120.01 JESUS' PUBLIC MINISTRY

And another new lesson

WEEK OF PRAYER #20: JESUS' PUBLIC MINISTRY and WE CONTINUE TO PRAY THROUGH Jesus' public ministry. Keep your eyes and heart fixed on Jesus. Use your imagination to become part of these Gospel scenes. In a colloquy, speak with Jesus or another person in the scene.

And I guess what has become so clear and powerful for me now, is that I really don't need to go into my imagination at all. Especially for a Colloquy as these Saints and Angels have really been guiding me all the time already. I remember doing the Consecration to Mary, and recognizing her voice as the Spirit of Mother Nature that guided me through the woods for all of my youth. And I know I've always been here with these constant voices and the real experience of being guided all the time. It's kinda weird when I think about it, as it's really always been there.  Now more than ever, it's really about me coming to completely understand and accept this. And I feel this understanding was really only the easy part. The big challenge now is to actually accept what this really means. I mean if I can understand having a very clear and strong connection to Spirit, and even accept that I was born with it or grew into it naturally and spontaneously . . . . Much the same way as my daughter?!?!?!  Now the real challenge is accepting what this really means and how I can step more confidently into whatever Jesus has before me.

I guess what this really means is taking all that He’s placed before me a lot more seriously. And taking my time to focus and be clear and direct with everything that He places before me.

And again, you must stop and recognize you have exactly what you asked for. And again you must slow down and take each step slowly and carefully.

I guess, I know this already, but it's really about taking action now. I mean, no more talk, no more planning, no more dreams about “what if.” It will only get better and move forward, when I slow down and take each step very carefully and very seriously.

DAY 1, Read John 2:1-11. And what jumped out at me with this first verse was recognizing my same place again. Whatever Jesus says I must do . . . No questions, no hesitation, just do it . . . To manifest God’s Glory.

I guess, this should really be no surprise for me. Of course, my next lesson in church is about accepting and understanding how I must now step into this community more clearly and focused. I’ve always known I was sent here, and I always knew it was about teaching and leading. . . Course this just means, I’ve got more to learn!

I Love Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ 

Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to follow the will of God in all that I do. Slowly, carefully, clear, focused, dedicated ready for any thing, in your Grace and love, I can really just love you.

DAY 2, Read Mark 8:22-26 now again I’m stepping into my responsibilities to do the tasks before me. And I take a break from class work and fix my fence. Then I do more class work and break again to do Bible work. And I see this next verse before me and know this well too.

It’s always about stepping out more and doing more. I've got three classes to do, where they are all starting the same way with a little video introduction. And the idea of others "besought me!" I’ve really felt and understood this forever and this next step before me to allow more touch and more healing is really priceless. Yes, I confess it's really challenging and almost terrifying in some sense. Not that it isn’t anything new to me, It's just that I know my place and responsibility in being inside this time and place again now. And of course to take the blind man out of the city and see Trees, is my blessing each day with the prayerline, asking people to get outside and love nature and gardens, as the first experience when God placed us in Eden. Yes barefoot is best, nothing like God placing us naked in Eden!

DAY 3, Read Luke 17:11-19. Yes, Jesus is always disappointed with how Jewish people treat him. Course to this century the Jews still deny he was the Messiah at all. And they still consider themselves the people promised of the Covenant of God. Since they never honored Jesus and continue to be arrogant I really don't think they will survive. Like Hitler killed millions as did Covid and I'm sure millions more will go too. So what do I feel from this. Maybe that I too will not be accepted and understood by outsiders and never by my own community. I'm always seeing such strong lessons here to wonder if I should expect anything different. CLEARLY NOT! Nothing should surprise me as it's obvious all will be as God commands.

DAY 4, Repetition of one of the previous Scripture  wow, this week with Jesus has been really wonderful and to review and select new phrases will be interesting!  Yes the first verse was the strongest for me because the mass readings were in the same vein as well.

To follow Jesus to always be in the word of God is really about always accepting and carrying the cross.  We will always have a challenge and a new responsibility before us.  Always ready to accept and move forward can also be a major challenge. We are always given opportunities and the insight and direction to more forward through them.

 

Of course, the idea and experience of giving up everything for Jesus has been very present all my life as well. I guess more so walking into my next task and responsibility with little or no regard for what is left behind. I'm not always clear about that but accept and move on all the time.

DAY 5, Read Luke 10:38-42 (Martha and Mary). Martha is all distracted with all the home duties, while Mary is dedicated and focused on Jesus. Does this show me the two ways of life? Lost in the distractions and the issues of the world or staying focused on Jesus. This is clearly the place we all need to start. 

And this is where you come to grow and share more and more each day. This is your challenge stepping in more each day. And of course Apple has added new features to your iPad. It's such a pain to have your tools randomly change functionality with no warning or introduction. . . It is another distraction!

This is really kinda weird now, as I seem to move foreword a few steps and then I get stumped and perplexed by things again DAY 6, Read Mark 10:13-16 (Jesus and children): Mark 10:13-16, The Little Children and Jesus: 13People were bringing little children to Jesus for him to place his hands on them, but the disciples rebuked them. 14When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. 15Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.” 16And he took the children in his arms, placed his hands on them and blessed them.

