118.01 according to what God our Lord will move one's will to choose

It’s not what you do, it’s what you are.

Starting with Charles Stanley again, I realize I am always doing Lectio Divina with everything I see, hear or read. I really can find and see Jesus in everything. I mean, consider for a moment, if you were God and created something to share and grow into yourself, wouldn’t you be sure that everything would reflect you and bring you back to you . . . Yes the default Purpose from the very Start!

Yes, it's really obvious that all Creation will reflect the Creator. The challenge then becomes seeing and understanding where the lessons are and then learning and growing from each lesson. Yes so everything in creation will teach and lead us when we learn and read that God’s Lessons abound in ALL!

Yes, I read all this next SEEL Week 18 before I started writing. As usual the podcast I had going already had the same message for us now. Choosing to BE of Jesus is not about doing anything, rather to BE in alignment with fulfilling God’s Glory in the service of others is the perspective in ALL.

I guess what is really remarkable to me is in making the choice and commitment to be in love and in Jesus really shifts everything else to another level… I see this as the real choice of discipleship, where suddenly everything shifts WITHIN us!

TO LIVE wholeheartedly God's call and choose whatever leads to God's greater glory and the service of others.

And the best part beyond seeing him everywhere, is really the fact that I can share so easily and have that real experience of being joy and peace all the time. I don’t notice or worry about anything, it seems. Yes, I certainly have concerns and challenges all time, but I trust and accept it all as it comes.  It’s kinda interesting how I allow and step into what is very easy directly in front of me in each moment. I try not to question, and really allow and trust. It’s about letting the Holy Spirit lead, and staying in this instead of getting caught in any of  the emotional reactions.

I say it’s the easiest but recognize that not everyone will find “Allowing Spirit” easy. Like my constant conversations with my guardian angels. Sure I speak to God and Jesus, but that’s really because the Angels work as the microphone or speakers always directly connected. It’s almost like the Holy Spirit is the wire connecting everything, or the electricity in there, where Jesus is the wire. . . Lol. Or Jesus is the vine, and we are the branches bringing the fruits of the Holy Spirit to all others.

Day 1 John 21:15-19. And I see in this passage that each time Jesus Called to Peter it seems to get more intense. . . feed lambs, care for sheep, feed sheep. The freedom is in stepping into what Jesus Asks, and to respond to His Invitation is really about "fearlessly" movingn deeper and deeper. 

I mean, feeding lambs, is like caring for the babies, and then caring for all the sheep community, and to get to feeding the sheep, feels more like sharing the Word or the Food from God. So it feels like stepping from something physical and simple, to something a lot deeper and meaningful to the whole community.

My own invitation as described is clearly my own experience now.  I have been led more strongly all the time learning and growing from one step to the next, as each time the invitation is more extreme and the cost and responsibility is equally larger and more extreme. 

Day 2: begins with defining three classes of person and their attitude to possessions.  How have you resembled the three persons: the procrastinator, the compromiser, and the truly free person?

It seems like I’ve experienced them all.  I’ve been the procrastinator on getting possessions, maintaining these gifts, and removing, distributing, or sharing them. I recall last month asking Larry to help me clean out the metal scraps in my yard. The home insurance company had pictures complaining of my collection of “junk”. We filled my truck and I sold it a the scrap yard for a hundred, that set me over the monthly trustee payment. I even had $20 left to fill my growler of beer.

Course this month I found another house coming down on Snell Island and got permission to take all the paver bricks. The last time I did that I got nearly two yards of the standard Belgrade gray rectangle bricks and some classic red clay bricks. I’ve set a pad outside my truck door where I park in front of my house and then set a walk into the left side of the house where I had to fix the fence anyway.  I’ve got all the pieces for the fence from another demolition site, but still need to glue them together and set the hinges in place.  This week I picked up another two yards of Keystone pavers which I’ve set in place between my container and garage.  Yes essentially thousands of dollars of stone added to my property here.

I’m still not paying the regular mortgage, only paying the bankruptcy trustee. The Airbnb case was settled, where they decided to pay me $20,000 to close it. I told the attorney that wouldn’t cover his expenses, and he said he would take the 33% and be done. I’m not sure if the bankruptcy will take the rest or if I could get any of it at all. But I really don’t care, saying the attorneys could take it all for their fees.

