since it’s just wonderful to see so much of His Handiwork in all parts of my life . . . That I might have a Full Life and a Glorious experience where I focus on the Love of God's Will, submitting always to His Direction, where I obey in silence and step into things with Trust, not even knowing what could be next.

What are you feeling now?

It’s really wonderful to be here with You. I got more peace and beauty here than ever before. The ease in writing every day I share is so much more and again as I'm listening to Bishop Barron speak about the same experiences that I have and see every day: https://institute.wordonfire.org/st-benedict

What are you feeling now?

I know about these experiences that You got for me each and every day. And I know this next day will be deeper and stronger than the last. And to hear Bishop Barron now is perfect as I experience so many things he's describing, which really confirms my challenges as God Continues to Lead and Guide all who Listen!

DAY 6: Read John 21:1-19

This is always so remarkable for me as I work there and write there and now back again here with an iPad and the pencil and I'm delighted to see how I added these pictures from the weekly Masses already here to create the perfect “writer space” for me to use now, and again I try to speak and share something very unique and powerful as I know I must. And this Bible verse reinforces what I've already shared about how Jesus called his friends to “come and see” to take bread and enjoy with the risen Christ. Then three times Jesus asked Peter about love enough to feed His sheep. Like his returning three times, and then eating with them three times. There is always a very strong regular feeling and experience here. I'm always writing about this same consistent synchronicity that follows me with all my work and actions with Jesus.

And now again, I have the distinct opportunity and pleasure to write and share very clearly and strongly about my direct experience.  I noticed I was at the SEEL Lesson for day 7 now with a repetition again. What has repeated over and over was having this direct experience WITH Jesus, beyond the imaging and external grasping but a very real personal experience.

We are seeking that you express more about this deeper feeling and understanding that you got!

Yes, I know I get so much of a strong feeling from these daily Mass readings that always remind me of this awesome relationship and experience with God. Like, here again at the right where I highlighted my experience of having so much already and I am always given more and more all the time. And I understand this deeper and deeper in my heart as I've written earlier where I could feel the love of my heart overpower everything.

What are you feeling now

Wow, I’m really feeling like there is so much I still need to do. I meet with Dr A tomorrow, and have an interview with the City to take over special projects. Of course, all I’ve ever done is special projects and to be called into an interview today will be interesting. Yesterday, I woke up with a sore thought and I’ve been in bed coughing ever since.  Yes, I’ve tried to sleep and have taken Nyqual a few times, which is really the only medicine I’ve even taken. 

Anyway, I also see this “sick in bed” makes more and more time to write again and share. And I remember feeling my Heart fill up with the Joy and Love that I’ve recognized bubbles over in my voice.

And this time I was in church where I can’t really just say whatever I want. And then I noticed the bone in the center of my chest springing-up again. I’ve noticed this before with the High Vibrations of Joy and Love. Course, what comes to mind now is the first time I noticed it at the James Twyman Mayan Calendar ending celebration in Asheville, OR. I was behind the scenes recording video and bumped into one of the indigenous presenters who was equally charged with Love adn Joy at that moment and I tapped on his bone that strung out, after we hugged, to go my own and he laughed acknowledging the deeper understanding.

What are you feeling now?

What is really powerful and remarkable now is knowing and accepting how much I've developed my soil here in St. Pete… yes taking from the Mass reading here at right and it's not only the awesome soil and plants I tend outside which grow and shift almost daily. But also the incredible opportunity I have to do more in my community and home. I know it's always about Jesus, and I know learning and teaching others about plants and seeds is really what I'm doing now more than ever.

More clear than ever in this Mass reading is where I added the text box at the bottom to write in more. Like the questions about sharing more of the word of God where the “Well-ordered Life” falls in line with the Will of God!

What are you feeling now

What a great time I get downstairs to eat my hot soup and relax as I restart the Word on Fire on the Pivotal Players to continue in my studies. Yes, as this link above shows I’m listening to the story about Saint Ignatius who created these SEEL lessons I’m doing now.  

What are you feeling now

What is more remarkable than ever is the Joy and Love I feel knowing that I’ve stepping more strongly into the Will of God. I mean, literally this moment. 