Now you’ve been able to grow and share these passages before you. Everyone is learning and growing in the same Spirit, so you are all at different places along the same journey into heaven. Your place and responsibility is to be clear on the lessons you receive to share and support your peers and friends. These Lights that shine on each of you allow greater growth and understanding for all. And again now you see this focus and power that is real and valid before you. Each of you have these challenges. Each one of you have this learning and growth simultaneously. It’s important to remain focused knowing your own place and move carefully and slowly recognizing you have peers above and below who will all love and support your growth with their own listening and humility.

Now here again in the Day 6 SEEL readings is a greater challenge, recognizing how we must be as a little Child. Or really recognizing we are children, just learning and accepting our close intimacy with Christ. Christ is leading our Guardian Angels to bring us closer to God. To do God’s Will. As Jonah must follow God’s directions, for Jonah to go to Nineveh. Whether he likes it or not!

Again you are here writing about the real power in Christ, and the selfishness that interferes with distractions that you stumble on. Each day you are given great blessings and great responsibilities. Each person, each contact. Stopping this morning for Confession was critical for your growth with Jesus. And again you were in Tears, just to admit you had missed Mass yesterday for selfish reasons: 

God only wants the best for us, then why would any of us, under any circumstance, ever resist being committed to what God has called us to be or what God has called us to do? We ask that question “why,” and even while we ask it, all of us could probably point out at some time in our life, when knowing the purpose of God, knowing the plan of God for our life, we deliberately, willfully resisted God. Why would we do that?

Here again everything I hear and listen to, and experience is bringing me closer and stronger to God, and what I need to do and accept as my own responsibility. . . . Yesterday I couldn’t get out of bed. It was cold and wet and yucky out. My bed was warm and peaceful against my heating pad with the big pile of blankets and pillows. I was content to read the Bible and complete all the podcasts. I even did my exercises and prayers correctly naming all my family and brothers in my church and community which I now do regularly. 

But I refused to bike and go to mass. . . Knowing GOD had Called for this!

The whole day was wasted. I checked some schoolwork, and did some work I needed to do. I stepped outside a few times, but never did much out there that I needed to do. I even turned on the engineering models and read the manuals for them. But still never got much done all day. My personal selfish arrogance interfering with my tasks before me.

This morning biking to Mass . . . Oh and the Sunrise.  I realized that Jesus has asked me to be dedicated and focused on the STRAIGHT LINE dedicated to Thursday-Friday-Sunday Pobcast, Toke, Exercise, Bike, Sunrise, Mass, Bike, Mangroves and Swim!  Obedience is being very clear and focused on every detail of these requests from God. Which includes the Prayerline Wednesday, Friday and Sunday 4-5am . . . Each of these details are critical and necessary.  Partial obedience is DISOBEDIENCE . . . Improving on God’s Plan is Disobedience, selfish arrogantly shifting God’ plan into my Plan.

and yes you’ve been twisting things to suit your own preferences and desires. The Confession was beautiful. As you biked to mass pass the Father as he was walking up. You knew you had to do a confession. And you needed to confess the mistake you made the day before missing mass. He was happy to share the Sacrament with you, immediately suggesting you do so after he checks the morning readings and before the Mass.  You were in Tears during your confessions. And You knew in your heart you were distracted instead of dedicated. Here the lesson above has not even gotten cold yet, and you are already missing the whole point. 

Wow, did I really need a confession. As I was biking in this morning to Mass I had the very distinct feeling I was really doing the Love and Joy that Jesus and God wanted to see everywhere. I mean, I felt so blessed into tears as I started to Sing “Hello from my Heart” to the squirrels and trees around me as I biked in knowing that I needed to say this to everyone else I met. I’m usually very clear with “Good Morning” or “hello” but I know that I nee to get more into this stronger vibration and share this Love and Joy that Jesus seeks from everyone. 

DAY 7 Savor the graces of the week. Review your journal or return to one of the Scripture passages here.

Steady we go as it’s all exactly the way we planned. It will happen like that more and more as we go. This is why you’ve been working so hard. Because it’s all coming together in your hands. Now you have to produce. Every day you have gotta get one of those tasks done. Your whole life has prepared you for this and you’ve always known you would be here sooner or later. It’s really beyond any fantasy you ever had. The home is double. The Gardens are extensive. The space and technology at your fingers is so much more than you ever thought even possible. And again all the resources and tools are easily within reach and none are too difficult or beyond your abilities. Yes things grow and shift daily, but as you are discovering all are more in tune with your needs and requirements than ever before.

I get it. I’m here now at this time and place, to do things that no one else has ever considered, as it’s really only my personal experience creating the Love and Peace that I perceive is ideal for Jesus and God . . . .

and you know it’s your own creations, your own perception and your own perspective of the IDEAL Love and Experience that you can share with ALL!

The four types of calls that God issues to His people: salvation, sanctification, service, and accountability here again I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to bring me closer to You and DOING Your WILL for the Glory of God! Amen.

119.02 recognizing the ease and beauty of living In Love with Jesus Christ

Still more to do here, as I see now the previous repeat needed to include a Colloquy, which really has come to mean, including Saint Mary and Saint Joseph . . . Strict Orders not to let anyone know about this. Is where I’m at and know how the Saints will help!

