126.o Pray the firstYes half of the Passion,

Use the Application of the Five Senses (p. 142) to deepen and simplify your prayer. I’m really not sure how this "application" will “simplify player.”  Not sure how more about “being,” might simplify. Resting in the presence and this Beingness seems even more intense.

Here again, I get to Experience a stronger connection with my Maker. It’s really about understanding my own responsibilities. I know I feel pressed to do more and I know that I’m only 16 again.  So again, stepping into another place. I always make my Bible and SEEL reading part of my daily routine in that I feel the responsibility, the desire, the passion to step it forward with Jesus and share more of the visions I experience. My Happiness in my BEingness has gotten easier and easier, as I step every day into greater obedience as 1 Samual 15:22 in my Bible-in-year-app: I understand my place more and more.

What this is really about is stepping beyond the mind of thinking or visualizing; and BEinging in the real experience of those EMOTIONS and allow this “energy in motion.” Yes, what emotions come from this is BEing here with Jesus in this.

 I have no idea what I'm doing sometimes and I now have another notice from the city. Bonnie is complaining again about all the things in my yard that I've been working on. Some of them are just old BS. While some are valid. And I know and TRUST IN JESUS, But I must do my lessons in my Bible reading now, and then my biking and churching, and everything exactly as I have been all term. Jesus is very specific about me taking a break from grading papers to work in the yard. He woke me up at 1 AM again today, I haven’t eaten yet and I have my 2nd cup of coffee. While Mass, this morning was beautiful and the year app got me here too about Obeying God’s Voice:

We have been very clear with you, and the tasks are very specific and detailed. Next on your list is this SEEL Work too. Work now is really specific, riding your bike into the Exodus 90 meeting at Saint Raphael's is next. And your video is on before you leave at 7am.

We need you to get deeply into this very personal and intimate experience of the violence and conflicts in your childhood. You really only remember and have acknowledged a tiny fraction of what you actually experienced. . . . Having your pen and paper now gets you so excited, you are ready to share. You get so much understanding and satisfaction when you write and explore deeper into your experiences. 

It's important to accept that everyone has trauma,  Your work now is about sharing very specific and the very deepest secret insights and knowledge that you have lived. You must accept that task of sharing first. Each time you meet and discuss events and experiences with others you MUST ALLOW FLOW in whatever you feel. Recognize these deeper more powerful emotions will come out more and more as you progress and share FREELY with all your peers. YES ALL. It’s vitally important for you to forget the fears and stay open to God Grace in Flow and Feelings real in the days ahead of you.

This getting deeper into the experience that we all seek and desire to resolve this are all in the Bible.  Bible studying is critical, especially now, especially SEEL . . . . Each moment that you have here is central to your growth. You do know and understand our experiences writing together. And you see the synchronicity and coincidence as so many things line up together in truth and power throughout your waking days. This makes it very clear you are doing Gods work and moving in the right direction. TRUST and FLOW in Peace and Ease.

The deeper into DAY 1 Mark 14:12-72. Wow this is a lot.

 
I’m always struggling with these photos. Sometimes I can’t find the right pictures, then I can’t get them in the right order, and then I can’t get them to fit right, or justify the text right for me. It’s really weird how much of a pain it is sometimes, as I want everything together to read and FLOW WITH EASE. Course it’s getting better every day. I mean the Apple updates are coming all the time. I have said weekly, but it seems even more than that often than that.

When I started these SEEL Readings again today, I knew I had to read over each Bible verses again. It’s about editing and improving which requires me to be present in the spirit of these passages NOW. I read this already since it was so long. In the first reading I was with the yellow highlighter and that showed what jumped out to me in water. Yes, its was about water, which always resonates with me as a PhD in Water Resource Engineering. So this young man with the water jug, was supposed to be Saint Mark. lol, course I’m 16 again, so I feel like the lucky kid ready to serve the Savior! Course, I learned about the kid with The Chosen! This beautiful reading now brings water back to the central force of life, which is really at my source of Love for this subject anyway. And then it ends with His next Drink will be in the Kingdom where He is risen! 

Now I need to consider the new readings and how the purple jumps to me now.  How Jesus came to the twelve men with the bread and cup to form the new covenant. Yes a new Covenant, something filled with power that carries us all forward. . . Wow, neato! Except this new section Mark 14:32-52 is deeper anguish and heavy anxiety in “hoping beyond hope” that this cup could pass from Him. It’s crazy how these two sections split by the text screen captures for me to share here.  Above the Purple was the Cup of Joy it the New Covenant, while below the cup is heavy and the burden is great, stepping into the next place of His Being. . . And as I realize this on this new reading of these verses, I also see the yellow below from the last reading where God’s Will is still the priority, and God in the Spirit is ready and willing. But the flesh is weak.

We are pleased with your work. And again you certainly have seen and experienced so much around you, feeling wonderful and focused in grace. This Covenant that you Accepted and brought into your experience has so much more meaning now.  You can see and feel how the Daily Mass, Readings, and studies all fit together into more clarity and focus for you.

It’s funny as I read and write here, I have the video from Matthew Leonard doing the Nine Grades of Prayer by St Teresa of Avila.

