Thursday, May 23, 2024

dream and it was in the house

5/6/24 So I had a dream and I was in the house with two friends and we were getting up to go somewhere like to a pawnshop or something like that. We were making something to eat some spaghetti or something. It was leftovers, we decided to go somewhere with things that I had, very specific house in Seminole Heights. 

I think it was Chuck and I thought we had another guest and she was not done yet. Somebody said we had to go somewhere so we went to like this pawn shop and it was a really old store that you could buy and sell things, and it wasn’t like we needed anything. You know we were just piddling around and looking at different things and kind of weird. 

I was like making a knife out of aluminum foil. I found something that looked neat and I started playing with it and I changed it and I fixed it and then suddenly I realized that I forgot the food on the stove. It was still on the stove cooking on the stove last time about half of it was still in the pot. But I realize that I forgot about it, that was like, oh my gosh it boiled over by now and it’s made a big mess that might be on fire. I realized that I pulled apart my fire alarms again to fix batteries, so the fire alarms weren’t there.

Last week the batteries were dead again, so I took them all apart, but I kind of freaked out because I realized it was still on the stove and I gotta get out of here right now. I just left the stove on, OK and I said let’s go right now and I just took everybody and whatever they were looking at. I put everything at the cash register. You know it was just like three trinkets that each one of us had, that we were looking at, or playing with. Whatever it was and I was like, I’ll just buy them all so we could get out of here. 

It was so vivid and so specific and I mean, I could tell you what the pasta looked like I could tell you what the food looked like. I remember we tried to pull it out because we were hungry and it wasn’t hot yet it was like half frozen, so I was like not still gonna put it back on the stove.  All of a sudden, somebody said this took off because whatever it was the store we were just around you could tell we were really focused on anything at least I wasn’t really focused on anything and it came apart and I folded over and I was like I can still make this work and and then I realized oh my gosh, I left the fire going.  And grabbed it when I woke up I was waiting, so weird. Write it down. 

5/16/2023 
I climbed into bed and all I can do is say OH THANK YOU JESUS, thank you, thank you, thank you. I love you, Love you, love you, thank you, thank you, thank you. 

I just can’t help it. I’m so happy and comfortable and in peace and joy and I just spent the last hour in the salt water bath with a beer, ha, ha, ha, wow!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What DO YOU REMEMBER ABOUT YOUR BIRTHDAY? 
Each year you step into a new vibration and new place of power. The spirals of the planet and the galaxy are all connected to your own magnetism and spinning. You call it the sine wave of your life. It’s about who you are, and where you are. Each year you really shift, millions of miles from where you started. You are knowing more, stepping into more, shifting into a better place.  Like in your conversation with Dick yesterday morning you recognized how to get all you’ve learned together. 
First, starting each new Task with Prayer, as you learned about at work. It was odd for you to use the bathroom as the reminder there at work, so now as he said, to start “each new task with prayers.” This before you is an easy reminder for you. Creating these routines each day that really work for you is critical. Like with the Exodus 90 Exercises and biking again and swimming. You love starting each new stage of your life, and have celebrated this alone on your birthday and other Holy-days all your life. And you have been asking for us to get more clear with you as well. 
We were very clear to you about sharing the Blessings you witnessed this week at your new class yesterday. The Divine Mercy Novena Chaplet you started yesterday was ideal. Dick even recognized that your new Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday schedule now for Church was better than Sunday, Monday, Tuesday you were struggling with. Yes, yesterday you noticed every blessing they shared in the Novena group was another reminder of events you had seen. And as you tried not to say anything, but again heard connection closer and closer to you, so you finally stepped in. 
You knew at the very beginning that you needed to share. This was really ideal too, because as you heard everyone else you reconnected to all the blessings you saw all week. And each experience you shared with others brings you more clarity and more connection within this community. 
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ for everything you share with me. . . 

5/17/2023 7:37am
OK I had another dream last night. This one was like a nightmare and I really tried to avoid writing up anything at all. I know you want me to, but YUCKO. And I finally started talking about it and I didn’t save that, so I’m starting over again now a few hours later. I don’t know why, because I can’t stand writing or dealing with nightmares, but it was so clear it was so strong.  Yes, I often will talk to my iPhone to print into a blog with a dream, because the more I move and think the quicker the dreams fade.  So the IPhone blog page is fast and easy always ideal.

It was a dark scary dream, I was in kind of an old city area, like deep in the hood. And I was with this kid and he knew that he knew where he was going. Like after drugs or something else he shouldn’t be doing anyways. I thought he knew what he wanted and I kept trying to tell him that I know, it’s not a good place to go, but he kept going and I knew it was getting worse and worse and I kept trying to stop him, but he went too far. I mean, I wouldn’t go any further.  He was a big kid, like his dad thinking no one could stop him.

Next thing I knew I was with his dad. He is a big guy like Mr. McDade or something like that. Maybe it was him after one of his sons equally tall and lanky? Again, he wanted to get his son back. I brought him in there again. It was just a nasty space. You know the further you got into it, the more you saw mean people and dirty and nasty and crime all around and you know it was just dark. I mean, I got nervous about myself getting out. OK, don’t know if he actually found his son, because I wouldn’t get into the darkest back corner where they were. But when I got to that last section that you knew they did that it was really bad, because I could recognize the places.