Day 5 now. . . And I find words highlighted here that support the last WORD I focused on with Strict attention to the tasks before me.

Again the duty before you is very simple and direct. Each piece is already in place and you’ve already seen pieces and places lining up for your immediate action. Note the first Humility addresses “excessive caution” in actions. 

That’s interesting as I’m usually in trouble for saying too much, and stepping beyond normal means and actions. But I can see how I limit myself, especially as I know I can’t speak so much of these things I must simply do. Limiting my forward action and momentum is really a mistake. 

Again, this time you have a lot more support and direction in all that you are doing. These issues you will confront will become very strong and focused as the systems you confront are very opposed to change and growth. Fundamentals will be broken down and resolved. Do not hesitate to act and step forward strongly.

I see this Keeps me in tune with the Second more perfect Humility, which is to follow Gods directions with balance between our own desires for the freedom and indifference of stepping into all God places before us. I guess this is rather easy for me, as my deepest desires are being expressed and fulfilled in exactly what God wants. Thus the balance is really about staying focused and diligent with all that opens before me. Knowing full well I will continue to progress with focus and power exactly into this Third Humility discussed above as I hold onto my desire to Imitate Christ more closely in fulfilling my Foundational Why statement: To Thank and Praise Jesus Christ as I AM Living His Heart, Hands and Feet to manifest the WILL of God NOW!

Again now you are experiencing the useless Fool for Christ, simply DOING and BEING free and full in His Will with your heart full passion and desires to uphold and surpass all limitations as the Holy Spirit leads you more and more.

Yes I know. Each day I spend like this, focused into your spirit and more to do and share in deeper and deeper passions and focus. . .its always such a clear and powerful blessing for me to spend a day writing and reading my next lesson and steps in growth and passion. 

Again your dedication and focus into the work ahead of you is very clear and obvious.You have been united in the work of Christ for years, and now more than ever will be stepping into a greater places of focus and power as you Wholeheartedly Love the experience and ways of Christ before you. 

Ye sand the Day 6 Readings Mark 12:28-34 bring me further and deeper into this work before me. Jesus articulating the Great Commandments to love God with Full Heart, Mind, Soul and Strength and then to love your neighbor as yourself.

Again you need to PRAY for the Grace to Love in this way!

I’m so grateful to know this with you. Yes, I’m blessed and filled with the love and desire to step more fully into all that this means for me. And again in Day 7, to repeat the Joy and Love of Day 6.

Again how do you resist this?

me? I don’t resist any of it, but fully step into it. . . The greatest blessing of all life is accepting and recognizing the ease and beauty of living In Love with Jesus Christ . . . 

Day 5

119.01. Savoring the REAL AND VITAL power finding in each word

New week in SEEL Week 19,

is about building a stronger relationship with God directly. Making the commitment to become His Son like Jesus Christ. As God made us in His Image and Likeness.

Wow, I say this every day that I am on the Prayerline: “remember we are MADE in the Image of God” and Jesus Came back to us to teach us the Power of The Word: HIS NAME, which we can use in our prayers to bring His Focus and Power into our experiences. 

Yes every day I say this, and often I teach about Renouncing and Commanding in the Name of Jesus Christ as well, and then even for people to step outside into the Garden, and imagine the Flux lines of Magnetism if they are ready to understand the deeper physics of it all.  Exactly like this first page states, where we get into the Flow, a spiral Flow of Spirit, to return to the same places over and over again until we learn and grow to get it right. And so this first page speaks about appreciating this Mission I’m on simply to Praise, Love and Serve God more deeply... so I’m really SAVORING this More deeply everyday. Since I’m truly blessed to experience and share this more  as I see my prayers in my life coming out before my eyes again and again. .  . . 

It's really been sorta remarkable for me to see and experience all that is before me. And I Humbly Accept all that Jesus brings before me. Savoring this experience to step into more and accept more of this great way of Loving and Becoming the Heart, Hands and Feet of Jesus to manifest all that God could Imagine.

Now to as i start this next week in SEEL I pray and ASK for the Grace to KNOW JESUS more intimate and intense to follow more closely, almost seems selfish as I know I have Him with me all the time.  Asking for more is really a challenge. I always feel like I have too much already, and daily go outside to sort and clean up whatever I can, bringing coherence and cleansing to my property. 

Day 1, Luke 19:1-10 and Jesus receives and loves all, for he came to seek and save the lost. I wasn’t sure what this meant for me. But then realized my new foundational statement to Thank and Praise Jesus AS HIS Heart, Hands and Feet Manifesting God’s Work. Exodus90: Joseph’s own resistance to temptation showed that he would rather die than commit sin. He is a model for following the Lord no matter the difficulties as a way of coming to the perfection of life and happiness in him.

And now again, I Realize how each PrayerLine call is about leading another lost soul into the Love and Bliss of Christ. So I guess this work of God is really what I’m doing anyway.  And it’s kinda funny, as I’m usually careful to only offer insight and directions for more, when someone asks for it, or gives me the opportunity to bring them into another place of growing and learning. Now Day 2, Luke 7:1-10 where Jesus cares for all who come to him. This piece with the Centurion is always so beautiful and powerful for me. Again it is one of the scenes in The Chosen that brings me to Tears.

