Use the Application of the Five Senses (p. 142) to deepen and simplify your prayer. I’m really not sure how this "application" will “simplify player.” Not sure how more about “being,” might simplify anything at all. Resting in the presence and this Beingness seems even more intense rather than simplifying anything, I mean, paying attention to my deeper emotions seems crazy as I’ve learned to block my empathy for years. Wow, it’s really about a total reversal. I need to accept that. I have to go back and feel and understand everything I experience. I mean I remember my mom’s passing and never crying, I guess 35 years of getting bullied and beaten stopped my crying completely. Then I remember crying with Kim the first time. I was always so grateful for her, teaching me to cry again.
Here again, I get to Experience a stronger connection with my Maker. Everything about this is about Jesus!!! It’s really about understanding my own deeper responsibilities. I know I feel pressed to do more and I know that I’m only 16 again, which really means I need to restore my aggressive, non-stop passion to get things done, to create, to paint, and to build and to LOVE EVERYTHING. Wow, I need to start here with SEEL and in this deeper understanding of Easter, where Jesus Died for our sins, so we could get closer to our Holy GOD, really acknowledging this new Life and Deeper experience. Yes, Jesus died and went to hell to beat all sin and all evil, to pay the price so we all could be forgiven, to be sin free and able to get closer to our Holy GOD! . . So again, it’s really about stepping into another space and time of rapid change and powerful experiences, where I belong. I said that in conversation with Emily this last weekend, how everything in my life has been very powerful and very drastic. I must continue to make my Bible and SEEL readings part of my daily routine, in that I feel the responsibility, the desire, the passion to step forward with Jesus to share more of the visions I experience. I need to step into this stronger and know it’s my time and space to make more happen. My Happiness in my BEingness has gotten easier and easier, as I step every day into greater obedience even now, as I read 1 Samual 15:22 in my Bible-in-year-app: I understand my place more and more.
What this is really about is stepping beyond the mind of thinking or visualizing; and returning to simple being in the real experience of these E-MOTIONS, to allow this “energy in motion.” Yes, what emotions come to you from this BEing here with Jesus during these experiences. As you get deeper this will be getting very powerful. You really have known a lot of power intimately already. And now to step into everything stronger will affect everyone!
I always feel so much love and joy with You Jesus. And I have no idea what I'm doing sometimes and I now have another notice from the city. Bonnie is complaining again about all the things in my yard that I've been working on. Some of them are just old BS. While some are valid. And I know and TRUST IN JESUS. I must do my lessons in my Bible readings now, and then my biking and churching, and everything exactly as I have been doing all this year. Jesus is very specific about me taking a break from grading papers to work in the yard. He woke me up at 1am again today, I haven’t eaten yet and I already have my 2nd cup of coffee. While Mass, this morning was beautiful and the Bible-in-a-year app got me here too, it is about Obeying God’s Voice:
We have been very clear with you, and the tasks are very specific and detailed. Next on your list is this SEEL Work too. Work now is really specific, riding your bike into the Exodus 90 meeting at Saint Raphael's is next. And your video is on before you leave at 7am.
We need you to get more deeply into your very personal and intimate experiences. Your ACE Scores must each be opened up to express the full violence and conflicts witnessed in your childhood. You really only remember and have acknowledged a tiny fraction of what you actually experienced . . . . Having your pen and paper now gets you so excited, as you are ready to share more. You get so much understanding and satisfaction when you write and explore deeper into your experiences.
This means more deeply sharing what shows up for you spontaneously in your community interactions. No more hiding behind your pen or your readings, or any more hiding at all. It is about discovering what is still hidden and buried inside of you and then allowing it all to BE expressed more fully and clearly.
It's important to accept that everyone has trauma. Your work now is about sharing the very specific and the very deepest secret insights and knowledge that you have lived. You must accept that task of sharing first. Each time you meet and discuss events and experiences with others you MUST ALLOW FLOW in whatever you feel. Recognize these deeper more powerful emotions will come out more and more as you progress and share FREELY with all your peers. YES ALL. It’s vitally important for you to forget the fears and stay open to God’s Grace in Flow and real Feelings in the days ahead of you.
These deeper experiences, that we all seek and desire to resolve, are all in the Bible. All your Bible studying is critical, especially now, and especially SEEL . . . . Each moment that you have here is central to your growth. You do know and understand our experiences writing together with you here also are critically significant. And you see the synchronicity and coincidence as so many things you write line up together in truth and power throughout your waking days. This makes it very clear you are doing Gods work and moving in the right direction. TRUST and FLOW in Peace and Ease.Now deeper into DAY 1 Mark 14:12-72. Wow this is a lot to read at once for me, you need to remember that I started reading with Dr. Nord’s instructions in his Power and Control class with my MBA . . . lol . . .
WOW, and as I read this again and markup fresh new insights . . . . Everything gets stronger! How does my own suffering unite with Jesus suffering on the cross?Now above these daily reading of today’s service bring me deeper and deeper into "god's Plan" here in DAY 1 Mark 14:12-72. Wow How does my own suffering unite with Jesus suffering on the cross?
I realize that my own suffering has ended. And I’ve really been placed into a new state of BEing with Jesus. Yes, a deeper, stronger safe communion of safety and peace. Of course, I’m challenged with what this means and how I can step into it more and get to where I do whatever I am best at doing. And I guess reading more deeply into this . . . Where the first yellow highlight was about making ready with the water and the Covenant Ritual and sacred sacrament.