Yes, I’m sure I’ll find more synchronicity to post here as i read . . . so the yellow in this next piece was all about the real experiences of Jesus confirming all to be done in Gods Will, though weak in the flesh as we all are. But the Spirit is ready. This is the deep personal commitment we will feel when we are joined in the unified way of Christ. Tasting the Divine Nature with the relationship in Christ as discussed in the Prayer of Union:

I knew that would happen. So the Purple in this verse was really as I knew I needed to get deeper into my own personal experience of reading and then these verses resonate and align with everything I’m dong and experiencing moving forward. 

Yes I never could learn this before. Only now with the latest upgrades online can I select the TEXT, and “Right Click” to look up words, ad search for the deeper meanings and understanding I want to FEEL MORE INTO MY FLOW OF SPIRIT: 

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WEEK OF PRAYER #25: THE SUFFERING AND DEATH OF JESUS.

Mission in the Humility, living humanity accepting the real consequences and faithful obedience necessary to do gods works before us. And again it is so very clear and strong to know we each have a cross to carry.

We have laid this all out very strong and clear for you each step is ready. . . consider how you are called to be more compassionate in the particulars of your own life, loving the invisible crosses of all the people bearing around you….

It is so easy to say yes lord and to do all you’ve set before me and know it’s all in your light . . . I am always challenged and pressed to do more and learn more and grow more. Grief has really never “registered” for me. At least not since my accident. I guess I realized or experienced how death wasn’t real. It was really only a transition from one experience of life in this body to another experience of life without this body. So to give up my suffering or accept the suffering of another. . . Really is not out of reach either. It’s really about empathy, which I’ve understood and watched for years as well. I try not to engage too deeply, but readily recognize that I’m really always connected to all things.

What are you waiting for?

Yes, i know, i need to get more deeply into my Bible studies and readings with you… DAY 1 LUKE 23:1-25 where this first verse was about Jesus getting “convicted.” What I felt about this was how the Roman’s really didn’t want anything to do with the lies the Jews were pulling.  But still the impact of Jesus on them was to make them friends!

I mean, Jesus already knows what’s happening, or where it ends, and the important result presented here is that the two leaders became friends, how weird is that.  These men recognize something deeper in this experience, growing and learning individually. How remarkable is that!

And again the power and clarity of this verse is remarkable. As Jesus steps into the place to be the Lamb for sacrifice, as the priests and scribes think they know what they are doing. Yes the religious leaders and lawyers of the Jewish people are lost and sinful, full of pride and arrogance insighting the crowd similar to the propaganda and gossip we see everywhere today. . . 

Now I wonder as I review DAY 2 MATTHEW 27:26-31. 

I guess what is more remarkable to me is how Jesus enhances my experiences out here online all the time. I open this picture app to markup my screen shot picture from the Bible verse reading for today. And it has new features for marking-up the text. I can use the pen still like marking in the verses in big read text, but now I can also paste a box and arrow in. Yes I can shade it back to highlight what I want and everything i express more and more each moment gets clear and strong. . .  

Yes I always feel so blessed in everything that I do or try to do . . . And it’s really weird. And familiar. I mean as I read this verse and feel into Jesus experiences, it’s obvious He’s being treated badly, but it also seems like he’s not concerned about it. He doesn’t argue or respond to them. It’s like just accepting what happened. 

As weird as it is to write this now . . . . His experience really feels familiar, as I was always picked-on. My brother and father were bullies, like some kids at school. I just accepted it and never really defended myself or argued.  Sure I tried to argue with my bother sometimes, but it never mattered as it would always ended with my loss. Like my dad, what could I do there?  It was like school too, where I could just hide from the bullies who would get after me all the time. I mean, like Jesus did here, you just accept what is coming. I guess He really already knew where it was all going. . . Course I never had a clue, never knew if someone would find me, catch me, or whether my dad would use a belt or his hand, or something else. . . . It was just accepted as par-for-the-course, whether I liked it or not. I just accept!

Now again DAY 3 Luke 23:26-32 Speaks of the way of the cross. . . And Jesus speaks to the women about the times to come . . . Where we should be weeping for our children. This really feels powerful too, like above in Day 2 Jesus seems to be just going along, knowing the end is near, and seemingly going through the motions necessary to complete the tasks before Him. 

Again He is very conscious of what’s ahead of Him, and knowing His death is near, these ideas feel like what He might perceive as the results of this.  Here the religious leaders and lawyers of the time have brought about His death.  This implies that evil has taken over and any life there after will be dreadful indeed.  It feels like speculation to me now.  Just like Jesus asking for “this cup to be taken away from him,” as He prayed in the garden before being arrested. 

Jesus certainly knew what was coming, but maybe not the details or the exact experiences as these depended on the choices of others.  Like Judas betrayal with a kiss, pointing out Jesus could have occurred in a great number of methods . . . Jesus certainly knew it was coming, but the specific details and expression could have been a surprise. Similarly the women weeping for their children was simply expressing how dreadful the world would become without JESUS. Again something He certainly knew.

We are looking forward to hear what you have to say and share about this. . .

This DAY 4 Luke 23:33-49 really has only three phrases spoken by Jesus here: “Father forgive them,”  “be with me in Paradise,” and “into thy hands” . . . These are clear, strong statements again.  It really feels like Jesus is just going through the motions. Like he already knew what was coming or already had prepared for what was next. It was all a matter of fact now.