Ok, this is cool. Day 3 Mark 5:21-43 is the next passage I’ve got to review. And I literally just watched this scene in the Chosen with my dinner. I stopped it at the scene at the end of the episode where they are all going swimming. Of course, I cried through several pieces of this. And to now read it from the Bible after hearing it in the episode, is just wonderful. So who do I identify with? I guess with the lady who was bleeding. I’ve always been the outcast, the one who is left out and avoided by everyone. That’s just always been my place, never believed or understood. Lol, funny how I always SEE that, for myself, hiding in the sidelines.

Now again reading this over for Day 4 Repeat … which brings me to this same verse from Day 3 again. As I read this, I find my need to step into what I know and need to do, and stopped again to watch it reading this over before our meeting. All these highlights to this bible verse image at right, evolved from this Day 4 Repeat alone. I’ve felt this before how I needed to step more deeply into the power that Jesus Has for me. And it’s really weird as I know my power is always pushing the limits of everything around me and in my life and culture.

Doing these things that God needs you to do, will become more clear and direct every moment. As you continue to see and listen even now. God has given, you the life you asked for and provided all you could possible need, whenever you get focused on God’s Work. It is only to do the Will of God, with all the power of God to just Believe with no fear as you come back again to this same place, posting prayer links above as you are Savoring the REAL AND VITAL power and focus you are finding in each word you type . . . . And you really feel and realize the focus and clarity in your power and you are ready to step into it all carefully and slowly.

Yes beating this dying culture of greed and control . . . And I’m not afraid and believe I can easily step into every challenge before me

Yes, fearlessly edit and post each little piece you see and experience here before you.  This will be getting more focused and more intense than ever. And you always knew this was coming. You are very familiar with all these moves and steps before you.

I guess so, and I recognize it’s really about my own personal place of power and clarity. Each day I step into more, but equally accept the actions required and allow this to grow with You in ease and comfort. . . 

fearless son there is a lot here, and each day it will be getting more complicated and more detailed. This is the life you created, and the same you prepared for. You asked to teach and lead everyone back to the gardens. And we anticipate a bountiful harvest.

Creating a new sustainable culture of health and prosperity is really what all my courses are really about. The Sustainable Environment and Sustainable Energy give you the tools you need and then the Sustainable Entrepreneurship takes these tools to another level.

fear not about the times for prayers and work. As you found today, we will always make time and guide you carefully in each step before you. As with the 68 course you completed last week. Trust what’s before you, and stay clear about these priorities, avoiding the distractions, but diligent on the tasks. Sixteen is not a bad number, 12 was a bit too much.  You need to be realistic about all this work ahead of you.

Yes Dear Jesus, Thanks You! Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to fulfill God’s WILL for the glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost! Amen.

118.01 according to what God our Lord will move one's will to choose

It’s not what you do, it’s what you are.

Starting with Charles Stanley again, I realize I am always doing Lectio Divina with everything I see, hear or read. I really can find and see Jesus in everything. I mean, consider for a moment, if you were God and created something to share and grow into yourself, wouldn’t you be sure that everything would reflect you and bring you back to you . . . Yes the default Purpose from the very Start!

Yes, it's really obvious that all Creation will reflect the Creator. The challenge then becomes seeing and understanding where the lessons are and then learning and growing from each lesson. Yes so everything in creation will teach and lead us when we learn and read that God’s Lessons abound in ALL!

Yes, I read all this next SEEL Week 18 before I started writing. As usual the podcast I had going already had the same message for us now. Choosing to BE of Jesus is not about doing anything, rather to BE in alignment with fulfilling God’s Glory in the service of others is the perspective in ALL.

I guess what is really remarkable to me is in making the choice and commitment to be in love and in Jesus really shifts everything else to another level… I see this as the real choice of discipleship, where suddenly everything shifts WITHIN us!

TO LIVE wholeheartedly God's call and choose whatever leads to God's greater glory and the service of others.

And the best part beyond seeing him everywhere, is really the fact that I can share so easily and have that real experience of being joy and peace all the time. I don’t notice or worry about anything, it seems. Yes, I certainly have concerns and challenges all time, but I trust and accept it all as it comes.  It’s kinda interesting how I allow and step into what is very easy directly in front of me in each moment. I try not to question, and really allow and trust. It’s about letting the Holy Spirit lead, and staying in this instead of getting caught in any of  the emotional reactions.

I say it’s the easiest but recognize that not everyone will find “Allowing Spirit” easy. Like my constant conversations with my guardian angels. Sure I speak to God and Jesus, but that’s really because the Angels work as the microphone or speakers always directly connected. It’s almost like the Holy Spirit is the wire connecting everything, or the electricity in there, where Jesus is the wire. . . Lol. Or Jesus is the vine, and we are the branches bringing the fruits of the Holy Spirit to all others.

Day 1 John 21:15-19. And I see in this passage that each time Jesus Called to Peter it seems to get more intense. . . feed lambs, care for sheep, feed sheep. The freedom is in stepping into what Jesus Asks, and to respond to His Invitation is really about "fearlessly" movingn deeper and deeper. 