So I procrastinate on getting things done with the possessions I’m given. The steal scrap was really all sorts I thought I could build something with. I had procrastinated too long with that, so it all went to scrap. While the stone paver bricks are getting put into place, more just to empty my truck. And in fact the city code enforcement and the insurance renewals pushed me to remove the piles of stone I’d collected. . . One again procrastinating about getting this done.

Of course, I’ve compromised now, as I’ve only got to prepare new courses for January, and promised to spend an hour or two outside a few times a day. Yes, I read and study the Bible in the mornings, like doing SEEL now after Mass. Then do school work and such until my head spins and then I get outside. I feel like I compromised on getting some regular work routines in place. My times at church have shifted a bit. But I feel confident and secure in making a new routine.

Which really brings me to the Truly Free Person where I simply accept what God gives to me. New classes, new resources and possessions and new opportunities to share, teach, learn and grow.  I really feel so blessed now, more than ever in having so much freedom and resources beyond my dreams. I mean the bricks and layout around my home gets better and better everyday. Its clear to me that I will stay in this home, as the resources and possessions to support continue to show up all the time.

I won’t say I’m “indifferent” to these possessions and responsibilities as I know each day I’m given more and more. It’s more important than ever to recognize my place and what is best for me to move forward. . . As keep it or reject it solely according to what God our Lord will move one's will to choose, and also according to what the person himself or herself will judge to be better for the service and praise of the Divine Majesty. . . Which seems to come and go with the wind, so I’m very patient to move slowly in consideration of all that’s before me. . .She is open to how God directs her through her prayer, her experience, her reasoning through different options, her discernment of consolations and desolations, and the wise counsel of others.

Wow, I feel so blessed again, read SEEL and knowing how it really describes my immediate experiences. . . Staying in my place, doing whatever God asks and opens up for me. It’s always a blessing, and always filled with the Fruit of the Spirit. Yes, it seems no matter what happens, I’m always in Joy and Peace, loving my moment and all the opportunities that come before me. Again and again!

Day 3: Mark 10:17-31 And as I read this verse what jumped out at me was only two small phrases; “all things are possible with God” and “receive a hundred times as much“ . . . As I know all things are possible, just as I know I continue to receive so much. Like I’ve been totally perplexed by my experience in this new home. Not only was the furniture left for me exactly what I needed and completely complimented everything that I had. But to find so much art and trinkets from my childhood and so many things that I never knew I had. 

I know all things are possible, but the symbols and collections of possessions that I’ve found are simply remarkable.  I mean, not really things of value, but things of meaning. Like the Hurricane cleanup I did this last month to renew my homeowners insurance policy. Sure I cleared out a lot of junk, but then stashed and stored countless others where I could be spending years cleaning out and sorting my garage and container. Now I can barely even get inside either of them. But what was important was cleaning the space outside to get good photographs to renew my insurance policy.

All of this seems like “disordered attachments,” but clearly I’ve been gifted 100x anything that I’ve lost! And continue to be gift 100s and 1000s over and over again.

I’m sorta perplexed sometimes, like I felt so lucky and gifted to be in this house and then tried to share it with AirBnB and then also share the space for church events. I never really had much luck with either option. So now I grow and prepare food here to share. Not sure how well that works, but also see how I’m coming to teach again and feel that might be my best option. Essentially putting me back into the place where I started. Seems like nothing has gotten in my way to serve Jesus! 

Day 4: Mark 12:41-44 speaks about a poor widow. I’ve never been one to give much cash at church. I know I seem to get just enough to survive most of the time, and never seem to have very much extra. So I’ve always felt blessed, by Jesus giving me enough to survive. However, I’ve always been able to share all my time and talents.

I’ve always found the time and opportunity to share all I know and have with the church, parish, community and my God. I really never hesitate to step up into things to help and love others. Day 5 is about repeating something above. 

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117.04 Really means that WE are side-by-side.

117.04 Day 4: Matthew 4:23-5:12. The beatitudes express the standard of Christ. Imagine that you are present in the crowd or with the disciples, watching and listening to Jesus. Allow his manner and words to affect you.

8:03 11/30/25

Thank you so much, dear Jesus Christ, I appreciate all her guidance and direction in your spirit.

Do not change anything else in that page. It’s all exactly the way it needs to be. Sitting in the bright sunlight feeling and understanding the universe. Everybody’s coming together and it’s all gonna work just the way you want it.