What are you feeling now

Well I’m sitting in Kahwa’s where I just met with another conscious soul. Course Paul just left too, and greeted me as he’s leaving. He said the Palladium, that he’s run for years, is about to close for a complete over-haul.  Course he mentioned they are still fundraising for this and I teased that he gets the year-off while the work gets done. NOT!  Usually refurbishing means more work than ever.  But he looks good and happy. 

Wow, and this Mass reading to the right here speaks of sharing the glorious freedom in the Creation Itself. . . Wow, that’s all that I spoke about sitting here with my coffee.

What are you feeling now

Wow, I just read what I wrote above and how “paul left” and sharing the conscious creation with Phillip. . . Yes I know I always share too much. And I guess it’s important for me to go back to this Mass reading where we have seen and shared the “firstfruits of the Spirit” which is about Joy, Love and Peace. . . . So now we are getting ready for Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness and Self-Control.

ALLELULIA! 

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What are you feeling now The traditional Gifts of the Spirit list is rooted in the Book of Isaiah (11:2-3) and expounded upon by theologians like St. Thomas Aquinas. They include: [1, 2]

Wisdom: The ability to judge rightly about matters of faith and see life from God's perspective.
Understanding: Deepens one's grasp of the truths of faith and the mysteries of God.
Counsel (Right Judgment): Helps discern the right moral choice in confusing or difficult situations.
Fortitude (Courage): The strength and endurance to remain faithful to God, particularly in times of trial.
Knowledge: Enables one to see the value and purpose of created things in relation to God.
Piety (Reverence): Fosters a deep, loving devotion and respect for God as our Father.
Fear of the Lord (Wonder and Awe): A profound respect for God's majesty and a fear of separating oneself from His love.

Ok this daily reading where he who hears the Word and Understands it comes to Bear Fruit. . . And I know the Fruit of the Spirit and then these Gifts of the Spirit are equally important.

What are you feeling now

What is more remarkable than anything was sharing with Dr. A this morning and realizing how important it was for me to request God’s Perspective. I remember when I first started it wasn’t about asking for wisdom or truth, it was just to “SEE what God SEEs” so I could understand His deeper meaning and purpose in the challenges and events in my life. And again now, I realize how blessed I am. . . For even when I saw These Wonders of God, and did not understand or comprehend their impacts and meaning, I still trusted and stepped forwards in the guidance and Will of God to do whatever I needed to do in any moment.

What are you feeling now

What is so funny whenever i copy a few lines like this to get the format right in my blog. . . . You love to surprise me, in never editing a word and bringing me back again and again to the power and focus on Your Mercy. . . Like NOW in this last Purple Heart I’ve highlighted and marked: I have Trusted in thy Steadfast Love in my Heart and shall rejoice in Thy Salvation and I will Sing to the Lord, because he has dealt Bountifully with me!

What are you feeling now

Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to Learn and Share Your Abundance More Fully! Amen.

PRAYER #128.01: THE RISEN LIFE with Christ as consoler.

WEEK OF PRAYER #28: THE RISEN LIFE IN THE CONTEMPLATIONS THAT FOLLOW, continue to reflect on the role of Christ as consoler. In your own life, look for signs of how God has consoled and continues to console you and the people around you. Where do I find joy? Who or what gives me joy?

What are you feeling now?

I really Love how You share so much with me. And yes I am so grateful and blessed to share and see so much joy and peace in my experience now. Your Grace and Consolation is ever present in every moment I experience. I find it most strongly with my bike ride. Recently, I noticed that the first few minutes, I’m really riding in silence and watching and listening. I sit back without my hands on the handle bars, and relax enjoying the breeze and peace. And then after a bit I will start responding to the birds and animals around me and then start talking with Jesus recognizing His Peace and beauty in all Creation.

What are you feeling now?

You got me down here to write again now and I reread and see now adding these purple and red hearts resonating with “God of Life” and Hope …filled with His Light Reconciled in Meaning and this Beauty everywhere as noted in this Whole Image Again.  So each morning I start biking and realize this deeper peace and joy with the life around me. And I always start chirping to the birds and singing: "hello from my heart"

What are you feeling now?