I guess I recognize this level of understanding as well, as I step into things before me. I always feel like I'm making a choice or deciding something myself. But then often find I'm really just going through the motions and doing what has been setup before me. It’s like I don’t know what is next, somehow I’ve been prepared but don’t know exactly what is next enough to be surprised. All to bring us to know Act 4:12 only through Jesus that we can come to God.

You need to remember you too had countless years of suffering. Your own death experience was very violent and traumatic too. Certainly not at the level that Jesus endured, but you must realize your own experiences were considerable, and much beyond what any of your peers have seen. You have to recall the realization which the police shared with you. They chose not to arrest you or enforce the laws knowing you had already been punished. Recognize this was in direct violation of their job requirements, meaning the police risked their jobs and professional careers by ignoring the crimes you engaged in. They showed real compassion and empathy to your pain and suffering, much beyond the mockery and scorn Jesus endured.

Now again to start DAY FIVE, we have a repetition of one of these previous days of prayer. I'm perplexed at this scenario where my own death and trauma were brought before me now. And I realize it’s something I’ve not fully understood throughout my life, as I really have had ALL these “adverse childhood experiences.” This is something that I know my children haven’t addressed yet either. And it’s critically important that i share and love them more than ever before. Apparently I’ve been given more understanding and learning into my own trauma. Literally within the last weeks as my children and other events have shown up simultaneously. It’s kinda weird of course, as I’m heading north to see my daughter for my birthday. She always makes my days and visits really special . . . Yes I'll see my son towards the end of June too.

I guess that awesomeness of my daughter repeats all the time too. But here in this SEEL Lesson to review the last days of Jesus on Earth, I wonder what else I could find in this now.  I guess it’s about acknowledging my own trauma, or sharing it more deeply with my children. 

And now to see what shows up and how I have the time and opportunity to explore and address this more deeply.  Yes, now I’m alone to pray and share more with Jesus. Like today on the Prayerline, hearing people in trouble and conflict, and teaching the Power of The Word in Jesus. Yes I shared the Renounce and Command phrases several times again. Yes very specific phrases for each experience we can name.

And as annoying as it gets people always try to add to my phrase and list a bunch of things at once gettin lost in the listing and forgetting the whole point of taking control and becoming more into the power of God. I guess what’s kinda weird now as i recognize these words I’m using . . . Jesus Himself told us the same things over and over again and we still couldn’t listen, accept and understand.

This really comes through so clear and strong again now as the story with DAY SIX Isaiah 52:13-53:12 brings us back to the Prophesies again where it is all about the about MOST HIGH Jesus . . . . Holy Son of the Father where the KINGS are speechless and He must suffer and die. . .Yes The SON is despised and rejected to be the Man of Sorrows Acquainted with Grief!

WOW, Surely He has born our grief to carry our sorrows wounded and bruised for Our Transgressions. And so this is really about me now!

And I need to really come to terms with what this means in the deeper TRUTH OF CHRIST.

Yes, were you wounded and bruised for your transgressions?

It is never clear to me what it’s all about. How I am always blessed with so much clarity and focus stepping into this experience and learning at such a deeper level. Yes, I know grief, I’ve died already, so grief really has no meaning for me because I know deep down inside that death really doesn’t mean anything. So all the world struggling to find the cure for aging and death are really wasting their time since Jesus Already has beat them both.

Again we are searching and seeking beyond God when in fact it’s all in God already. . . . And the Ultimate Gift from God is that of His One and Only SON!

?yes, and you gave up your son as well. . . 

Ok this gets wicked intimidating as I am not Christ. 

You have been called, and you are a Son as are all your peers and colleagues. Each has been called similarly and each listens and follows as best as they can.

I come now to DAY SEVEN and John 10:1-18 (Jesus, the Good Shepherd).…

?do you hear this call before you now to share more clearly and more strongly??

I get it more crazy stuff before me. . . Wow, what’s the Good Shepherd here to teach me now . . .

Heavenly Father, help us to follow the model of your son, Jesus. He seemed to us to be cool, come, and collected in his life. in all that he did. He was very... at peace. 
He was very compassionate. He was very in tune with his relationship with you. Give us the strength to follow the model that he presented to us and for us. 
A new way of being in this life. Help us to disconnect from the model that society offers, that our culture seems to be eaten up with the do, do, do mentality, instead of the B, B, B, mentality. You have given us free will, you have given us choice. 
Help us make those deliberate choices. To disconnect from culture and follow the model of Jesus. And we pray these things in Jesus' name. 
Amen. Father and Son and Holy Spirit. Amen. 

124 SEELING the I AM stepping forward now

I'm doing the next week in SEEL PRAYER #24: THE ARREST OF JESUS and find so much, so strong, coming to me from all directions expressing the same ideas. I know to stop and wait and listen. Yes, Lecto Listening - sounds better than divine listening, which is really the meaning I’m focused on. I’m still doing Lectio Divina or Divine reading with my Lectio Listening as the voice of God is really ever present.

As noted at the right, reading this first page filled me with the Love of Jesus. I shared a lot on the PrayerLine again this week, and this piece about the Blood of Jesus came through so strong in all of these experiences.  I am careful to ask people on the PrayerLine if I can share more, or only ask when they have said something specifically that I can respond to.