Again, and again, this experience gets stronger and stronger for all of us. Thousand million billion different worlds are spinning together in the same love and light that created everything. Understanding and sharing is so critical. So if you have the ability to follow the details please share with everybody you know!!! 

Yes, the old tactic of burying you in bullshit, so you can’t tell which end is up. Works every time. . . . And now again you are ready for a whole new life and a whole new World. Are you going to do the same thing all over again or are you finally ready to do only love? 

It's really very easy for you..... This is what you have worked for all of your life. Each experience was another step closer to this. Even all your miss-steps only made you more prepared and more knowledged ready for those dynamics that only you can understand and step through.

Now again, I have to really just laugh at my really incredible experiences.... I really walk into the completely fantastic visions of Joy and Peace.

Yes Day 4: Matthew 4:23-5:12. The beatitudes express the standard of Christ. Imagine that you are present in the crowd or with the disciples, watching and listening to Jesus. Allow his manner and words to affect you.

It’s really such a wonder to consider listening to this preaching from Jesus as it was so very clear and powerful. And as I consider being there to hear it for the very first time, it really is such a joy. I feel like he’s specifically reaching out to all the people who are repressed, and who wholesomely reach out to any truth or love. So many people who really try to express the holy aspects of life get repressed and attacked by this culture of greed and control. 

Do not struggle with this, you have been on all sides at one time or another. And you joke about it, but that experience is very real for you. You even could understand why one day it was all white, and the very next was all black. It’s given you a very deep perspective and understanding into this stance of power that you are seeing now before you. . .  

Yes, Your Spirit has been so powerful in my life. I really never realized that I’m always very clear and focused on You. . . And I certainly realize how much I’ve been blessed. I really only have stories about being blessed. Like I’ve told the story of meeting Kathy twice this week. And it was incredible to date a Hawaiian bikini model who just had the hots for me. And of course, I never tell that story to anyone, but today was Father Kevin’s Celebration of Life Mass at our church, and one of the ladies in the church bought a few hundred roses to pass-out to all the guests . . . “Oh I bought roses for my girlfriend 3-4 times a week.” Wow, I was surprised, but I shared the full story as I placed arranged roses in the narthex with Carrol.

Oh and I got to hug Mary again, specifically for healing. And I know I need to “SAY THAT” to her and get very serious about it, “in the name of Jesus Christ.” And now I’m sitting for a beer and am relaxing at Three Daughters Brewery. The CFO’s wife is playing bar tender here chatting with me. She said she was inbetween jobs and not sure what to do next. I asked her to do my marketing for me creating the click-bait ads for an income from the readers. I gave her the website and wrote it on a napkin where I told her she could keep 50% of any income she brings to STARS 501c3 and signed it. 

Of course, I know the owner here is on the city council and that my City leader told me to speak to a City Council member about making real Urban Agriculture regulations. . . Maybe it’s time for me to do this too. Everything happens exactly as it needs to.

You have been Doing so much and finally feel relaxed enough to breathe. It’s not always easy for you, and you constantly find more to do. Which is really why you get so much help. You were asking and asking for Saint Joseph yesterday over and over, and there he was by your side. . . .quiet, patient, lifting and moving you forward, as Saint Mary reminded you of each new piece you could complete. Somehow you knew everything would be set and done. And it was. . . Now get busy with the SEEL WORK!

Yes guided in Spirit. . . I had to go back to the DAY 4 beatitudes, since I hadn’t marked anything that jumped out at me. . . And sitting with Jesus, I could really FEEL BEING in the Kingdom of Heaven, comforted as I inherit this beautiful piece of Earth, and Filled with His Mercy to SEE GOD everywhere. . . 

lol,yes I rejoice and am glad to have this time and experience with Jesus. And as I consider this again now I realize how I’ve accepted the ever-present love and truth of Jesus. It’s really just part of my day and my experience . . 

lol, and as I cleaned up the last bit outside, which was really just burning up all the brush I had piled next to my fireplace.

Larry’s children came out to watch and help. So rejoice and Be Glad to share this wonderful Kingdom of Heaven on Earth was to watch over and  include them for a while too . . .  Which easily flows into the very next reading . . . DAY 5: Luke 18:18-30. As yes I’m always following God, as best as I can, as I know all things are possible with HIM. And to make things work and step into my next place in life is so important as I continue to receive so much all the time. . . 