Yes, this SEEL section ends with a prayer to “ask for what I desire.” I really have avoided asking for anything more for myself, as I feel I have so much already. I have said many times I really want You to come back and restore Eden in this space with me here. And I've really tried to do everything I can to make this work. If I’ve finally come close enough to Your Word now to share and write more here everyday, then it is time for this Joy and Bliss I have to bring You forward as well. . . So this works, and yes, I’ve also marked here above how I always wanted healing for all my Family and Friends so they can all share this Peace and Home with You. Yes, this Peace in my home means no more stress and no more conflicts and no more worries about my home here in Saint Pete, where I am able to share more fully and be at ease.

DAY 1 Read Luke 24:13-35 Notice again how Jesus' disciples do not recognize him at first. Notice too how Jesus just walks and listens to the disciples in their sadness and confusion . . . . 

I read Your Living Word here again and more power and clarity comes forth to me as I see and recognize how strong and clear everything is before me. And Jesus was SAD and "oh you fools . . slow of heart" and He took bread, and I'm in tears again for this Gift from God. I remember when I was doing the SEEL lessons for the last supper and I was several weeks behind the regular class and the Bible Verses and their lessons were here in Emmaus and I felt so blessed seeing how Jesus repeated the stories of Moses and the Prophets here like he had at the last supper then connecting me more than ever before to the power of the Bread and the Covenant he created for the forgiveness of sin.

7:17am Mon Jul 6 2026, and I missed my sunrise, as I was deep in emails about my this home. 1st about ADA permits to install bricks in my front yard and then about another bankruptcy mortgage modification mediation (MMM), that will certainly be rescheduled again or something else crazy I'm sure.

How has Jesus walked with you these weeks? How do the disciples - and how do you - recognize the risen Christ? How have you experienced your heart burning these weeks? What desires are stirring in your heart now?

I really had a powerful experience this week. Riding my bike again, I had turned on my recorder and had the mic connected correctly. And again my first question was why was it so important to get this technology together and working right? And I felt this STRONG Love and Joy in my heart. And yes that burning in my heart was very clear and powerful and I could recognize it bubbling up to my voice. Like Suddenly I realized the connection and SAID OUTLOUD: how the desire and passion was to record my exact experience of Loving in Jesus, Talking and Listening to His Guidance coming through to me . . Specifically on my BIKE RIDE . . . HEARING and understanding this feeling of my burning heart bubbling up into my voice.

Now on SpiritFM is Fr. Mike with the Catholic Readings: Paragraph 547 The signs of the Kingdom of God Jesus accompanies his words with many "mighty works and wonders and signs," which manifest that the kingdom is present in Him and attest that He was the promised Messiah!

This Love and Joy I feel in my heart bubbles up to lead and direct my voice. It's ALWAYS so WONDERFUL ===> 

So suddenly on this particular bike ride my Voice was filled with the Love and Joy of Jesus and my head could LISTEN and LEARN. These feelings and vibrations were so very strong and clear and I kept fumbling with my technology trying to be sure I recorded this voice that I heard so clearly. And yes "WOW," as I wrote this on the Luke 24 Verse above, while in my first reading I added the Highlights and Red Hearts around the Bread Jesus used to create this Covenant with Him to Fill us with the Holy Spirit. Each time I read this and then heard the "Heart of Earth" from the Radio come through to me so I could FEEL the deep Love and Joy to bring this threw more stronger now than ever before.  And Now the big Blue Heart Burning into WOW, into the very real and powerful experience I know in my day now. 

And then the Mass Daily Readings speaks of the Lord's Strength coming to those who serve HIM. And I Seek Always the Lord! ALLELUIA, ALLELUIA, THE KINGDOM OF GOD IS AT HAND!

I'm always perplexed how these pictures show up. I've been fasting again and it's been a day and a half. Coffee and coco only today so far. And I'm so looking forward to eating something later. I thought I was skipping another day. But I'm not sure.

I've been running outside to redo the front before the ADA lady comes tomorrow.  I really have no idea what she will look at or what she will say. Then of course every time I come inside I'm reading and adding to my work here. Like yesterday was the Society of Saint Joseph men's group at the St. Paul's Catholic Church next door. Ben was there with his dad who visited me over the weekend. And then we listened to a video review of this Magnifica Humanitas, which was kinda neat. 

Yes, this picture with the pope was on my iPhone and I dropped a shape and then text on top, which I typed out while listening.  Yes, I’ve been able to speak to enter this text on a picture, but not do the handwriting there with the pen yet. Again dominating the technology for the Will of God!