I always start by saying how God created us in His Image and set us down in the Garden of Eden, Naked and it was all GOOD . . . Until the snake showed up and messed it all up. Then when God came back and found out what happened the first thing he did was sacrifice an animal to make clothing to cover their sin.

Yes, so sin results in death and the blood that covers the sin all started here with Adam and Eve. So when Jesus came to bring us back home, he became the ultimate sacrifice, providing the blood to forgive all sin.

Yes, the ultimate love to give his life for a friend. Or really for all of us. This came through to me stronger than ever this Easter Season, as I recognized how GOD is Holy and pure so He can’t get near any Sin at all. So for people to have any relationship or any experience of God at all we need to be cleared of all sin. Which Jesus did for everyone.

Course as with all love, the conscious aspect of asking, seeking and requesting it, is really fundamental.  We can’t have love without actively seeking and acknowledging it.  I mean, it’s really not just a feeling or emotion, it is the fundamental power of creation . . . Which brings be back to Fr. Kevin and “Each One, Teach One” as the basic place of love for our neighbor and God.

I am a living, breathing, walking testimony
I am the living proof of what the Lord has done
You May call it crazy, but they can't take away my story
'Cause I am a living, breathing, walking testimony . . . (Song my Terran 

Testimony (from the Angel Original Series Miracle

So DAY ONE was Matthew 26:47-56. This is really strong for me since this coincided with the Bible verses in mass, Luke 24-13-35. The couple was walking to Emmaus after the Crucifixion and Jesus joined them. He explained the Prophecies from Moses saying this same as I highlighted here at right.

Of course, the next thing I heard was Bishop Barrron who breaks it down for me even more: Bishop Barron reflects on how Jesus interpreted the scriptures beginning with Moses and all the prophets to show that the entire Old Testament serves as a template or lens through which one must view Jesus. (5:41 - 6:04). This highlights several Old Testament figures and patterns that prefigure Christ:

• Adam: Jesus is the first man of the new creation (6:28 - 6:35).
• Noah: Jesus is the new Noah, whose "ark" provides salvation during the flood of sin (6:38 - 6:50).
• Abraham and Isaac: Jesus is the fulfillment of the covenant and the true son sacrificed by the Father on the "mount" of the cross (6:51 - 7:27).
• Jacob: Jesus is the true ladder connecting heaven and earth (7:29 - 7:53).
• Moses: Jesus is the new lawgiver who leads people from the slavery of sin into the freedom of the children of God (7:54 - 8:16).
• David: Jesus is the king who takes on the powers of the world, just as David fought Goliath (8:18 - 8:33).
• Jonah: Jesus is the sign who spends three days in the "belly of the earth" (8:34 - 8:47).
• Isaiah and the Prophets: Jesus fulfills the suffering servant role in Isaiah 53, the "thrust through" messiah of Zechariah, and the bringer of the new covenant promised by Jeremiah (8:50 - 9:26).
  

DAY TWO John 18:12-27 is a longer piece and it really didn’t catch me much at all.  Jesus seemed almost frustrated with them. Like all this work, and effort and still they couldn’t come up with one phrase against him. Course then the last line was Prophecy again, where he had told Peter this would happen only few hours earlier.

So now I wonder where my lesson is in that. And I gross it is really about my own place in the prophesy of God. I noticed that last week where the experience and stories of Saint Faustina resulting in her diary is very similar to my own.

I Start with my DAY THREE Matthew 26:57-75. This brings me back to the last phrases I wrote about Saint Faustina Mercy Sunday where we are able to step beyond all sin. Here the Pharisee teased him about prophesy by hitting him and asking who did it. Then Peter completed the prophesy denying three times before the cock crows. 

God has given more than I could ever want or need always asking me to write and share as much as I can.

Has 800-223-9286 share the love on spirit FM may 16-17 Glory in the Gardens: Busch Gardens Celebration DAY FOUR Luke 22:66-71

Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, 

THIS is awesome the Divine Mercy Chaplet just started on the Radio.. . . And it really brought me to tears again.

just wwowwww… like I read this section of the Bible. . . And Yes ye say I am. And everything comes to a head for me. Reflecting on this as I prepare to visit with Sr.Dick as I am learning and realizing that my challenges and expectations, are not all my own. I know this is my challenge before me … 

I need to recognize my place and responsibility in this time I have… like doing my grades and my studies as I am finding more trauma and pain in my history. And I Realize how again I am meeting with a new councilor and have so much to share and understand more deeply.

This brings me to a new place of power and focus. I know my place. I’ve been very clear and strong with who I am and what I do. . . .

And then the DAY Five, Six and Seven it all slams me in the face as Isaiah Speaks and shared (Luke 22:19-20, creating the Eucharist, in the New Covenant in Blood, with Charles Stanley on the Radio now)

It's always slamming me in the face. Like yesterday speaking to a counselor who actually asked me about childhood Trauma. . . And my first thought was how my dad had always been out to get me. As I recall now, I actually told her a great deal beyond so much I;ve shared or considered in years. . . Wow, so I need to really step into more and more. . . Which kinda freaks me out a bit . . .here typing to share with my kids too!

123.00 hind-sight is 20/20

 Week 23 is next for me in SEEL.

This section really pulled me into the sense of the prophetic Jesus.  I mean, knowing that he was here on a mission and had to get things done . . . Very important things.  Even things he might not have understood or been clear about until the moment that everything came together. 

