Thursday, May 22, 2025

111.1 SEEL He has not created me for naught

Finishing week of Prayer #11. . . Page 132: The Ignatian Adventure 
DAY 5: Read Luke 1:39-56 (Mary visits Elizabeth). Again, use your imagination to pray with this scene. Notice how God saves within a particular family. Marvel at how God needs the help of these gracious women to "work the redemption of the human race" (SE 107) Pray Mary's Magnificat with her, in a spirit of joy.

Wow, this really hit home for me now. I’ve been leaning on several “gracious women” more than ever this week. Even now as I’m challenged by my son again, my daughter is sharing some common sense. I’ve always been so blessed with my children.  And I know they have a powerful place with Jesus because I went through so much to get them here, working with them. . . . Wow, half my life was all for them. I mean, Maryanne had an abortion while I was in High School. She was in college to become a nurse, so when she got a positive pregnancy test, her and a girlfriend went and “took care of it” before she ever told me anything. 

That has since freaked me out more than ever. But she would get pregnant every month and was anxious to keep our child. But raising a child was not something I could do so causally . . . . And it was very clear to me there was a child ready to come to me. So when my dad said college in Florida, it was an unexpected solution. So 4-5 years of college and it was time for babies. . . 

What a crazy story to get into now. I’m sure I’ve shared it hundreds of times. Each time it seems to get shorter and more focused. 

So now what does this really mean. I certainly was singing the Magnificat when Colleen got pregnant. Lol, I remember now that for years I spelled the names wrong so no one would really know who I was talking about so Neelloc was a young healthy mother . . . . Just what I needed after losing babies before. Course I played with Emily too much before she was born, and got her all wrapped up in the umbilical cord. . . Yes, and almost lost her, where she had it twice around her neck, turning her blue when the doctors pulled her out. 

DAY 6: Read Matthew 1:18-25 (Joseph's dream). God again relies on human freedom and cooperation to save us in our need. Be with Joseph as he generously and courageously responds to God's calling him to become a husband and father. Hear how the angel comforts Joseph, telling him not to be afraid, just as the angel Gabriel urged Mary. Love dispels all fear.

Wow, how are we stepping into the next level of our Spiritual Life. . . What does this next step look like.  Like praying with my tiny baby in the NICU. I guess I was listening to her Angels telling me how to pray and sing to the little baby.  So to read these bible versus and consider the experiences of Joseph as another called into action by God.  I’m sure we all get calls. Not always so clear and powerful. And Such Love always dispels all fears. 

DAY 7: Savor the graces of the week, or make a repetition of one of the previous Scripture passages. Undertake nothing without consulting God.
Considering the Angel Gabriel Bringing it back in my life and experience is where I’ve always been. Heal and freedom, will release, and forgive.

Touch opens the windows to the heart... so this is what I missed Christopher, you never learned the Christian morals: 

Please forgive me...  I chose


I am Sorry Chris, you were born as a man, and you came for a reason. Please don't give up on it, please keep looking and find this reason!

I am created to do something or to be something for which no one else is created; I have a place in God’s counsels, in God’s world, which no one else has; whether I be rich or poor, despised or esteemed by man, God knows me and calls me by my name. I have my mission. Somehow, I am necessary for his purposes. I have a part in this great work; I am a link in a chain, a bond of connection between persons. He has not created me for naught. I shall do good, I shall do his work. O Lord, I give myself to Thee. I trust Thee wholly. Deign to fulfill Thy high purposes in me whatever they be—work in and through me. I am born to serve Thee, to be Thine, to be Thy instrument. Amen.


This prayer above is the ending for the current Exodus 50 of Easter that our Fraternity of 50 or 60 respite every day. . . While there are nearly a hundred thousand men, worldwide who say this in support of each other . . . stranger still; many of these men are doing this for their family, children and sons in mind. . .  Exactly like I do.


Know Jesus will catch you if you fall... I came here to Tampa with the radio singing "God's Will" for me... I met Chuck from NJ, and we started stars...!

This morning joyFM said how he solved his headache, a large coke and fries from McDonalds.!?!??

Something about the strong salt and sugar clears the head, science messages of TikTok!

Holy shit, that's SATAN! Clear as day, oops wrong radio!?!?


Yes I am more than just sad, I'm worried. . . Terrified, freaking, struggling . . 