Yes this Magnifica was a cool review and discussion. We all see how we need to step into this more and do more with what's at hand. Instead of letting the "tech" decide for us. And it's really the GREED and lies that drive everything with satan.

And then this next bible verse was powerful in the purple heart above for me as it speaks about being married to the Lord forever in this Right and Justice with endless mercy, which now really just felt so familiar. Again the real experience of what shows up and what I experience is so much in line with these scripture readings that I get. I mean the alignment is unmistakable and is very clearly defined.

And again I've been getting so much confirmation on this with songs and readings from Mass. I labor to clarify and discuss these deeper experiences. So in Mass again this Reading 2 at left was so specific for me as the Power of the Spirit in my Heart is very clear to me in Mass, similar to my Bike Rides. And In Mass reading and sharing in this experience I felt that Burning up from My heart and noticed that bone in my chest popping out. Ah yes, connecting more than ever. In Mass where I can not allow this powerful vibration to bubble out my voice, instead I can feel this bone pop-up which really just open the flow of this vibration. . . wow. . .  

127: THE RESURRECTIONi OF JESUS CHRIST

WEEK OF PRAYER #27:  THE RESURRECTION  OF JESUS CHRIST 

I am always totally surprised and blessed how things come together and happen before me with all my studies. To my surprise, I’ve been given another week to review this, and I keep adding bible verses, phrases and experiences.  I love the surprises reflected throughout my life and I’m always filled with wonder since everything is connected "experiencing Jesus's Life" to know Life is Eternal!  It’s always moving more into a place of power and clarity. I see the Grace of God everywhere in my life and experiences. Like now sitting on my bed ready to read and write through this next SEEL lesson. I noticed bike grease on my leg from my ride this morning, and decide to take a shower. 

Of course, then I feel TOTALLY blessed to be get up and shower. Now back again I’m ready to rest, write, and love Jesus all clean and pretty ready for bed! WOW!?!? Such simple things become so awesome to share with Jesus.

As I step back now to savor this moment, as "Dr.A" would say; “really savor it,” and I realize the real power and focus that has brought this new knowledge and experience to me of getting into the Bible and learning how to pray DAILY! . . . Including Fr. Mike’s Day 146 hearing about Solomon. I mean the Joy and complete surprise is beyond reason. I have NEVER done this before, to be very clear and focused on something JUST FOR ME. I mean, something for me and Jesus, as a priority over family and friends, over everything. Even further, I see the same story in the SEEL book speaking about my Welcome Witness to the Saint Raphael's people, where the last Line in this first page of the SEEL Lesson “the People of St Raphaels Welcomed” ((welcome comes up more below)) . . . So YES I know I belong to https://www.st-raphaels.com/ here with three Saints including https://stpaulstpete.com/ which I also visit next door to my "House-House," all here in https://www.stpete.org/ !

Of course, now I reread these SEEL exercises pasted here where I started highlighting the joys in God’s Gifts to us all. Yes the yellow highlight, and red perfect hearts; then added the purple and blue “love” lines as I FEEL more deeply and SEE these ideas in Joy in another reading!  Family of Saint Mary, Saint Joseph, and Jesus modeled after Father Son and Holy Ghost. Yes, more surprises in Joyful Love as I’m here again with a new keyboard! I really have a deep personal  intimacy with "joy." It's really just part of who I am, as it's really hard to get me upset, and for the most part most everything makes me smile, even when things fall apart or seem to go wrong, I always find the goodness and Joy in it.

Yes, I biked over to the gadget-fix to get Madison the iPad keyboard and case I saw there🥰. I had to bike to UPS store anyway, to see about BSN and Rosary cards🥸, to send DVD tapes to scan🥳, and this $20 case was perfect to send Mad’s🥰. I Talked to Brent who planned to engrave her name into it. Funny, I immediately miss the pencil as I know Mad’s loved using mine during my visit . . . So I biked into town🥳. Left behind my empty Kombucha bottles, and brought my iPad Pro too, just to see about a case for it, replacing cracked screen and other options. So I ended up with a magnetic case/keys for it! AND also wiped-out on my bike going in. Yes, I lost my balance when a fat-tire e-bike buzzed past me, and slammed onto the pavement; bloody toe, skinned knee and elbow 😫. . . got bandaids at the St Pete Clinic next door to GFY.