He sorta always knew what was next because he had been here from the beginning and simply stepped into the role and responsibility when it was time to.  I mean he certainly planned it all with God and the Holy Spirit. I often get this feeling about me too. And it’s interesting as we are surprised what happens or surprised what we need to do, but then step into it almost automatically or blindly anyway.

I remember this same feeling with my experience with Fr. Curtis, where I simply did what was opened for me. I mean, I never really thought about it or planned.  I realized how he was speaking about community and specifically how to engage the Catholic Community. And we had just had a meeting together, where he wanted me to get professional help about boundaries and engaging in this community better on his terms. So I knew I had to speak to him about it more, feeling again how he was speaking directly to me.

 Funny, as I realized this was importantly for me to step into.  I didn’t really remember much of the details from his homily at all. Course the clip I sent Ben was there on my iPhone, so I pulled it up into the transcripts and read it at that very moment. This was just enough to have this profound experience, or really enough to accept the direction and step intro the actions I was called to with confidence.

Like the four bible verses we are studying this week in SEEL. Each listed here has a very powerful prophetic element to it. Or should I say that’s what jumped out at me when I read each one as highlighted here in yellow during my first read.

And I guess we all really have a sense of this. I mean as we are conscious of our own personal experiences with Christ, we are all pulled to do things we might not completely understand.  Men always want to be in control which often means we sidestep God's directions or abridge and adjust things to one own liking.

But “Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord” . . . And it really is all about BEing the hands and feet of Jesus here on Earth. Fulfilling what it is that we are Called to, whether we really understand it or not. And I get this knowing from the experience of how God really likes to surprise us. Not so much because he never wants us to know what’s next, but more so it’s about the “surprise” and the authentic joy and excitement that surprises bring into our hearts.

Like these four bible verses we are studying this week in SEEL. Each has a very powerful prophetic element to it. Or should I say that’s what jumped out at me when I read each one. Like here with Matthew 26:23 which was highlighted purple when Dick asked me to skip a week again. It's funny how each time he does that, I spend another week praying, feeling, and exploring the same Bible verses again, adding this new purple in insights to the yellow that I started with.

So here, the purple was prophetic as Jesus spoke or knew what would happen as he “dipped his hand into the bowl” again. Still his disciples didn't believe him or understand what it meant to be betrayed to death, “as it is written.”  Now to be with and know this with Jesus is key. 

We each are given tasks and responsibilities where we know and step into more and more each day. BEing the hands and feet of Jesus! And now this morning with Mass, where they repeated the Bible versus I heard on the Hallow app earlier. Yes, I hear and learn about the same experience again where Jesus is not understood and must explain the scriptures, as I highlighted again here in yellow from the Mass Daily Readings at left.

And what I found more powerful today was now highlighted purple where Christ revealed Himself to them with the breaking of bread. While above the same passage of power was in Matthew 26:28 where the blood of the covenant was shared for the forgiveness of our sins . . . Again where Jesus shares the powerful experience which we may not fully understand,

This really feels like the most profound and important statement of all. Beyond BEing the hands and feet of Jesus is really the requirement for us all to be sinless before we approach God. God is Holy and for us to approach Him we must be sinless! And again this really feels like a critical statement or fundamental knowledge that Jesus has really struggled to express and make clean to us all.

This again brings me to the power and focus of my time and experience with Jesus.

I mean this next Bible verse John 13:1-17 is the same teaching again. Not just that they do not know or understand now, but that they will understand later, as he specifically explains in the passage. And again the prophetic nature of his words really comes through so strongly.

Speaking very clearly about the example Christ provides in washing their feet. Which again presses me forward to do God's will in this very time and moment.

 I know how I need to do so much. It's gotten really cold and rainy outside. So I really don't want to go any where or do anything but know my place and responsibility to get things done, as the servant to heal and serve others in my community as needed.

I stopped my reading and witting here for Jesus, because He wanted me to bring the chicken soup to Annette. I was supposed to visit her yesterday but it was cold and raining. I almost used that excuse today too, but He wouldn’t stand for it telling me to drive my truck instead.

Then I brought a big jar of my chicken soup. I never was sure why I made it or who it was for. But she finished her first bowl while I was there with her. So it was really clear to me now what it was all about. Just like Jesus tells the disciples, whether we know or understand is really not relevant, we just need to have Faith and follow directions

And now I see this really has brought me to this last verse in this weeks SEEL Exercise Matthew 16:26-46 which mimics my lesson today with Annett to simply do God’s will, don’t question, don’t struggle to understand or anything but simply do it. Of course, over the weekend I was struggling with the kitchen and the chicken soup as I felt like I’ve been eating too much and needed another fast day. Course, I bought the veggies and everything for the soup whether I was wanting it or not, and simply did what I was told. . . Lost completely about why, but did it anyway. And now hind-sight is 20/20 and I’ll bring Annett more soup tomorrow.

122.0 I am the Truth there is nothing beyond Me

WEEK OF PRAYER #22: JESUS AS HUMAN AND DIVINE 

THE CHURCH HAS LONG TAUGHT that Jesus Christ is fully human and fully divine. As fully human, Jesus is like us in all things but sin. As fully divine, Jesus shows us who God is most completely. To be faithful to this teaching, we must avoid two extremes: emphasizing the humanity of Jesus so much that he becomes just another admirable human being or emphasizing the divinity of Jesus so much that he becomes otherworldly and inaccessible to us.

