102.2 SEEL: About coming into Eden

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Wow what a struggle today. I got outside this morning for the Sunrise, watered my plants and even cleared up a bit.Of course, everything else I tried to do has been a struggle. OH, EXCEPT WRITING HERE. Taking time to write about love and Jesus has been awesome joy and fun. The iPad and pen are a pain in the ass, but it is so wonderful to write in the moment when everything I see and feel is such a total blessing. I know that's why I need to write.

It's like considering the Hurricanes, I'm just immune to them. I never consider them an issue, but instead feel exempt. (Wow, check out the name on this one) Like something about them just doesn't apply to me. I guess, I've felt that about a lot of things. Not afraid of anything seems to come with that, or knowing that I always come out ahead. I joke about how crazy expenses show up only when I get a refund for something else, and it just has happened so much that I don't notice or worry anymore.

I guess that just happened yesterday with my hospital bills. And I certainly noticed and thanked Jesus immediately. I guess I am always thanking Jesus as it's just part of my daily experience. Like I think of going outside earlier and hearing the squirrels chirping at me. Yes of course I chirp back and revel in the fun conversation we have chirp, chirp, chirping. On yes so my next Bible verse is Genesis 1:26-2:9 Consider yourself as God's creation, as an incarnation, or image of God in a particular time, . . .   

So yea of course I am always protected and provided for, as I am the image of God, where all the Earth is at my feet that I may honor it all for the glory of God. I feel how that is what I have at hand now where all things honor God, and all my time and writing is to be and accept this moment with Jesus. And behold it is All - very GOOD!

Like with the Hurricanes I sometimes wonder about why this is so important. I know I have a very unique and keen ability to share and learn from my Angels. I talked about that some yesterday recognizing how it's on Guardian Angels that God has assigned to us for all our needs. And so I have been here so long with them that the experience and conversation is so very focused and contemplative. I never knew that word or what it was all about, until Mary spoke at my first class Saint Theresa's Nine Grades of prayer. Oh yes, I’m here about my latest class now that is SEEL:

Read Romans 8:18-25 (All creation is unfinished and yearns for fulfillment in God). Consider: What are the particular high-Lights or milestones of my life, including my life of faith? Note both the highs and the lows, the times of great hope and of challenge or "groaning.".

So what do I see as key high/lights or fulfillment, and my next step in experience and growth in this life of Faith. What more could I imagine as I love as I see so much already. Staying in the love and trust of Jesus is always the whole point and a major challenge for all us mortals, who choose to see with our own eyes and the cultural dynamics created by the propaganda of greed and selfishness. I guess, this is why I must write. Proud and boasting about beating the machine in my death bed, only to discover all is here waiting for us already, where we simply must choose to be the hands and heart of Jesus in each moment.

Yes, I learned that Stepping into Eden is really a choice! Where we choose to live as love and accept all things as gifts, everything can be perceived only as gifts and blessings from God. Yes asking for this Perspective of God and all knowledge opens up, while all fear falls away. Ok I confess I have always feared people reading this Journal as I'm very blunt and specific about many things that not many people will understand, or agree with. I recognize this might be why I'm all alone so much of the time. I have never been very interested in all that is useless in our culture. Then raised with narcissist and sarcastic bullies made me very defensive, and what, insecure maybe.

For it is right that we Praise the lord: I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to grow and achieve as only you can imagine. And I guess this again is about coming into Eden. And where is this, or how can I live and teach here or where it is that I need to be. My next Bible verse is Psalm 33, yes so I'm back into my threes again, isn't that ideal. Consider: What am I waiting for? How is my heart filled with gladness

I guess this is funny too because I’m always coming back to where I seem to be waiting for someone. I know it’s really just Jesus, and there’s no one else I need, and no one else I should wait for. Nor should I really be waiting for anyone. Because the "Word of the Lord is good,” and I see so much in this Goodness everywhere that speaks to me today, beyond another set of threes there are the waters that He sets into motion. The day after our election I read here about how blessed is the nation of the Lord. This really resonates so strongly for me as RFK jr. endorsed Trump and stepped down the day after my Welcome presentation: Mom’s Sermon; which was greatly repeated in his video.