I mean, feeding lambs, is like caring for the babies, and then caring for all the sheep community, and to get to feeding the sheep, feels more like sharing the Word or the Food from God. So it feels like stepping from something physical and simple, to something a lot deeper and meaningful to the whole community.

My own invitation as described is clearly my own experience now.  I have been led more strongly all the time learning and growing from one step to the next, as each time the invitation is more extreme and the cost and responsibility is equally larger and more extreme. 

Day 2: begins with defining three classes of person and their attitude to possessions.  How have you resembled the three persons: the procrastinator, the compromiser, and the truly free person?

It seems like I’ve experienced them all.  I’ve been the procrastinator on getting possessions, maintaining these gifts, and removing, distributing, or sharing them. I recall last month asking Larry to help me clean out the metal scraps in my yard. The home insurance company had pictures complaining of my collection of “junk”. We filled my truck and I sold it a the scrap yard for a hundred, that set me over the monthly trustee payment. I even had $20 left to fill my growler of beer.

Course this month I found another house coming down on Snell Island and got permission to take all the paver bricks. The last time I did that I got nearly two yards of the standard Belgrade gray rectangle bricks and some classic red clay bricks. I’ve set a pad outside my truck door where I park in front of my house and then set a walk into the left side of the house where I had to fix the fence anyway.  I’ve got all the pieces for the fence from another demolition site, but still need to glue them together and set the hinges in place.  This week I picked up another two yards of Keystone pavers which I’ve set in place between my container and garage.  Yes essentially thousands of dollars of stone added to my property here.

I’m still not paying the regular mortgage, only paying the bankruptcy trustee. The Airbnb case was settled, where they decided to pay me $20,000 to close it. I told the attorney that wouldn’t cover his expenses, and he said he would take the 33% and be done. I’m not sure if the bankruptcy will take the rest or if I could get any of it at all. But I really don’t care, saying the attorneys could take it all for their fees.

So I procrastinate on getting things done with the possessions I’m given. The steal scrap was really all sorts I thought I could build something with. I had procrastinated too long with that, so it all went to scrap. While the stone paver bricks are getting put into place, more just to empty my truck. And in fact the city code enforcement and the insurance renewals pushed me to remove the piles of stone I’d collected. . . One again procrastinating about getting this done.

Of course, I’ve compromised now, as I’ve only got to prepare new courses for January, and promised to spend an hour or two outside a few times a day. Yes, I read and study the Bible in the mornings, like doing SEEL now after Mass. Then do school work and such until my head spins and then I get outside. I feel like I compromised on getting some regular work routines in place. My times at church have shifted a bit. But I feel confident and secure in making a new routine.

Which really brings me to the Truly Free Person where I simply accept what God gives to me. New classes, new resources and possessions and new opportunities to share, teach, learn and grow.  I really feel so blessed now, more than ever in having so much freedom and resources beyond my dreams. I mean the bricks and layout around my home gets better and better everyday. Its clear to me that I will stay in this home, as the resources and possessions to support continue to show up all the time.

I won’t say I’m “indifferent” to these possessions and responsibilities as I know each day I’m given more and more. It’s more important than ever to recognize my place and what is best for me to move forward. . . As keep it or reject it solely according to what God our Lord will move one's will to choose, and also according to what the person himself or herself will judge to be better for the service and praise of the Divine Majesty. . . Which seems to come and go with the wind, so I’m very patient to move slowly in consideration of all that’s before me. . .She is open to how God directs her through her prayer, her experience, her reasoning through different options, her discernment of consolations and desolations, and the wise counsel of others.

Wow, I feel so blessed again, read SEEL and knowing how it really describes my immediate experiences. . . Staying in my place, doing whatever God asks and opens up for me. It’s always a blessing, and always filled with the Fruit of the Spirit. Yes, it seems no matter what happens, I’m always in Joy and Peace, loving my moment and all the opportunities that come before me. Again and again!

Day 3: Mark 10:17-31 And as I read this verse what jumped out at me was only two small phrases; “all things are possible with God” and “receive a hundred times as much“ . . . As I know all things are possible, just as I know I continue to receive so much. Like I’ve been totally perplexed by my experience in this new home. Not only was the furniture left for me exactly what I needed and completely complimented everything that I had. But to find so much art and trinkets from my childhood and so many things that I never knew I had. 

I know all things are possible, but the symbols and collections of possessions that I’ve found are simply remarkable.  I mean, not really things of value, but things of meaning. Like the Hurricane cleanup I did this last month to renew my homeowners insurance policy. Sure I cleared out a lot of junk, but then stashed and stored countless others where I could be spending years cleaning out and sorting my garage and container. Now I can barely even get inside either of them. But what was important was cleaning the space outside to get good photographs to renew my insurance policy.

All of this seems like “disordered attachments,” but clearly I’ve been gifted 100x anything that I’ve lost! And continue to be gift 100s and 1000s over and over again.

I’m sorta perplexed sometimes, like I felt so lucky and gifted to be in this house and then tried to share it with AirBnB and then also share the space for church events. I never really had much luck with either option. So now I grow and prepare food here to share. Not sure how well that works, but also see how I’m coming to teach again and feel that might be my best option. Essentially putting me back into the place where I started. Seems like nothing has gotten in my way to serve Jesus! 