Do you feel ready?

My spirit is tired. I've been busy trying to catch up on things. All my cleaning up outside was all about my homeowners insurance policy. Course I have no idea if I get to stay a homeowner or not. Yes, I'm sure I'm not going anywhere. Getting ready to teach again, and still need to get clarity on my life and all. Or really just accept and stay with all this I already know.

DAY 6: Matthew 11:28-30

I know this spirit, and recognize how I’ve accepted this place with Jesus where the yoke: a wooden crosspiece that is fastened over the necks of two animals and attached to the plow or cart that they are to pull.. . . Really means that Jesus and I are side-by-side. 

Do not be surprised by this. You have always been there. It's really almost common sense to you now, as you have witnessed and recognized so much more about your grace and experience. This will evolve and grow as you go along. 

 DAY 7: Savor the Graces of Spirit. To understand the power of deceptions vs. The Love of Jesus Christ!

117.03 God’s Love and Mercy to all People

117.03 SEEL - Day #2. To liberate people to love and serve GOD and others!

This is where I come in. I'm not really sure why this week started with all the desolation stuff. I've noticed how I really do not take death seriously either. I know how evil and death are really about being separated from Jesus and God. So these aspects are simply not my experience or not real for me. .

I guess I am familiar with each, and seemingly understand them at a different level. Or I guess I simply understand them as separate from the truth and love of God. So now in this lesson to consider an imagine of thine beauty God and all creation, is really easy for me.

Now again doing the Prayerline, and this call interrupts my sentence, only to be a dropped line. Yes, Jesus Likes my focus on just Him. Hoe The Lord chooses me to step into doing more. And I stop to ACT, but then stop to Pray . . . Dear Jesus How best may I act to honor and glorify GOD!

How best can I spread God’s Love and Mercy to all People

Page 172 speaking more of understanding how we each have  skills to serve . . . And it’s Thanksgiving where I’m cooking and preparing food to share . . . . no sure if it’s all comfort foods, or acceptable to everyone. Nor have I invited anyone focused and clear.

It’s how I’m killing myself and everyone around me…. Self-saboteur . . . So worried about my to-do lists.s.s.s, as a crisis creator, or a whiner, or critic, always complaining. . . Yes Family Focus comes in where the deal-breaker shows up, same patterns showing up, where I never show-up.  Someone who is always disrespectful. . . Patterns of abuse, emotional and racial slurs are not acceptable. . .

Wow, I guess I know why I’ve been alone! Knowing all that God has done revealing this to me. Caring Christian Counseling Team. . .”overwhelmed” book now 800-232-6459 800-afamily. . . With Focus On Family, theJoyFM.

Knowing the opposition to riches, honor, and pride, while simultaneously living at odds with each. I've seemingly always had riches, though I've never been in need of anything or seemingly always have been printed for. Though never in excess. But I wonder about honor or pride sometimes as a seem to seek or gloat over any recognition for services I do . . . 

Maybe even seeking recognition in doing some services. . . I guess this brings me to explore Day 3 Consider: How do I experience the two standards playing out in my life or in the world around me? This Brings me back to my main point here, the desolation standard is essentially avoided completely, while the consolation blessings of Christ Jesus are the status quo I seek to share and become more clearly every day.

What role do riches and honors play in my life? I just noted how riches are irrelevant, where I always have all I need and rarely seem very concerned about them. What enslaves me? Is a challenging question. I seem to always be “seeking,” really almost anxious to understand more deeply. Like the Overwhelmed book discussed earlier, they were speaking of the holidays, describing my own scenario with patterns of abuse or neglect, where it was clear I did not belong. I’ve only recently realized the truth coming from “racial slurs,” making me the outcast, irregardless to anything I might do. And sadly I recall my brothers and sister habitually taking money from my mom’s purse. Course, she would always have hundreds in small bills, and intentionally leave her purse lying around. So the arrogance and pride in the riches was obvious in everyone there . . . . Course I prided myself in always having cash myself, though i know many times it was from buying or selling something illegal!

Where is the invitation to greater freedom in my life? Now brings me to a serious Conclusion where I need to engage a triple colloquy prayer, which underscores how serious and sometimes difficult it is to step more strongly into the grace we ask for as a gift to have Love and Mercy for all People . . . Hum, invite Mary to lead me to Jesus and then to God …. In conversation . . . lol, feels like it’s time for my new “Why Statement”

Why I give thanks and praise to Jesus Christ as the HEART, Hands and Feet of God!!!