Day six, Read Jeremiah 18:1-6 (We are like clay in the potter's hands). Consider: How do I find myself being shaped and molded by God now? How am I pliable or resistant? Wow, now strong and focused is this, where I just wrote about my Welcome Witness Presentation: Mom’s Sermon; that over took me. I straggled so much to get that done. After my own witness weekend where I cried through all my help letters hoping beyond hope, to find me from my son, but again and again I opened another from my fraternity brothers. And as I struggled through the last of the weekend I had thought my prodigal son story was that I needed to share only to find it was about those Fraternity Brothers and not about me. So it had to be my Mom's Sermon, which Fr. Kevin called any way.

Yes, so like Jeremiah, God has been busy reworking the lump of clay that I am. I guess this means my next Welcome Witnessing might be something totally different. And now as I consider this I realize how I've been slammed down on the wheel to be reworked hundreds of times. And now I recall how other brothers spoke about their transition in Christ. Over and over again men get lost in greed, alcohol, lust and all the other crap in our culture. And of course I went through all that too, returning as the prodigal after my motorcycle accident while in high school. And still I am getting slammed in bike accidents because I'm not listening to the details of each new task before me. This seems so for beyond understanding

Exodus reading this morning: The Book of Wisdom says, “God created man for incorruption . . . but through the devil’s envy death entered the world” (Wisdom 2:23–24).

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102.1 SEEL: Manna from Heaven today

 ok, lazy Sunday afternoon, and I stopped to write in my journal and I opened up my iPad and there’s a string of threes in front of me and it’s such a blessing to have the Trinity show-up right in my face. Jesus loves getting right in my face. Of course, he told me to go write. Open it up and there it is: 333 333 113 31 over and over again, it’s such a beautiful thing. I always feel such love and joy and happiness when I get that right in my face. I always love it when I do the silliest little things that seem so useless. It’s always about me following directions, it’s not about what’s useful and not useful. As if I could ever really know anyway.

I have been really out of it. I'm sore and tired. Alone and bored, feeling sorry for myself. It's funny how I blame my aches and pains for everything. Not doing anything and using that as an excuse. I have to do taxes and research and find files and write letters. I mean, Bonnie even got a thousand dollar invoice and I need to certify a request next. Oh, and the taxes are for my hospital bills.

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Uhg, I finally reported my bike accident to USAA last week. And now I found an email from them and also I found a hospital email to request financial help. When an opened the hospital up it had already been filled out and all the fees were written off. Oh, that's nice. So Jesus stepped in and fixed everything for me again. And I'm totally perplexed again, messing with this iPad. It keeps getting stuck on words I write. Now I can write again, but it will randomly gets locked holding onto something. Then I can’t move until I accept whatever change it wants, then hit “undo” and I can write again! Why does it hold the last word? Sent another apple beta feedback!

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 Yes Sunday, and I've been doing SEEL all week again. So now I need to put it all together. Last week I read everything before I started to blog so it was rushed. Starting earlier is important, as I can really get focused and specific to expand my relationship with You!. Thank you Dearest Love Lord Jesus Christ. To honor this time and priorities in this moment with You. Yes, we have the next Bible verse Psalm 8 Consider: Who has helped me get to this point in my faith journey? 

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. Oh this is interesting how much help I've recieved on my Faith Journey. All Saint Raphael’s Parish! As I've always written and spoken to Jesus about it. And I know Jesus and God are the “ALL IN ALL” wanting only our Joy and Love with Him. There are countless Saints and Angels who are with us all the time waiting for us to ask for something. Like my conversations recently about prayers for wisdom and guidance, it is really about our talking with our Guardian Angels. Asking is Loving the Father! And so I've remembered how it is really about learning how much God has done for us. And recognizing that he's done it ALL for us. Recognize the Beauty and Grace that abounds us and then also be humble and grateful for all he's given and shared with us so we can listen and praise him by sharing each moment with him.. . . . Asking and then honoring with praise and gratitude!