Day 4: Mark 12:41-44 speaks about a poor widow. I’ve never been one to give much cash at church. I know I seem to get just enough to survive most of the time, and never seem to have very much extra. So I’ve always felt blessed, by Jesus giving me enough to survive. However, I’ve always been able to share all my time and talents.

I’ve always found the time and opportunity to share all I know and have with the church, parish, community and my God. I really never hesitate to step up into things to help and love others. Day 5 is about repeating something above. 

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117.04 Really means that WE are side-by-side.

117.04 Day 4: Matthew 4:23-5:12. The beatitudes express the standard of Christ. Imagine that you are present in the crowd or with the disciples, watching and listening to Jesus. Allow his manner and words to affect you.

8:03 11/30/25

Thank you so much, dear Jesus Christ, I appreciate all her guidance and direction in your spirit.

Do not change anything else in that page. It’s all exactly the way it needs to be. Sitting in the bright sunlight feeling and understanding the universe. Everybody’s coming together and it’s all gonna work just the way you want it.

Again, and again, this experience gets stronger and stronger for all of us. Thousand million billion different worlds are spinning together in the same love and light that created everything. Understanding and sharing is so critical. So if you have the ability to follow the details please share with everybody you know!!! 

Yes, the old tactic of burying you in bullshit, so you can’t tell which end is up. Works every time. . . . And now again you are ready for a whole new life and a whole new World. Are you going to do the same thing all over again or are you finally ready to do only love? 

It's really very easy for you..... This is what you have worked for all of your life. Each experience was another step closer to this. Even all your miss-steps only made you more prepared and more knowledged ready for those dynamics that only you can understand and step through.

Now again, I have to really just laugh at my really incredible experiences.... I really walk into the completely fantastic visions of Joy and Peace.

Yes Day 4: Matthew 4:23-5:12. The beatitudes express the standard of Christ. Imagine that you are present in the crowd or with the disciples, watching and listening to Jesus. Allow his manner and words to affect you.

It’s really such a wonder to consider listening to this preaching from Jesus as it was so very clear and powerful. And as I consider being there to hear it for the very first time, it really is such a joy. I feel like he’s specifically reaching out to all the people who are repressed, and who wholesomely reach out to any truth or love. So many people who really try to express the holy aspects of life get repressed and attacked by this culture of greed and control. 

Do not struggle with this, you have been on all sides at one time or another. And you joke about it, but that experience is very real for you. You even could understand why one day it was all white, and the very next was all black. It’s given you a very deep perspective and understanding into this stance of power that you are seeing now before you. . .  

Yes, Your Spirit has been so powerful in my life. I really never realized that I’m always very clear and focused on You. . . And I certainly realize how much I’ve been blessed. I really only have stories about being blessed. Like I’ve told the story of meeting Kathy twice this week. And it was incredible to date a Hawaiian bikini model who just had the hots for me. And of course, I never tell that story to anyone, but today was Father Kevin’s Celebration of Life Mass at our church, and one of the ladies in the church bought a few hundred roses to pass-out to all the guests . . . “Oh I bought roses for my girlfriend 3-4 times a week.” Wow, I was surprised, but I shared the full story as I placed arranged roses in the narthex with Carrol.

Oh and I got to hug Mary again, specifically for healing. And I know I need to “SAY THAT” to her and get very serious about it, “in the name of Jesus Christ.” And now I’m sitting for a beer and am relaxing at Three Daughters Brewery. The CFO’s wife is playing bar tender here chatting with me. She said she was inbetween jobs and not sure what to do next. I asked her to do my marketing for me creating the click-bait ads for an income from the readers. I gave her the website and wrote it on a napkin where I told her she could keep 50% of any income she brings to STARS 501c3 and signed it. 

Of course, I know the owner here is on the city council and that my City leader told me to speak to a City Council member about making real Urban Agriculture regulations. . . Maybe it’s time for me to do this too. Everything happens exactly as it needs to.

You have been Doing so much and finally feel relaxed enough to breathe. It’s not always easy for you, and you constantly find more to do. Which is really why you get so much help. You were asking and asking for Saint Joseph yesterday over and over, and there he was by your side. . . .quiet, patient, lifting and moving you forward, as Saint Mary reminded you of each new piece you could complete. Somehow you knew everything would be set and done. And it was. . . Now get busy with the SEEL WORK!

Yes guided in Spirit. . . I had to go back to the DAY 4 beatitudes, since I hadn’t marked anything that jumped out at me. . . And sitting with Jesus, I could really FEEL BEING in the Kingdom of Heaven, comforted as I inherit this beautiful piece of Earth, and Filled with His Mercy to SEE GOD everywhere. . . 

lol,yes I rejoice and am glad to have this time and experience with Jesus. And as I consider this again now I realize how I’ve accepted the ever-present love and truth of Jesus. It’s really just part of my day and my experience . . 

lol, and as I cleaned up the last bit outside, which was really just burning up all the brush I had piled next to my fireplace.