Day One: Matthew 14:22-33 “Be of good cheer; it is I; be not afraid.” . . . Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, “O thou of little faith.”

So this first BibleVerse we need to address really feels very common. Like Jesus says these two lines all the time. . . “BE NOT AFRAID” to Be, Do, Say and Act as He leads us everyday. . . And “Oh OF LITTLE FAITH” to trust in his Strength and Wisdom in leading us to Be, Do, Say and Act as He leads us everyday. . . I Know that is our task before us, to each step into the WILL of GOD and Be, Do, Say and Act as He leads us. And I know we are all challenged by fear, insecurity, etc, never sure we know what we are doing or are really ready for it!

Course, I’m almost always anxious to share and do whatever I can in the Light of Jesus. It’s kinda weird how I seem to cherish the experience most all the time. . . But then AVOID certain tasks before me, or run and hide in fear almost randomly, or especially from others.

I mean, I know I need to get more social, and I still avoid speaking or asking questions, or seeking deeper connections with people. Even when I hear them speak about the challenges of listening and connecting to the DIVINE! Which I really seem to do all the time, without any effort or without even knowing at times. I mean, if it’s really so clear and obvious to me, why don’t I get to teach and share it more. It always seems weird for me that such a SMALL number of people actually reach me, and even fewer ever really listen enough to grow and learn.

So now as I read this question about “how do you respond to Jesus’s Invitation” . . . I stop and consider what this means and where it really is for me. I kinda listen and follow all the time, and really feel blessed knowing how Jesus GIVES me this time now to consider and write about this experience more deeply. I remember walking home from St Pauls after the lady asked me about the Welcome Volunteers. . . Then standing outside next to my bike, frustrated that I needed to get on my bike and go back.  I mean, i was literally arguing about doing or not doing the invitation to follow Jesus. That particular moment I jumped on my bike and went, but then I wonder now how many time I choose to do something else, and readily see that sometimes that is equally as important?!?!

Day Two: Luke 9:18-36 jumps at me with “take up his cross daily, and follow me. 'For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: but whosoever will lose his life for my sake, the same shall save it.” . . Of course I read the question in the book now, and realize I’m in the right place again. I always feel like everything I do is about carrying my cross. And I’m often sorta challenged by it and never really know where, when or why. Like the bike ride to the Welcome Retreat at St Paul’s. I kinda knew and then kinda didn’t.  That feels like a very common experience for me. Like giving up everything. I gave it all up in NJ when I left Maryanne, and then again when Colleen left, and they gave up even more when Kim Left. But now here in a Bigger Prettier house than ever, I seem to have more than I could ever use or need! I mean, to literally give it all up and end up with more than ever believed possible makes me feel really wonderful that I’m actually doing something valuable enough for Jesus to Protect me and guide me more each day!

DAY Three: Read John 11:1-44 I think this is interesting as we have no questions to answer this time but only to imagine myself in this scene. Several other places I could imagine and see very clearly. Sorta “been there, done that” feelings area already present, but this time it’s a bit more distant and abstract, or out of reach. I guess the feeling and experience of death really doesn’t mean anything to me. It’s really just a transition from the physical to the non physical.  I recognize it’s something we can go back and forth through over and over again. And since time doesn’t mean anything on the other-side then the idea of being here or there is really almost meaningless too. 

DAY FOUR: REPEAT! and of course I heard this week the same ideas from Matthew 14:22-33 of No Fear and Stepping out more in Faith.  It’s just something I need to do and I realize it’s not out of reach for me, but more present than ever.  Like doing my classes and bible studies again. St Joseph’s Society yesterday had Neb and Sirhc sitting next to me and I commented how the preacher mentioned about doing more service for the community teaching about the Saint of the Day who was St Katherine Drexel. She did so much for the African Americans in our country and I knew I was able to do more with Larry, his kids, and the food desserts here, where we can grow so much. I mean stepping away from the grass and greed world, to grow and harvest real food and goods is everything here. . . And really easy! Or really easy for me as I’ve been doing it part time for years. Now with more classes I wish I could do more. But find it challenging to get myself focused.  Inviting them to take it over was easy, and I’ve asked Larry too for months, and helped him start. . . No traction yet!

DAY 5: Read Luke 7:11-17 is really short and sweet. Or His Words again are so strong and clear. It’s really what he said each time to Lazarus and to Nilli, Jurus’s daughter. Each time saying, acting, feeling that they were just asleep, while always knowing that His own Breath, as the Breath from God, could bring each back. 

It’s sorta wonderful to say this. I mean, I recognize and share something that I kinda know intuitively. I mean, I’ve never read these verses before, and rely on the Chosen Movies for some understanding and recognition. But I guess like I’ve stated earlier, here my own personal experience of Death, really gives me deeper understanding and a completely different view entirely.  Course I always makes me wonder about my own place in all of this.

Now working as a professor, and inspiring students to grow and learn into more and more each day. I wonder, get insecure, and question myself. Today I had several notes about getting mid-term grades in and connected with John again. What a wonder and joy of course. Helping him do something more with the technology, but also sharing my joy just hearing from him. It’s funny I commented about how I felt he was the dad I never had, and he always corrected me, saying he was the older brother kicking my ass. I’m sure he’s thrilled to know I’m teaching again. And even more so that I’m back where I started with entrepreneurship and where I belong with sustainability.