So now feeling deep into this reading that leads me to my church, I just wrote an email to Fr. Jonathan as he witnessed my first welcome testimony about my mom's sermon. I know Fr. Curtis is there, who needed Fr.Kevin’s Light we shared a bit: EACH ONE TEACH ONE. . . And I need to get serious about these gifts that I have. Of course, no one takes me seriously, so I always have to explain every detail over and over again.  Especially about the lies in our culture and businesses greed creating cancer... I mean, I ask Fr. Jon for reconciliation and then "hinted" that it was really about visiting Fr. Curtis. I mean, cancer is a complete lie, and Curtis is now only a statistic on a spreadsheet that counts the millions collected for drugs that kill people, but he’s too stubborn to listen to poor wacky weaver.  

Sadly even as you think people would know that the world is filled with deception, greed and death crashing in around everyone, but the sheeple still continue to pretend that everything will work out fine in this world full of satan. Yes big picture, death is meaningless too, but when he gets to the other side, he’ll be pissed he didn’t listen to me and stay here because to start over and come back here is a long hard road from over there… I mean he starts over again while I just continue!

Of course again, I know everything works out fine for me, however I also know the tasks and efforts before me are really significant making me work harder and more focused each moment . . . . Especially, now as I see these ideas to synch with nature highlighted in the Big Purple Hearts above in my SEEL lesson.  Wow, Ben visited me today, and I admitted to him how much I love to play in my yard, I talk to the plants and birds and squirrels. The complete experience is filled with Joy in Love with God tending his Garden of Eden. YES “Synching with nature” is really central to my Beingness! As I've always known Saint Mary from there. . . Yes, I did the consecration to Saint Mary again this year too! Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ!

DAY 1 Read John 20:1-10 (the disciples find the empty tomb). Imagine finding the empty tomb with the disciples. What has happened now as I pray and draw in with these lights of love. I’m so blessed as the sunrise just started, so it’s time for me to go and I finally find this love with you again!!! ((yes, I just highlighted this next Bible Verse marked up below, deep in the JOY of “thank you,” where every tool worked perfectly in IOS, and then I dropped my iPad on the floor and raced to get on my bike for sunrise)). It's really so remarkable for me to see and read so much love and beauty all around me constantly reading, learning, biking, gardening, so clear and poignant in front of me, consistently acting in Union with God’s Will 🙏🥰

This reading hit home again! Of course Mary was there. It feels like she’s been through death before. Seven demons in her when she met Jesus, so she likely had multiple experiences with death. So she knows He’s not gone, can’t be dead, something else?!? Now each day with SEEL, I see these readings MELDED BEAUTIFULLY into my immediate experience from multiple directions . . . Mass, Podcasts, emails, readings: all in Jesus with God's Love!

The power of this experience reviewing these verses and feeling the Disciples each LOOKING to see only Linen and “He’s away”, , , believing in His rising from the dead to bring us home to God.

Like now typing, I hear Fr Mike and the Catholic Catechism in a year podcast played on the SpiritFm Radio, where he’s on CCC: 473 “But at the same time, this truly human knowledge of God's Son expressed the divine life of his person. The human nature of God's Son, not by itself but by its union with the Word, knew and showed forth in itself everything that pertains to God." Such is first of all the case with the intimate and immediate knowledge that the Son of God made man has of his Father. The Son in his human knowledge also showed the divine penetration he had into the secret thoughts of human hearts. CCC: 474 By its union to the divine wisdom in the person of the Word incarnate, Christ enjoyed in his human knowledge the fullness of understanding of the eternal plans he had come to reveal.  What he admitted to not knowing in this area, he elsewhere declared himself not sent to reveal he escaped death, beat satan and linked us home to God.

I just need to laugh now seeing this next image that I posted here above. Like suddenly knowing and seeing God’s plans opened and revealed to all. Like of course, Mary knew everything. When we ask specifically for God to reveal his plans and perspective it does bring confidence and knowing. And the Faith and Trust from our Hearts is required for us to step forward from there.

Like here at right are the three courses I have scheduled for the Fall 2026 term, two at SPC and one at USF. All online courses, all that I've done before and can easily step into again.  So I created these little cards to advertise and promote my courses . . . so I can increase the students in each and maybe break each into two courses . . . Doubling my course load again.