Larry’s children came out to watch and help. So rejoice and Be Glad to share this wonderful Kingdom of Heaven on Earth was to watch over and  include them for a while too . . .  Which easily flows into the very next reading . . . DAY 5: Luke 18:18-30. As yes I’m always following God, as best as I can, as I know all things are possible with HIM. And to make things work and step into my next place in life is so important as I continue to receive so much all the time. . . 

Do you feel ready?

My spirit is tired. I've been busy trying to catch up on things. All my cleaning up outside was all about my homeowners insurance policy. Course I have no idea if I get to stay a homeowner or not. Yes, I'm sure I'm not going anywhere. Getting ready to teach again, and still need to get clarity on my life and all. Or really just accept and stay with all this I already know.

DAY 6: Matthew 11:28-30

I know this spirit, and recognize how I’ve accepted this place with Jesus where the yoke: a wooden crosspiece that is fastened over the necks of two animals and attached to the plow or cart that they are to pull.. . . Really means that Jesus and I are side-by-side. 

Do not be surprised by this. You have always been there. It's really almost common sense to you now, as you have witnessed and recognized so much more about your grace and experience. This will evolve and grow as you go along. 

 DAY 7: Savor the Graces of Spirit. To understand the power of deceptions vs. The Love of Jesus Christ!

117.03 God’s Love and Mercy to all People

117.03 SEEL - Day #2. To liberate people to love and serve GOD and others!

This is where I come in. I'm not really sure why this week started with all the desolation stuff. I've noticed how I really do not take death seriously either. I know how evil and death are really about being separated from Jesus and God. So these aspects are simply not my experience or not real for me. .

I guess I am familiar with each, and seemingly understand them at a different level. Or I guess I simply understand them as separate from the truth and love of God. So now in this lesson to consider an imagine of thine beauty God and all creation, is really easy for me.

Now again doing the Prayerline, and this call interrupts my sentence, only to be a dropped line. Yes, Jesus Likes my focus on just Him. Hoe The Lord chooses me to step into doing more. And I stop to ACT, but then stop to Pray . . . Dear Jesus How best may I act to honor and glorify GOD!

How best can I spread God’s Love and Mercy to all People

Page 172 speaking more of understanding how we each have  skills to serve . . . And it’s Thanksgiving where I’m cooking and preparing food to share . . . . no sure if it’s all comfort foods, or acceptable to everyone. Nor have I invited anyone focused and clear.

It’s how I’m killing myself and everyone around me…. Self-saboteur . . . So worried about my to-do lists.s.s.s, as a crisis creator, or a whiner, or critic, always complaining. . . Yes Family Focus comes in where the deal-breaker shows up, same patterns showing up, where I never show-up.  Someone who is always disrespectful. . . Patterns of abuse, emotional and racial slurs are not acceptable. . .

Wow, I guess I know why I’ve been alone! Knowing all that God has done revealing this to me. Caring Christian Counseling Team. . .”overwhelmed” book now 800-232-6459 800-afamily. . . With Focus On Family, theJoyFM.

Knowing the opposition to riches, honor, and pride, while simultaneously living at odds with each. I've seemingly always had riches, though I've never been in need of anything or seemingly always have been printed for. Though never in excess. But I wonder about honor or pride sometimes as a seem to seek or gloat over any recognition for services I do . . . 

Maybe even seeking recognition in doing some services. . . I guess this brings me to explore Day 3 Consider: How do I experience the two standards playing out in my life or in the world around me? This Brings me back to my main point here, the desolation standard is essentially avoided completely, while the consolation blessings of Christ Jesus are the status quo I seek to share and become more clearly every day.

What role do riches and honors play in my life? I just noted how riches are irrelevant, where I always have all I need and rarely seem very concerned about them. What enslaves me? Is a challenging question. I seem to always be “seeking,” really almost anxious to understand more deeply. Like the Overwhelmed book discussed earlier, they were speaking of the holidays, describing my own scenario with patterns of abuse or neglect, where it was clear I did not belong. I’ve only recently realized the truth coming from “racial slurs,” making me the outcast, irregardless to anything I might do. And sadly I recall my brothers and sister habitually taking money from my mom’s purse. Course, she would always have hundreds in small bills, and intentionally leave her purse lying around. So the arrogance and pride in the riches was obvious in everyone there . . . . Course I prided myself in always having cash myself, though i know many times it was from buying or selling something illegal!

Where is the invitation to greater freedom in my life? Now brings me to a serious Conclusion where I need to engage a triple colloquy prayer, which underscores how serious and sometimes difficult it is to step more strongly into the grace we ask for as a gift to have Love and Mercy for all People . . . Hum, invite Mary to lead me to Jesus and then to God …. In conversation . . . lol, feels like it’s time for my new “Why Statement”

Why I give thanks and praise to Jesus Christ as the HEART, Hands and Feet of God!!!

117.02 glory of God is a human person fully alive

Reflecting God the Father's power at work in the world is giving glory to God, for God's glory is precisely his infinite wisdom and power made manifest in concrete worldly events. This is the service that we are called to give to God: to make manifest the work that the Father is doing in the created world.

We pray to make manifest in life all that GOD.. could want or imagine. What a wonderful goal and purpose in life. To actively seek to bring into our immediate experience more love and joy that only Jesus could understand and share with us.