DAY SIX: Read John 14:1-14 is beautiful too, as when I read it, the lines I felt were again that “been there, done that” feeling deep into my bones. And I guess this is really what I’ve been learning in this SEEL class more than anything else. Yes, knowing and recognizing how much Jesus is really present inside of me. And it’s funny when I reach out to a Saint or Ancestor, they always seem so responsive and delighted to be called on to join us. I know it’s about the Guardian Angels and I know I’ve taught people how to speak and share with their Guardians. Wow, is that what I need to do?  Teach and share more about how to speak with Guardians.  But really I’ve been challenged just to keep up with what I have been given here and now. I was so excited to cleanup my room yesterday. Yes to actually pickup everything on the floor and vacuum is clean. I’ve been noticing my hair everywhere. Yes I know that’s what happens when you grown a beard and refuse to cut it or anything. But yuck, hair everywhere. And I’ve had the vacuums laid out in the way so I’d trip over them every day until I finally cleaned up. 

I really only vacuumed, and still have so much cleaning to do all around. Inside, outside, really everywhere. Oh Sorry, this is about SEEL, lol. . . Not my regular Blo where I just seem to be babbling all the time.

BUT OF COURSE, I’m on Day Seven, which is a repeat of day five or six. So now I go up above and reset the image size in my blog for those two verses so they both are really big and easy to read now. I am the Way the Truth and the Life, there is nothing beyond Him. This came up this morning with the Society of St. Joseph at St Pauls church next door. Yes, Fr Curtis has been listening to too much gossip at St Raphaels so I’m avoiding them a bit.

Anyways, the St Joseph’s Society this morning was on this same subject, what is TRUTH. . . Wow, this was strong and clear. . . . Reminded me of my son who thinks he has his own truth, or whatever. Like there could be some variable there like truth was somewhere in the gray area between black and white. NOT, it’s either black or it’s white, that’s simply the truth whether we want to pretend to be color blind or something else to justify some version or grey instead of accepting that the truth is not both or not a matter of opinion. It’s simply the fact of life where we are in Truth or we are not. That’s very simple to me I guess since I’ve been able to know at some level deeper than everyone. Like Death and Love, which some think are variable or permanent, but each easily fluctuate over time by everything and everyone. . . 

121.02 do more as things grow and change every day

DAY 5, Read Luke 13:10-17 (Jesus heals a crippled woman). Notice Jesus compassionate response to the woman in comparison with the small-mindedness of the religious leaders. Are there long-suffering people in your life who need your care? I Have witnessed people reacting as Jesus' opponents do here?

I am always fascinated by how much I respond “physically” to people. Mom always said I was very empathetic and needed to protect myself so I didn’t  pick-up and feel too much from people. It’s really kinda weird as I can get the sense of the crowd or the person in the car driving by. . . Or hear a cough or See thing from Accross the room and know something about these people. I always felt like I was invading their privacy. . 

But then on the rare occasion where I hug someone or reach out to touch them, something deep and strong inside of me shifts. I really always have been able to pick-up things, I mean children always can see it. Like they know I can feel them, or something deeper.  I’ve always loved the time with children.  I mean, they are really closer to God having been on the other side movements before birth, and then suddenly have all these senses that over-power their natural knowing that was God.

Now more than ever to praise God with putting hands onto someone feels closer to me than ever.  I’ve had the spontaneous experiences a few times, and regularly avoid touching people at all. But I do recognize the progression of my experience and growth in the church.

Literally, Tuesday morning another man at the Saint Joseph’s morning meeting asked me about being barefoot. I recounted my Witness Story of becoming Catholic and the “Each One, Teach One” from Fr Kevin’s Homely that repeated the words I highlighted in my lent guide. . . About my Mom’s Sermon. . . . And the “electric” connections between people!

Of course, I took off my shoes immediately in Mass hearing Fr Kevin ask us to “Each one Teach one”. . . So I had to walk up and share the new revelation with him after mass. I really think it was remarkable to share with him after Mass since we could feel the connection between us and then the whole room looked over to see us sharing. I really feel that others have this deep Empathy like me, but just do not understand it, or are afraid of better connections to others which comes when we ask Jesus to Heal through us.

DAY 6, Read Luke 12:22-32 ("Do not worry about your life.). I think this is one of my many blessing in Mass and sharing with the Prayerline and Others who ask. And I guess I really know I need to step into it more. And I realize I will in time, and really don’t need to rush it. Of course, I’ve been feeling I need to do more as things grow and change every day . . . .

Course, I really have no idea, as with everything I do, it’s more important to trust the Flow and Timing God Creates for me in all these things. So staying focused on seeking God Before all else is really ideal for me now more than ever. 

I mean, I really have everything I could ever imagine. I bike everywhere, only plant and build around the house. I always have too much food, and try to fast more. Like today I had two cups of coffee and hand-full or peanuts so far. . . 

Now to return and repeat again is really about BEING with Jesus. I know that’s where I am, I know that’s where I belong, I know this is going to continue with everything I do. And I know I’m ready for whatever that really means in my glory of God. And I really just accept each moment as it shows up.