This covenant that “killed the Passover” . . . That we might eat and step beyond the history of violence and sacrifices. TO really accept all that Jesus has given to us.
“Mayest” literal meaning for me today is accepting this awesome trip to my daughter and family showing me now more than ever that I MUST share more of who I am and what I can do. Wow, or what I know I can do. . .
Yes, the MAYA phrase reminded me of the Indigenous aspect that my Mother brought to me. So I know it’s time. The Thursday classes with the Divine Chaplet inspired me to share about going barefoot, and I offered to share the experience with them. We planned to do it next week, so they asked the priest who spoke about what could happen if they are not clear and strong in Christ. Wow, talking about fear and insecurity instead of Power and Faith. SO BE IT, I can only do what they allow me to do.
I’m always struggling with putting these photos into the blog. Sometimes I can’t find the right pictures, then I can’t get them in the right order, and then I can’t get them to fit right, or justify the text right for me. It’s really weird how much of a pain it is sometimes, as I want everything together to read and FLOW WITH EASE. Course it’s getting better every day. I mean the Apple updates are coming all the time. I have said its weekly updates, but it seems even more often than that.
When I started these SEEL Readings again today, I knew I had to read over each Bible verses again. It’s about editing and improving, which requires me to be present in the Spirit of these passages NOW. I read this already, since it was so long. In the first reading I was with the yellow highlighter and that showed what jumped out to me was in the water. Yes, its was all about water, which always resonates with me as a PhD in Water Resource Engineering. Yes, and this water from Jesus is really about the Living Water of the Holy Spirit. So this young man with the water jug, was supposed to be Saint Mark. Lol, course I’m now 16 again, so I also feel like the lucky kid ready to serve the Savior! Course, I learned about this kid with The Chosen! This beautiful reading now brings water back to the central force of life, which is really at my source of all Life as part of the Trinity in the Love for all life everyday. And then it ends with His new Drink will be in the Kingdom after He is risen!
Now I need to consider the new readings and how the purple in 14:32-52 is deeper anguish and heavy anxiety in “hoping beyond hope” that this cup could pass from Him. It’s crazy how these two sections split by the text in the screenshot captures certain verses together for me to share here. Above the Purple was the Cup of Joy in the New Covenant, while next the cup is heavy and the burden is great, stepping into the next place of His Passion again centered on the Living Water of the Holy Spirit . . . And as I realize this in this new reading of these verses, I also see the yellow from the last reading where God’s Will is still the priority, and God in the Spirit is ready and willing. But the flesh is weak.
And it’s really my third time reading this, as it was such a long powerful section and to really “apply the five senses” means adding everything I get related to this. So the first was yellow, second was purple, and now comes the red clouds after my powerful experience with my daughter and her family.
We are pleased with your work. And again you certainly have seen and experienced so much around you, feeling wonderful and focused in grace. This Covenant that you Accepted and brought into your experience has so much more meaning now. You can see and feel how the Daily Mass, Readings, and studies all fit together into more clarity and focus for you.It’s funny as I read and write here, I have the video from Matthew Leonard doing the Nine Grades of Prayer by St Teresa of Avila in the background now.
Yes, I’m sure I’ll find more synchronicity to post here as i read . . . so the yellow in this next piece was all about the real experiences of Jesus confirming all to be done in Gods Will, though weak in the flesh as we all are. But the Spirit is ready. This is the deep personal commitment we will feel when we are joined in the unified way of Christ. Tasting the Divine Nature with the relationship in Christ as discussed in the Prayer of Union: https://www.scienceofsainthood.com/st-teresa-of-avila-individual-course 
I knew that would happen. So the Purple in this verse was really as I knew I needed to get deeper into my own personal experience of reading and then these verses resonated and aligned with everything I’m doing and experiencing moving forward.
We are very clear with you again and it’s obvious how much work you need to do.I am a member and “communicant” in church and this community more than ever. It's about the whole experience with the sacraments and other processes in this community sharing with God's people. And I realize the deeper issues i have to address likely spin around the need to resolve the “unforgiveness” deep inside me https://www.intouch.org/listen/radio/freedom-from-bondage-part-1
I mean, Jesus is here in the gardens preparing to leave “life on Earth” as he knows it, and he can’t get his dearest disciples to stay awake and watch for him. I guess he knows he’s got the “date with destiny,” and can’t miss it. . . . So he asked for some support from his team . . . . But they can’t stay awake. And though he woke them three times, he still has compassion and forgiveness for them, even at this desperate time for him.
What you are doing now is accepting that you are still VERY FAR from the true experience of Jesus. You might feel love, and support your peers, stepping into the challenges that appear before you. But recognize you still have a long way to go. So that’s why these bible readings and SEEL are so important for you.I have also been doing the Consecration to Mary again! https://hallow.app.link/EgxWHeDFs3b I was speaking about this with the Men at the Society of Saint Joseph Tuesday mornings at St Paul's. I said how I had done this Consecration with the Exodus 90 Men. Each time we finished one lesson we would find another. And I remembered the first time and listening to Mary, and recognizing this voice inside of me. Then I said how I grew-up in the woods and was always hearing the trees or animals speaking to me, and now suddenly I realized it was Saint Mary instead.
It's something I've realized over and over again. My mom was clearly a very strong Catholic who secretly taught me so many things I didn't know that were Catholic. Every day I learn something new in Catholicism and discover something already inside of me from my mom. It's really been very powerful as Puerto Rico and Florida were all missionary work of the Franciscan Monks so the clarity and focus is very powerful for me.
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