DAY 2 & 3 IMAGINE JESUS RESURRECTION AND RETURN TO MOTHER MARY! Wow, this really carries so much power for me this moment. And suddenly, I just jump to my iPad Pro, where I can use this white little pencil on the big screen, that I can write and read over so easily. Each word I write becomes more clear and more focused as my script turns to text.  The emotion and power of the slow steady pencil marking the iPad is so much more intimate!  I accept this opportunity to step into a deeper and deeper place of trust, love and security exemplified here before my eyes. Mary knew this with Jesus. That parent/child bonded relationship overpowers all else. There is no division, no insecurity, no falsehood in this Love.  Everything is very clear and focused powerful feeling in Joy of Gratitude.

Ah yes, this reminds me of Father’s Day, that we just had yesterday (5:51 am 6/22/26 now as I write). Where I know I was able to share similarly loving with my own children, seeing that beauty and love of peace and joy that only comes from that deep spiritual connection between parent and child.  Like this Day 2-3 reading of Jesus and Mary: knowing a love beyond all else . . . . As wonderful as it was, I need to acknowledged how many things just fell into place this weekend. Biking to the farmers market after church yesterday, I got the beep on my watch to call Claire at our 9am schedule. I immediately pulled of Beach Drive and just parked my bike right next to where we met at Ceviche, to sit on a big bench and talk. 

What was remarkable was accepting that I had a new bike that was more fantasy than I ever imagined. Larry told me that it sat in the garage for a few years before, I finally pulled it out to reconfigure it for me to ride. Claire looked it up online within minutes, just to tell me that it was an expensive racing bike. I laughed at the gift that Jesus had given me, knowing that once again, it was beyond my fantasy, and I was completely surprised. I thanked Larry a dozen times for reminding me about it sitting in the garage. Of course, I couldn’t get into the garage until after my semester of classes was done. Now, I realize it’s really a reward from Jesus for getting all my important classes finished this last term.

I mean, I've not used it for a week yet, and already while riding I remembered being in High School again riding no-hands as usual, and I tried to move the gear-shifters off the handle bars. I had made a foot-break already, so now I needed to put the shifters on the seat or somewhere else. Yes, I explained this to Claire while sitting on Beach Drive, how I had some memory of wanting the shifters moved somewhere else. And now biking I somehow felt like I had seen this before. ! . ? . ! . ?  As weird as it was, I was soon surrounded with all these fancy expensive carbon racing bikes, as this group of riders stopped to get their morning coffee.

Similarly, while on the phone with Emily, I get an email from USAA with the insurance dividend refund insuring my summer vacation continued. Wow, a summer break! Fixed my fence, cleaned my garage, lol no not yet, just started! I guess yesterday, I started by cleaning my stoop out my back door. It’s been piled high with all my indoor plants that need new pots and resetting. Yes, a big basin of dirt, pots, plants piled up high, where I had to climb over things or be careful whenever I walked out my backdoor. Just like when my classes finally ended with my birthday last month.  As soon as I got home from visiting Emily I had to clean my kitchen piled up with a mess too.

I was starting to feel like I was living in a dorm room again.  Funny, I told Claire about having the summer off, and I could finally get a dog. SHe agreed, but Nope, Priorities: DAY 4: Read John 20:11-18, and we've come back to Mary. . . . Maria my mother, and Claire my son who is changing.

 

Course having Mary around all the time always feels like a blessing to me. My Mom Maria lol, and my "Fat Ram" Maryanne, again feels so very familiar to me in synch with Jesus again here now.  And here again what comes really strong for me in Lectio Divina is the Words of Jesus comforting Mary by saying how He's not yet Ascended and wants her to tell his disciples that He's returning to His Father, Their Father, His God and Their God!  

I feel like this is really central to his teachings too. How Jesus was Brethren with His disciples and wanted to be sure they are all ready for this blessing coming now before them.  Or ready for the many Blessings that Jesus had planned for them as He is Resurrected, or really as planned for all of us throughout time. Bringing mankind to the fullness of this Brotherhood and Love that Jesus demonstrated for everyone . . . Bringing greater intimacy with GOD!