121.01 share in His Spirit doing God’s Work

WEEK OF PRAYER #2I: THE KINGDOM OF GOD

We heard the invitation to labor with Christ in building a more loving, just, and gentle world. In his teaching, Jesus invites us to imagine Gods dream for the world. In his actions, Jesus shows us what the reign of God looks like concretely. As you pray this week, ask: How does the call of Christ move me now? What bold, holy desires does Jesus view of God's kingdom stir in me?

So again, the power and clarity that comes through to me with these statements about BEING, and LIVING in a new Dream of God is just right. Wow, I sorta feel like I’ve been there most of my life. Since the Motorcycle accident when I was “TOLD” to return and woke up with a vision of heaven on Earth. I am again in the right place at the right time to examine these phrases and ideas from the inside. I mean, to explore and speak about these experiences so much beyond the simple words and ideas, since I’ve been living them for so long.

I mean, these last weeks of this New Year have been characterized with the deeper understanding of how much I really live and share with Jesus and the Saints to manifest GOD'S Will each and every day. The realization that my ongoing experience is a constant conversation with Spirit has been indisputable. I can not escape it, nor do I want to.

Now again, I am so grateful to share more about my own growth and experience. Bible in a year was started with the New Year. This means a tighter stronger schedule and dedication each moment. I'm at day 27 of the Bible and we are starting Exodus and Leviticus. Speaking about the sacrifice to god and connection to the Mass and the covenant with God, which Exodus 90 parallels too.

So now again I have this awesome Connection to how God asks me to pray and learn in Worship … here before me is the SEEL Day 1 Luke 6:27-38. Which is really about all the ways and methods I need to share the love of God. And as we “Imagine the Dreams of God” living each of these the best we can each day!

Love your enemies,

Bless those who curse you,

Pray for those who abuse you,

Give to every one who begs from you! 

Then it comes back to love your enemies again. Which is really kind of wonderful as I’m teaching again and leading people to grow and sharing the spirit. I really wonder how this all comes together sometimes. But I really understand how blessed I am, being able to share this talk now, and bring it forward for others to understand a deeper level, and that’s my job really to evangelize sharing the love of Jesus as Best as I can!

And I see and realize how much love and Joy I have and share each moment stepping forward. Yes, I've learned to pray for enemies and those who strive against me. It's really something new for me. Like praying for all my family specifically by name. I really have never done that before. I started praying for my children when the Exodus 90 men's fraternity started doing the Rosary. Yes, each rosary session started with the leader asking who we each wanted to prey for.

That mean, I started adding my kids a few years ago and now actually say the names of all my family and all my brotherhood. Mind you I have told my brotherhood again and again how I've never had this kind of respect and support from anyone beyond my mothers!

Funny, I am using My iPad pen again now and the scribbles are converted pretty accurately, even when the scribbles are misspelled. Now above it came out as plural mothers, and I realized that was more accurate anyway.

So I see I'm ready for Day 2, Luke 9:10-17

"And Jesus feeds us, mind body and soul." which really brings me back to the glory and passion of Christ. We really have all we need and can survive on Jesus alone. And I see this more and more each day as I make this time with him more and more of a priority for me.

Now again, as I consider how much Jesus has done with so little in these verses. And I consider now how I have so much time alone to share with Christ now again as I write. I feel so blessed to write and share again. Time seems to stand still some how where each day I have more and more to do and somehow the time appears and I'm able to proceed. I actually have gotten nervous or concerned about my new schedule and all the classes I need to do. How can I get this all done and somehow I still have time to read my Bible and do my Prayerline calls. 

“And all ate and were satisfied!” Of course! God always provides from the smallest details to the more extreme and supernatural, as noted with bringing us into the

Eucharist. 

DAY 3, Read Luke 10:25-37 (parable of the Good Samaritan). In this famous parable, we learn what mercy is all about. Compassion first involves noticing people in need and then acting out of that compassion in some effective way. In other words, what we see moves our mind and heart, which then moves our hands, feet, and mouth to help. How does this parable apply to a situation in your life or in our world?

Exodus 90: Let us pray.

Heavenly Father, thank you for calling us your sons and for making us so. Thank you for helping us to trust in you and to bring you into all of our decisions, so that we may live with you and in relationship with you each day. Thank you for showing us through the Exodus how you sustain your people, even miraculously, as you led so many through the desert. Although we tend to trust our own logic a little too much, please infuse our logic with your logic. Please infuse all of our actions with your love. As we seek you now in the silence we have set aside for reflection and prayer, help us to settle our hearts, to hear your voice, and to walk with you. Teach us to place our trust in you throughout each and every day. We make this prayer through Christ our Lord. Amen.

DAY 4, Repetition of one of the Scripture passages! So now again to return to a passage above the very first line is so strong for me. Christ inviting me to share in His Spirit doing God’s Work. Now again I feel a wonderful sense of de-ja-vu, where I have been here doing this before. I'm listening to the joyfm podcasts and have such a deep sense of peace and comfort knowing the love and Joy in my life where I am Literally Living the Dreams that I’ve Created with Jesus. I mean all my experiences today were exactly what we spoke about and shared a year ago. I was desperately seeking and asking God to share in this Experience and find a way for me to BE HIS WILL, here on Earth sharing the Best I could do for Hus Glory.