123.00 hind-sight is 20/20

 Week 23 is next for me in SEEL.

This section really pulled me into the sense of the prophetic Jesus.  I mean, knowing that he was here on a mission and had to get things done . . . Very important things.  Even things he might not have understood or been clear about until the moment that everything came together. 

He sorta always knew what was next because he had been here from the beginning and simply stepped into the role and responsibility when it was time to.  I mean he certainly planned it all with God and the Holy Spirit. I often get this feeling about me too. And it’s interesting as we are surprised what happens or surprised what we need to do, but then step into it almost automatically or blindly anyway.

I remember this same feeling with my experience with Fr. Curtis, where I simply did what was opened for me. I mean, I never really thought about it or planned.  I realized how he was speaking about community and specifically how to engage the Catholic Community. And we had just had a meeting together, where he wanted me to get professional help about boundaries and engaging in this community better on his terms. So I knew I had to speak to him about it more, feeling again how he was speaking directly to me.

 Funny, as I realized this was importantly for me to step into.  I didn’t really remember much of the details from his homily at all. Course the clip I sent Ben was there on my iPhone, so I pulled it up into the transcripts and read it at that very moment. This was just enough to have this profound experience, or really enough to accept the direction and step intro the actions I was called to with confidence.

Like the four bible verses we are studying this week in SEEL. Each listed here has a very powerful prophetic element to it. Or should I say that’s what jumped out at me when I read each one as highlighted here in yellow during my first read.

And I guess we all really have a sense of this. I mean as we are conscious of our own personal experiences with Christ, we are all pulled to do things we might not completely understand.  Men always want to be in control which often means we sidestep God's directions or abridge and adjust things to one own liking.

But “Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord” . . . And it really is all about BEing the hands and feet of Jesus here on Earth. Fulfilling what it is that we are Called to, whether we really understand it or not. And I get this knowing from the experience of how God really likes to surprise us. Not so much because he never wants us to know what’s next, but more so it’s about the “surprise” and the authentic joy and excitement that surprises bring into our hearts.

Like these four bible verses we are studying this week in SEEL. Each has a very powerful prophetic element to it. Or should I say that’s what jumped out at me when I read each one. Like here with Matthew 26:23 which was highlighted purple when Dick asked me to skip a week again. It's funny how each time he does that, I spend another week praying, feeling, and exploring the same Bible verses again, adding this new purple in insights to the yellow that I started with.

So here, the purple was prophetic as Jesus spoke or knew what would happen as he “dipped his hand into the bowl” again. Still his disciples didn't believe him or understand what it meant to be betrayed to death, “as it is written.”  Now to be with and know this with Jesus is key. 

We each are given tasks and responsibilities where we know and step into more and more each day. BEing the hands and feet of Jesus! And now this morning with Mass, where they repeated the Bible versus I heard on the Hallow app earlier. Yes, I hear and learn about the same experience again where Jesus is not understood and must explain the scriptures, as I highlighted again here in yellow from the Mass Daily Readings at left.

And what I found more powerful today was now highlighted purple where Christ revealed Himself to them with the breaking of bread. While above the same passage of power was in Matthew 26:28 where the blood of the covenant was shared for the forgiveness of our sins . . . Again where Jesus shares the powerful experience which we may not fully understand,

This really feels like the most profound and important statement of all. Beyond BEing the hands and feet of Jesus is really the requirement for us all to be sinless before we approach God. God is Holy and for us to approach Him we must be sinless! And again this really feels like a critical statement or fundamental knowledge that Jesus has really struggled to express and make clean to us all.

This again brings me to the power and focus of my time and experience with Jesus.

I mean this next Bible verse John 13:1-17 is the same teaching again. Not just that they do not know or understand now, but that they will understand later, as he specifically explains in the passage. And again the prophetic nature of his words really comes through so strongly.

Speaking very clearly about the example Christ provides in washing their feet. Which again presses me forward to do God's will in this very time and moment.

 I know how I need to do so much. It's gotten really cold and rainy outside. So I really don't want to go any where or do anything but know my place and responsibility to get things done, as the servant to heal and serve others in my community as needed.

I stopped my reading and witting here for Jesus, because He wanted me to bring the chicken soup to Annette. I was supposed to visit her yesterday but it was cold and raining. I almost used that excuse today too, but He wouldn’t stand for it telling me to drive my truck instead.

Then I brought a big jar of my chicken soup. I never was sure why I made it or who it was for. But she finished her first bowl while I was there with her. So it was really clear to me now what it was all about. Just like Jesus tells the disciples, whether we know or understand is really not relevant, we just need to have Faith and follow directions

And now I see this really has brought me to this last verse in this weeks SEEL Exercise Matthew 16:26-46 which mimics my lesson today with Annett to simply do God’s will, don’t question, don’t struggle to understand or anything but simply do it. Of course, over the weekend I was struggling with the kitchen and the chicken soup as I felt like I’ve been eating too much and needed another fast day. Course, I bought the veggies and everything for the soup whether I was wanting it or not, and simply did what I was told. . . Lost completely about why, but did it anyway. And now hind-sight is 20/20 and I’ll bring Annett more soup tomorrow.