117.02 glory of God is a human person fully alive

Reflecting God the Father's power at work in the world is giving glory to God, for God's glory is precisely his infinite wisdom and power made manifest in concrete worldly events. This is the service that we are called to give to God: to make manifest the work that the Father is doing in the created world.

We pray to make manifest in life all that GOD.. could want or imagine. What a wonderful goal and purpose in life. To actively seek to bring into our immediate experience more love and joy that only Jesus could understand and share with us.

This book by Joseph mentioned here is wonderful: Here is the Christian's deepest identity: we are to BE reflections, however fitful and fragmentary, of God's work as He evolves all things under Christ the Head. This is why, in the familiar words, the glory of God is a human person fully alive.

Doing what God wants done, in the name of Jesus Christ, for all the world to see . . . . Like reminding Mary and Wanda what it means to be truly alive and connected to God's love and Spirit we find all around us. . . . Wow: Acknowledgment, approval, and then thanks: the holy way of the creature in the Creator's hands.

Now more focused on SEEL Week #17: the two standards. . . And as strange as it may sound, the last page I wrote was detailing the experience of beating satan in one moment and then healing and loving someone in the very next.

My work today, and always never really accept or acknowledges satan. I know his works and desires, equally recognizing how desperate he tries to interfere with me and distract me from all that god brings to me.  But satan is NOT LOVE, so really is Not anything, not life, not God, Not worth my time, thought, effort, nothing!

I am generous with my wealth, giving time, talents and treasures to friends, neighbors and complete strangers as I am able. My wealth and possessions really are used to inspire and support this ministry and education that I provide to my neighbors. . . I Find what I have defines how I can share and serve others. 

I had to fix my pump so I could water and expand my gardens. I have to redo everything for the city code enforcement board meeting next month where I’m listed for Urban Agriculture violations again. And then I also need to fix my fence and get everything cleaned up for the homeowners insurance company that has pictures of the hurricane damage I’ve not fixed yet.

The high-point was when could get the broken nipple out of the pump. I asked Steve Nextdoor if he had any ideas and he came over and helped me get it out. It was so great to get the love and support from my neighbor with a random weekend challenge. I gave them a much of the purple sweet potatoes I’ve found around. The next day and this morning again the water was running over everything again! YEAY!!!

I’m really not one to imagine satan in anything. But instead ask Saint Joseph to guide me outside. I never put anything towards satan to even acknowledge the challenges that he might bring me, and I refuse to even capitalize his name, which this app tries to do every time I type it.

Yes I know who satan is, and have confronted and dealt with him forever. It’s kinda sad too, as I realized how he still tries to get pretty women in front of me to distract me and pull me away from all that I know and do.

Similarly in Mass today: JESUS delivered us from the power of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins (2nd reading today Colossians 1:13)

That’s where I belong, so to imagine the opposite even as an exercise is creating a crack in the doorway to allow something I consider useless and wasteful. Recognizing what is really means that it’s nothing at all. There is only Love and there is Only Jesus, all these rest is really where Jesus is not. Thus, equally I stay in Jesus and Love and have made such a effort there to step away is not possible.

And I guess the confrontation is as close as I get. And I realized I could perceive and understand the evil, the not Jesus, the not. . . Which I perceived in detail. . . Yes almost at the end of this post where the paragraph starts: “As crazy as it might be“

And still this section in SEEL wants us to recognize and acknowledge evil!?! Just not my cup of tea, the very last line speaks of imagining something in the current times, while the fight is ongoing so adding any word or comment is counterproductive.

Yes that previous link shares the experiences I see. . And it’s interesting to see deeper into those circumstances.  I mean, that one experience carried over for weeks, as I know what it means to allow evil to impact children. 

As crazy as it seems, I still never have helped my own children resolve their own similar encounters.  Emily said I was right on target the first time we met in Starbucks 12/24/20– ?? I think it was 2010? Since she left at age ten, 2000, and was gone for ten years.

Funny when I met her husband the first time, he admitted he was in Starbucks too. And then also stated he knew about her step-dad and would keep her safe away from him. Course they got the guy some drugs toe keep him stable, but the crazy perversion with children is still there. 