Yes I am more than just sad, I'm worried...

Yes Chris this is all about loving freely, exactly what I’m doing now in loving you and all God has Given to me... 

I LOVE ALL YOU four, just exactly the way you ARE🤣 which we can share and experience together. . . 

Like many of my posting here, Love and beauty will always BE true harmonic relationship together. . .  https://youtu.be/gbfWTlPt8mU

And these Challenges will come to us all, like when you were dropping out of USF to write music . . . No Arch Program means you never would have even met Claudia, but instead you got your only “D” and stayed in to the end

I’m trilled YOUR FAMILY helped you then. . . Like we are here again now trying to help you.

As weird as it might be, I’ve said this to my children hundreds of times. The wonder of meeting Chris for Pizza in the Andros Confeteria and his first random comment is “ I’m dropping out to write music” . . . And after not a single word for ten years, all I could do was say “WOW, that’s cool,” tell me about this. . . And we got into the deep discussion and experience of his trip to Europe with the Architecture Program. It was certainly a wonder to hear about this experience with Matthew and Linaea. Especially as it started in Ireland with Linaea driving a stick-shift out to a historic brewery to deliver an unknown package to a stranger; which resulted in an incredible meal and gift bags filled with liquors and chocolates.

There is a time and place for everything... and I love you and know where you are now, as you know I HAVE BEEN THERE, too!

Having the divine experience and responsibility to father, shepherd and guide anyway that I can. I’ve shared countless prayers, lessons, preachers, and podcasts from the great variety of places sharing the same fundamental truths of love and salvation. This has inspired loving responses from Half my children, while my son, the intended recipient, has since twisted and perverted my meaning into something else. I was thrilled with his first reply as posted here, asking where the “LOVE” is? As crazy as it seems, I even sent him a link I found on my server of my similar experiences I mentioned above. . . . Though like my comments below, he obviously doesn’t read of understand anything from me. . .  Of purse, now again I recall the Andros Cafeteria where he claimed he had read “ALL MY BLOGS” and wanted to know more about e=mc2. . . Affirming the reality of the presence of Jesus in US!

Making the Truth and Love in Christ Jesus is critical!  Like have you listened to any of these lessons, or witnessed how it changed my life?

Please, continue your search for Christ, instead of giving up on “who you already are.” You are Perfect now! 

Like your Challenge on Interstate 4 in Tampa. You slammed the steering wheel demanding your Purpose. 

And then another short phrase considered common-knowledge now. Where he was Baker-Acted to a hospital, while a drug induced accident would have been jail time instead. And the violent replies with all sorts of new perspectives on what these events were?  My own memory be dammed, as he’s never tried to correct me before, but suddenly I’m an old-senile fool and harassing him, instead of the loving father trying to review the experiences I’ve witnessed. So suddenly now he’s in complete control of his childish fantasies while these other times completely shifted the progress of his life. . . . And somehow my memory and description of what I heard and saw has been twisted to be events that I caused or influenced to bring changes in his life. Wow, retelling his experiences are now my fault? Or my works? Has the truth and love I see and share become so terrifying now that it needs to be twisted and perverted to mean something else.   

Immediately you found it, as seconds later you saved a girls life!!!!

Oh and adding this new insight, that came to me when I shared my challenges with my peers in the Exodus Fraternity. How it was clear to me Chris got what he wanted immediately, not only God’s protection through a crazy accident, but the humble and holy I’ve of the neighbor, or stranger in distress. . . Once again the immediate experiences being the holy communion and duties of Christ to “Love thy neighbor, as thyself” And I guess such a new realization that he actually got exactly what he was demanding might conflict with his personal fantasies that he is all alone and never benefitted from Christ, the Holy Ghost or God in anyway….Oh and he defines this as a “impulsive mistake made under-the-influence”  or a drug-induced blunder of no meaning or bearing. . . Again discounting one of many traumatic experiences of divine guidance which saved his ass to bring him forward for the Service and Glory of God in his destiny. . .  

Now: 

Living in fear & guilt creates your bondage, is never knowing real forgiveness and confession to heal


Walk in light of God, confess sins and accept blood of Christ  to release, remit, cancel debt of Sin to Share in God's Holy Pure Light...


Even Moses took off his shoes, releasing sin to accept the pure holy light you seek

John 1:9




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