Ye, I recognized the buildings broken down, and the dangerous streets. I could recognize so many things. I got the feeling like I’ve been to hell and back. . . . Again!

I realize now that it’s Pentecost this weekend so that might be why I had to write this! I actually haven’t written more than a few words, I’ve been talking it into my iphone. Which is kind of funny because Johnny came by to get some fedex box, and he had gotten a new cheap flip phone for himself. Yes and was gonna give me his old iPhone like he did with the iwatch. So then I’d have this 11 max that Kim got for me and then the one that Johnny gives me is a 14. They’re coming out with the 16 soon too

I need a better camera, but I don’t know, wait-and-see!

NOW AGAIN I must get more specific and clear about my own personal needs and desires. Getting real about what I want and who I am is really critical.
What have you found now as yon are practicing your exercises and readings and really learning to play more. Do you an how such mine you an speaking with us and do you recognize how much more we are sharing with you, 
I seem to have found the same place I’ve always been. Starting over again, but with more clarity and focus. And My Father brings me home, Always in the Right Place at the Right time who I am is really critical.Yes as the Darkness and the Light are the Same for You Jesus, and you Know You can always carry me through. As you will always be with me and I thank YOU!
What you found again here and now, how you are writing with your pen allows you to express and share something more at a deeper level.  You have been getting clearer all the time and know more about your place and tasks than ever. Getting things done outside allows you to do more every day. You have more trust and more confidence in these steps before you. This focus brings you more power and direction each day. Such actions will allow more to open for you. As everything shifts as you become ready to step into more. . . . . .
I am is really comfortable and happy. Last week at the farmers market, the guy in line before me got a pretty New York strip steak so I did too. Fresh organic and yummy! So I made a bunch of mushrooms and onions. Today I got some sweet potatoes from my front yard and it was so yummy together
What have you found now ?
I am always in such Joy getting into bed . . . Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus, I Love You Jesus, I Love You Jesus, I Love You, I Love You, Thank You, Thank You, Thank You!!!
What have you found?
I am always dumbfounded by the circumstances that evolve in any day of the week for me. My time and experiences are always so incredible. I know, I wanted to say DIVINE to Honor YOU, especially since you got this stupid keyboard working again. Yes, I went into the bathroom ready to sit and relax with my iPadPro and my pencil. Then I noticed the pencil was already on, so the battery there is dead dead dead. Seemed like there would be no blogging as I sat, but then I fiddled with this keyboard enough so now I’m typing. 

Yes, I seem to type when I have work to do. I’ll write with the pen when it’s more emotional, then I’ll talk into it when I have a lot to say and get done. It’s always kinda cool. Anyway yesterday was really powerful, or I guess I had a great weekend. It was my birthday Thursday, and I had a free dinner at Ruth Chris Steak House. I was some financial retirement marketing thing, but seeing my birthdate on it, felt like a gift so i went. 

Thursday morning started with Mass and then followed by the ladies group again. Yes I got to mass early Last Sunday after a short swim. Mary was busy setting things up for Mass, as usual and walked by me so I told her how I missed the weekly meetings with all the ladies. She told me they still meet Thursday mornings after Mass and invited me to go with her. So it was great to go on my Birthday.  And I even invited someone to join me with the Steak Dinner. Yea, late notice so forget that.

When the group started, people were invited to share any blessing from the previous week. I kept getting symbols to share more as several mentioned events that I had also experienced.  And of course this included the people sitting right next to me, so I finally chimed in as well.  I mentioned the first blessing was to finally get back into my routine, biking and swimming as some awesome group of ladies got me into the Men Exodus Group where I’ve gotten very focused in my healthy habits. Better still was to get this invite to join the ladies who got me started at St Raphael’s so I felt I had gone in full circle. 
What have you found deeper still in this?
I guess I realized how I needed to include more of my mother’s history in the Welcome Witnessing. What seems really critical now was how I expressed to the ladies how wonderful it was to be paper of a Men’s group that really I the only family I have now. And I couldn’t say that last bit without crying. So it was great to share with the ladies. Of course I remember the first class with them, when Mary spoke about the ninth grade of prayer that she had experienced once. I could relate so much and responded I had done something similarly before I recognized it was something no one else had experienced.
What else did you find in that? 
Yes I remember how embarrassed i was that the experience we shared i sorta do all the time. And to learn and understand that it’s not very common seems really critical at this moment now.
What have you found. 
I really get frustrated when I wanna type and the keyboard isn’t working. I can test it and get it working in other apps, but then when I start to type again in my blog, it stops working. I seem to be spinning again, where I’m not sure what I’m doing and where I should be. I cleaned my laptop and got everything working in the new Sonoma. But then it dies again. And I’ve opened up my desktop and gotten that working and even can FTP to the server. I have not edited or done anything yet. I’m talking to this blog now and it is getting every other word wrong!
What have you found with your prayer life.
I realized I’ve still not been doing prayers with each task. Seems like I am really going backwards again. Yes I’m really happy about cleaning and fixing some things, but the. The next moment I can’t seem to get it right. I always feel like I have so many responsibilities, and when nothing comes together, I feel irresponsible and I do nothing, because it just doesn’t work. I had scheduled an electrician to visit today and he cancelled so nothing has worked all day. I did try a few other things, but still not.

I've got my pen working again, but still have all sorts of errors. Like over five times to get the last word right. It's crazy as I know so much needs do be done and no one seems to be engaged.

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