Of course, this first reading of Psalm 8 was on the morning after All Saints Day and the celebration Jim hosted for Kevin. I really did not want to go to church and was whining about pain and being sore. I realized how much l try to connect and always talk about getting more engaged and involved with this Catholic Community. Yes, so it was really important that I get out, so I had to go. And of course, I was really grateful that I did. Several other guys from the Men's Fraternity were there too . . . Including Joe, who asked the fraternity about getting a car for his daughter, after her’s was lost with the hurricane. . . lol, thought of Leslie’s son Elliot . . . 

The deepest blessing here is how I need to recognize how important it is to help others. And discovered I had never replied to Joe about a car and also building Gracie’s Farms as a casino. A second ball I dropped after our first Welcome Retreat when I had mentioned it to him. And this really means I must both listen and understand! Not just be polite and offer a connection, but then to follow up as well and make it real! I must respect where each individual is and share the spirit as I am seeing before me. Like when Jim’s sons came in to bring pizza for Kevin’s Celebration . . . The dog was so direct and focused with them, which come through to me so strongly that l said it was clear he had a good father, since his direction and love with the dog was equally as golden. lol, it’s so weird trying to remember the conversation that happened in the split second and I said something about college and he was doing biology thinking about a PhD. Tuesday at the Exodus meeting, John mentioned he was looking at a Phd at USF! He even had spoken to Dr. fountain about it. Ha, I remember now that Dr. fountain was on my PhD Committee. So then I sent something to John about Phd’s and connecting with professors with Google Scholar and I had to copy it to Kevin and Jim now because of sharing it there as well!

Wow, yes and I remember my note to John was how Professor John had hired me after realizing we were both on the same page, from different sides of the fence, him in the ivory tower of course and me in the dirt. Obviously, John and I had a great conversation and a half after Exodus. I remembered that Professor John had paid for my PhD Because he hired me to work for the Journal. And my first experience with the Journal was connected to GOD bringing mankind back to nature with Theocentrism Discussed in an American machine management journal! WOW!!Yes, Psalms Eight sharing how everything has been a gift from God and my choice is always to honor GOD, going out of my way to post this article link here now for you to enjoy another blessing!

Now the next verse is Psalm 104, Consider: Where do I see this awesome glory revealed in my life and the larger world? And in all truth, l see the glory of God all around me, in everything I see. I have chosen to see God‘s perspective on experiences rough and easy! His Love Is in this moment that I write on my iPad and this beauty of the night breeze blowing over me as I write. Again I see his love and glory everywhere and all around me. Like how Jim offered to go food shopping for me, and here alone at night l harvested purple sweet potatoes from my front yard, and made myself my steak dinner. I actually called Leslie to invite her over to share with me, since I know I made so much and she’s been struggling as much as I have!

 

 

Psalm 104 speaks again about the beauty and majesty of our world and experience that is shared bringing out the waters of life again and again. Where else would I be, of course it’s always about waters moving flowing and being so much more beyond the riches of the world. And it all makes me sing. And I am hungry to praise and glorify GOD.

Funny as I read and wrote here of waters. I remember Jim's house and listening to the conversations between the men. They were still speaking of the Floods and how devastating it has been and will continue to be. And I mentioned how many people have posted to LinkedIn about these floods and all the complaints and I couldn't help myself but comment on how it's all about man's greed and control. Fallow the money! We have a car that controls our culture and all the roads fill with water and all the floods come down the Roads. But we still build them and complain about the floods because we can't evolve beyond the car. Pathetic people all addicted to the car and control of a car not want to even try another way to move. Funny, I never mentioned how my post to Linkedin referred to the solution l dreamed up with my motorcycle accident. Yes, my old high school Dream Jesus gave me, that won the Disney awards, everyone tried to copy. But never asked me, so never were successful. Course I filed a patent on it in college too, and still no one noticed. . .