This book by Joseph mentioned here is wonderful: Here is the Christian's deepest identity: we are to BE reflections, however fitful and fragmentary, of God's work as He evolves all things under Christ the Head. This is why, in the familiar words, the glory of God is a human person fully alive.

Doing what God wants done, in the name of Jesus Christ, for all the world to see . . . . Like reminding Mary and Wanda what it means to be truly alive and connected to God's love and Spirit we find all around us. . . . Wow: Acknowledgment, approval, and then thanks: the holy way of the creature in the Creator's hands.

Now more focused on SEEL Week #17: the two standards. . . And as strange as it may sound, the last page I wrote was detailing the experience of beating satan in one moment and then healing and loving someone in the very next.

My work today, and always never really accept or acknowledges satan. I know his works and desires, equally recognizing how desperate he tries to interfere with me and distract me from all that god brings to me.  But satan is NOT LOVE, so really is Not anything, not life, not God, Not worth my time, thought, effort, nothing!

I am generous with my wealth, giving time, talents and treasures to friends, neighbors and complete strangers as I am able. My wealth and possessions really are used to inspire and support this ministry and education that I provide to my neighbors. . . I Find what I have defines how I can share and serve others. 

I had to fix my pump so I could water and expand my gardens. I have to redo everything for the city code enforcement board meeting next month where I’m listed for Urban Agriculture violations again. And then I also need to fix my fence and get everything cleaned up for the homeowners insurance company that has pictures of the hurricane damage I’ve not fixed yet.

The high-point was when could get the broken nipple out of the pump. I asked Steve Nextdoor if he had any ideas and he came over and helped me get it out. It was so great to get the love and support from my neighbor with a random weekend challenge. I gave them a much of the purple sweet potatoes I’ve found around. The next day and this morning again the water was running over everything again! YEAY!!!

I’m really not one to imagine satan in anything. But instead ask Saint Joseph to guide me outside. I never put anything towards satan to even acknowledge the challenges that he might bring me, and I refuse to even capitalize his name, which this app tries to do every time I type it.

Yes I know who satan is, and have confronted and dealt with him forever. It’s kinda sad too, as I realized how he still tries to get pretty women in front of me to distract me and pull me away from all that I know and do.

Similarly in Mass today: JESUS delivered us from the power of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins (2nd reading today Colossians 1:13)

That’s where I belong, so to imagine the opposite even as an exercise is creating a crack in the doorway to allow something I consider useless and wasteful. Recognizing what is really means that it’s nothing at all. There is only Love and there is Only Jesus, all these rest is really where Jesus is not. Thus, equally I stay in Jesus and Love and have made such a effort there to step away is not possible.

And I guess the confrontation is as close as I get. And I realized I could perceive and understand the evil, the not Jesus, the not. . . Which I perceived in detail. . . Yes almost at the end of this post where the paragraph starts: “As crazy as it might be“

And still this section in SEEL wants us to recognize and acknowledge evil!?! Just not my cup of tea, the very last line speaks of imagining something in the current times, while the fight is ongoing so adding any word or comment is counterproductive.

Yes that previous link shares the experiences I see. . And it’s interesting to see deeper into those circumstances.  I mean, that one experience carried over for weeks, as I know what it means to allow evil to impact children. 

As crazy as it seems, I still never have helped my own children resolve their own similar encounters.  Emily said I was right on target the first time we met in Starbucks 12/24/20– ?? I think it was 2010? Since she left at age ten, 2000, and was gone for ten years.

Funny when I met her husband the first time, he admitted he was in Starbucks too. And then also stated he knew about her step-dad and would keep her safe away from him. Course they got the guy some drugs toe keep him stable, but the crazy perversion with children is still there. 

Oh wow, I realize now as I write, that I saw her step-dad at my son’s wedding last month. Only one picture, and that was enough. It was clean the villain was there hiding in the eyes. . . Eeeek, it’s weird how I can see it from one picture.  Or I guess one clean shot of someone’s eyes. . . Like I witnessed at the exodus meeting.

What do these words mean for me now?

What you are recognizing is how much your own family might be destined to address these issues a lot deeper than you know. You have seen the porn in your city and neighborhoods. You have witnessed and participated before. And you know this poison is more intense in the Bay Area.

I get it. . . Like the Word experience. With all the technology that is here beyond and above anything we can find anywhere else.

What you know deep inside is going to kill them.

I got this Word before. . . I mean, I’ve always said satan was dead to me already.  But clearly I know and find him very easily and often in places that I wouldn’t look or consider.

We still protect you. That image of Saint Michael spinning His Sward and Shield around you is still very clear and present in your consciousness.  you’ve seen trees trimmed and doors opened, teasing everyone about how you could walk through walls. . . And then at the Vinoy seeing how real that was still in your experiences. 

I get it, Your Word is still very powerful and PRESENT all around me. . . Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ . . .

What about this definition you found using the last words before Day 2?

As far as I’m concerned I never allow affective and emotional reactions are essentially the same thing: a person's immediate, visceral response to a stimulus, involving feelings, physiological changes, and behavioral expressions like facial expressions and actions.  lol, ok that’s not right, I always respond and always avoid evil. I’m just very familiar with satanic games and stay away and don’t play!