Oh wow, I realize now as I write, that I saw her step-dad at my son’s wedding last month. Only one picture, and that was enough. It was clean the villain was there hiding in the eyes. . . Eeeek, it’s weird how I can see it from one picture.  Or I guess one clean shot of someone’s eyes. . . Like I witnessed at the exodus meeting.

What do these words mean for me now?

What you are recognizing is how much your own family might be destined to address these issues a lot deeper than you know. You have seen the porn in your city and neighborhoods. You have witnessed and participated before. And you know this poison is more intense in the Bay Area.

I get it. . . Like the Word experience. With all the technology that is here beyond and above anything we can find anywhere else.

What you know deep inside is going to kill them.

I got this Word before. . . I mean, I’ve always said satan was dead to me already.  But clearly I know and find him very easily and often in places that I wouldn’t look or consider.

We still protect you. That image of Saint Michael spinning His Sward and Shield around you is still very clear and present in your consciousness.  you’ve seen trees trimmed and doors opened, teasing everyone about how you could walk through walls. . . And then at the Vinoy seeing how real that was still in your experiences. 

I get it, Your Word is still very powerful and PRESENT all around me. . . Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ . . .

What about this definition you found using the last words before Day 2?

As far as I’m concerned I never allow affective and emotional reactions are essentially the same thing: a person's immediate, visceral response to a stimulus, involving feelings, physiological changes, and behavioral expressions like facial expressions and actions.  lol, ok that’s not right, I always respond and always avoid evil. I’m just very familiar with satanic games and stay away and don’t play!

117.01 always in gods presence

ok more to do. THANK YOU JESUS. I love how my iPads work and the iphone and everything just clicks together and works great. I just love it all. 

This is a trip!

I recognize how much Jesus has done for me. Each day I see more and more of His Grace and Blessings everywhere. Today I saw Mary coughing again and struggling to breathe in Church. I knew I had to take her outside and get her shoes off to share with me. And then to my surprise she walks over to speak with me. . . About saving her wine for consecration!

It surprised me, so I missed the opportunity for my inspiration. But after mass, and after the men's prayers, as I was leaving she walked up looking for Fr Curtis, and I was able to chat with her a bit. Yes, I was able to hug her and hold her for a bit, explaining about our heart energy connecting to all life. I was able to share with her talking about our heart energy entwining before bringing her to the tree and getting her grounded. She told me she had a real tree at home and understood my images that I gave her of the magnetic flux lines to visualize. . . She really had such a big smile on her face, explaining all her ailments as we talked.

Wow, I guess I really knew what it was all about. And I was able to tell Wanda what we did. Wanda said her back and everything were still really feeling great. It’s really clear to me how I need to get more focused on my healing others and accept that is something that I need to be doing more. I guess this is in line with the mystic lessons I’ve been addressing here with SEEL, discernment is really ground zero.

Like with Mary, I was clear about what the task was before me. And I understood and was ready to approach her. I never had any question about who was sending me the message. And to read this section about consolation and desolation and recognize how obvious it is never to change plans during desolation.  But I know I never really tolerate anything from satan. It’s like confronting him in the Exodus meeting, he couldn’t even respond to me. I really have had that experience a lot, where it’s very clear that someone is avoiding me or knows something about me to stay away. Now the next page in SEEL:

God is faithful and remains with us; however, the good feelings of spiritual consolation are gone for the time while we remain faithful in difficult times, we come to understand that faith involves more than feeling good; faith has to do with steadfast commitment, which deepens our friendship with God.

Like the Highlight at right is really great. Making sure we are focused and keep our own work in order and never allowing interference. It’s really funny almost. I’m always in Prayer, I really have this ongoing conversation, as Jesus and the Saints really want to help and guide me all the time. I’ve been challenged a few times, but I see and feel His grace and glory in everything all around me.  All existence is God, all is Love! Like the fundamental energy, creating all matter and everything else it’s just love. The more we understand and grow into this, the more we gain independence and that’s how we end up lost. Independence usually brings pride and control, Keeping it all in Jesus is a trick!

Like working outside today I knew Saint Joseph was ready to help me. And He was so delighted when I stopped and asked for directions about what I was doing. Asking for his guidance with tools and work always brings him joy!

Desolation inspires patience and perseverance as we just hang in there knowing everything comes around making things stronger and better. It’s just the way of things, as love grows with more faith and more perseverance trusting that the love and friendship in Jesus goes on forever. 