DAY 5 Read Matthew 28:1-10 (Jesus appears to the women at the tomb). Hear again from the angels and Jesus what you've heard often in the retreat: "Do not be afraid." Love casts out all fear. Joy remains.

Yes, fearless with "great joy." It's really kinda ODD how many times I've noticed people seeking JOY, but unable to release FEAR. I mean, these emotions are essentially opposite and it's not physically possible to have opposite feelings at the same time.  Of Course, I've had this debate several times. It's not possible to BE positive and negative at the same time, like you are either black or white, male or female. And still people insist they are both, or want both . . .Yes, I'm sure they all will figure it out. That's really what life is all about, to experience and understand. And return to the love and joy that we are designed and created to be . . . . Bringing greater intimacy with GOD! Bringing greater intimacy with GOD! And really knowing the complete cycle.

with each little letter you place now you can bring about so much more than ever before. Another level of love where a deeper stronger clearer experience of shared faith is truly expressed here for all to find. A deeper experience with God walking in faith doing the time in gratitude, thanksgiving praise and worship.  

cycle. Yea I know it's about this deeper love experience writing about my next day.

DAY 6 Repetition. Again really feels right as I post this bible reading from Mass as well. Of course it's always on the same topics and I'm always finding reinforced synch in everything I learn and study now.  I've said for years it's weird or perplexing, but it's really become so constant and present that I need to start honoring it. 

Not just catching these phrases, to highlight and post, but to really start to accept and resonate with this state of BLISS and JOY that I am. I have noticed that I'm always answering the morning "how are you?" that everyone is programmed by the Matrix to say, with "I'M WONDERFUL" instead of the typical "FINE." Now really accepting my state of Bliss requires that I get more specific and detailed.

I've not started to "proclaim on the housetops" as I've highlighted here above. But I have noticed new confidence and security to share these deeper truths and passionate insights that I do have.  I mean, especially sharing with the church ladies group.  I've noticed they almost ask for it, or expect me to share something.  I've really been so lucky to be caught into the mix and dynamics of so many serious culture changes and evolutions during all my life.  Of course, I also noticed people rarely believe or even understand specific events that I explain or retell. And I really see now that my missing details is the next challenge before me.WOW!!! I need to talk about GOD!  Which really means I need to have my camera on with the mic working correctly.  EEEKK!!!

DAY 7 Read 2 Corinthians 1:3-7 ("the God of all consolation"). Savor the graces of the week. Wow, graces of this week are all about the Fruit of the Spirit: Galatians 5:22-23 the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.

Yes, this is the last day for this week of SEEL. Now again it brings me back to these Fruit. PRAISE BE TO GOD!  

Where the compassion and comfort from God comes through to us so clear and strong. Ok, I confess yesterday I had to race out to UPS and visit a few places downtown. I almost brought all the glass bottles to refill!

Yes, YUM!  But thank God I didn't, as it's just barely been one week on my new bike, so carrying stuff might not be smart yet.  And coming down 9th Ave in the bike lane, one of those big fat-tire ebikes went right past me and knocked me off balance enough that I slammed into the ground.

OUCH!

So then I biked to Sarah's https://www.stpeteferments.com/ and no one was there, so I walked into the St Pete Clinic there across from GFY. They were closed but someone found bandaids for me, as I had blood dripping in a few places. 

Uhg, so I biked to Gadet-Fix and found a new iPad Keyboard for Madison and another for My iPad Pro. Yes, I spoke to Brent yesterday to confirm it would work for Madison.  Yes, I was in tears talking with him.  And my eyes are tearing up now considering how awesome it is to have real blood family to share with.  I had wished him Happy Father's Day a few days before, but we hadn't talked. AND HE CALLED ME!  Wow, I was so grateful and as I spoke about HOW GRATEFUL I was to have a real BLOOD family connection. I was crying like a baby, as I am again now. 

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So wow, I've got to go see Fer-Fer-Feff too. Yes we spoke too, and now after their wedding 10/10/25 that he's "Claire Allen Weaver-Porras" now and would really prefer if I said . . ."It would mean the world to me if you said “she” and “daughter” but I know I have a silly dad… 😅" . . . yes whether it was my doing, of colleen or just this crazy matrix culture I still SAVOR these graces to share now: Savor the graces of the week in 2 Corinthians 1:3-7 with "the God of all consolation."