Reading this page now, I found a book by Mark and read about In the Examen, we review our recent past to find God and God’s blessings in daily life. We also look back to find moments in the day when

things didn’t go so well—when we were hurt by something that happened to us, or when we sinned or made a mistake.

Which really means, just losing touch and not listening to the immediate guidance. As he said also how spending all the day with Jesus is really ideal. Making the time, and stopping to listen and accept and understand the guidance as it’s really always available and always around us can really be very easy with Love and Trust!

116.02 in the Image of God, as the time to take authority

Oh wow, moving deeper into this session now. 116.02 DAY 3 Mark 1:21-39. Join Jesus on a busy day.. and I read this and mark up what jumps out for me. . .

Now again this is pressing me to step into more than I’ve ever known, or really ever fully recognized and understood. Though I seem to have done or lived such mysteries all my life. I had another powerful Prayerline experience where these same highlighted ideas came through very strongly. It was a lady who had called before. And she told her story from the start and complained about her brother exploiting her and all the challenges that pressed against her while she was actually doing holy missionary work successfully. 

We all get frustrated when we do something good, and get stomped on anyway by the greedy and arrogant who get jealous. I said a prayer for her and then she recognized me. She said it’s been months since we spoke, but she knew it, asking for my name again. “Yes Rafi, I remember you”. . . 

Now after we had prayed, I told her it was time for her to step into something more. Not just walking outside and reconnecting to the Love and Truth of God that we can find in the Woods, and Trees, and Beauty all around us. I told her she was made in the Image of God. It was time for her to take authority. I asked her to repeat after me. . . Whenever you can stop and NAME the evil attacking her . . . Just Say the Words: “I Renounce this “named” evil spirit in the Name of Jesus Christ; I command this “named” evil spirit to leave me in the Name of Jesus Christ!”

I told her that the specific, anxiety, anger, depression, and deceptions up against her, can be dismissed by this power of Jesus. Wow, I am back again into the Mysteries of God, where each evil is dismissed and dispelled by the Grace and Love of Jesus Christ. It’s all about Jesus, and the Power of His Love beating the evils of this world, again and again. . . 

DAY 4 is to repeat this passage above again. . . so I selected the Bible verse at the top of this page and hit the menu link to “search with google” and found the verse from a different version copied here at right. The first was KJV, and now it’s NIV . . . So this time I felt how Jesus was preventing the demons from speaking since “they knew Him already” as stated in Mark 1:24 as the Holy One of God.

Recognizing again now how important it is to know why we have come and also how it's equally important to remain anonymous. This Really feels like a strong lesson for me, where No one needs to know my WHY except me. I guess, I've not defined it all enough anyway. But I do see how the Mysteries of God are coming through TO ME and knowing and accepting this is only half the challenge! I now must be silent, and keep these mysteries and experiences to myself.

WOW, the challenges never cease. . . Day 5 now with Mark 2:1-12 Jesus immediately knowing his authority. So I guess my lesson now is accepting and understanding what all this means when I put it all together. Like leading and teaching in a dream that has come full circle again.

I guess, the next step for me is coming in closer to how my whole world and life is shifting again! Day 6 is about resting and endearing into this New place of Being with Jesus and what that really means. Then Day 7 is repeating this.

Of course, I've gone back and reread all my notes and experiences with the week lessons of 115 and 116. There is a lot of synergy and resonance between these and the other events in my life. Like I literally just replied to a professional engineering request for Building a new resort in the multimillion ranges . . . With the salary and benefits package to match . . . The distractions never cease.

116.01 Mysteries of God’s Dreams in 3I- implementing the intense intimacy and intelligence!

Starting the prayerline now. My first call was some guy who called before and was never outside. It was interesting as after our prayers, I asked him about the outdoors, and he was so grateful to realize that he really loved it outside and was trapped in the concrete box, never seeing the sun, the trees, or anything outside at all.  Yes the Beauty of Nature is FILLED with God and God’s Love is everywhere.

Ok now SEEL WEEK #16 The Grace Requested: “To know HIM more intimately” Love him more dearly follow him more closely in order to know Jesus we must take this Humanity seriously!!!

Recognizing it is now my time and place to do everything I’ve been designed to do. It's really kinda neat as I see and experience more and more in the Love of Dear Lord Jesus Christ!  And I'm totally perplexed at times, for how this world will continue for me, giving me the opportunity and experience of writing and learning more and more each week. Where I found more notes in SEEL listening to our first meeting again.  It goes back to our first trying to Learn about my new WHY STATEMENT and then I found this note to slow down and appreciate this savored relationship with God (see pic copied here below)!  

And I know My ultimate desire is to lineup and fulfill the passions and love relationship in Christ Jesus through His Mystical Works. As I’ve dreamed about restoring the Garden of Eden and here I am teaching Sustainability and Entrepreneurship (again), which often engages students exploring new business ideas for sharing healthy organic foods and methods.  This beauty of my experience abounds!

And I know this experience morphs into a completely new world as I never know exactly what could be next, and I simply show up and move forward. . . . 

11/6/2025 today I started before dawn with the JoyFM podcasts, Exodus, and my exercises before racing to Clearwater to do a Career Day for local high school kids. It was kinda odd, and my first attempt at this. But I followed and did what I needed. I figured I would stay and do my class next. So now I’ve got some free time to read and review this SEEL work before my class.

My very first lesson is asking for this Grace of God to know Jesus more intimately, to love him more intensely, and to follow him more closely, which then begins with Day #1 Matthew 4:1-11. Yes, I relate and understand about Jesus dealing with the devil and being challenged after fasting. I’ve been fasting more myself. I’ve really been set into a more normal schedule of doing every-other-day of the Prayerline and all the rest that I do. It really wasn’t a challenge, but just something I needed to get more focused and set for creating more regular habits for myself . . . . Like the teaching, grading, and yard work or gardening. . . . Mangroves and more too.

When I think about this piece in SEEL and what I need to learn from this. The phrases that jumped out at me, were the words that would bring me back to God. 

. . .Now again I have such a wonderful experience in communion with Jesus. Yes, Now!

Now again feeling and knowing all things come from God and all things are of God and filled with his glory and TRUTH. This again reminds me of the Holy Spirit from the Wilderness or the boy from the Woods who hear's and knows God’s Words coming to me from all life, trees, grass, birds or bugs, songs, podcasts, emails, and everything I Receive is of God.  Asking Christ for His Wisdom and deepest meaning and intention in this intimacy we shared in integrity and implementation. 

Which brings me to service  DOING THE MYSTICAL WORKS OF CHRIST . . .  Which is now aligned with the Exodus going now too: “To render an account of our works.” Learning from my emotional errors and finding deeper truth and passion in growth to share and understand the Mysteries of God’s Dreams.

Wow, yes it’s about love and the Glory of God in Father, Son and Holy Ghosts . . . . And I guess what’s really important and significant for me now is recognizing how Jesus really beat satan, and died on the cross as the sacrifice for my sins . . . . Which really means that NOW more than ever, Hebrews 4:14-16: I can Step into God’s Mercy to Confidently Serve my neighbors and His People for His Glory through these Mysteries of God’s Dreams.

And it’s really important that I remain confident and secure in all that He’s given to me and all that is before me! As I recognize the sacrifice Jesus made, removes my sins to get closer and more intimate with God!

I stopped to reread all these passages from the SEEL book and the Bible with SEEL Day #1 Matthew 4:1-11 and Hebrews 4:14-16, and as incredible as it may seem these screenshots gave me lots of space to write and share my deeper experiences that I’ve had in this study.

As with exploring my WHY Statement where I realize it’s more important than ever to step deeper into my work and place. . . . And what is my work?  And what is my place? Is it more about some Mystical Dream I’ve seen glimpses of. So now I read my next SEEL Day #2 Luke 4:14-30 . . . . What really has God sent me to do and how can I possibly step into something new?

And now I notice what phrases jump out to me from this Bible verse and I'm more intimidated and terrified than ever. Yes it certainly is about the Power of the Spirit as the Lord IS upon me, anointed me and sent me to this time and space to be rising up from midst of the waters, to implement the Mysteries of God’s Dreams.

Course I know intimately, how much my family and home rejected me, no mater what I did or said. Feeling this deeper connnection to Jesus, who was stuggling to reach those He loves from his own home and community. Wow, and I was raised in this vibration, where I was always rejected by everyone. And seeing the reference to the midst of the waters, where I've worked all my life is always a blessing . . . Which feels like I’ve finally learned to step beyond this rejection, fear, and insecurity. 

However, stepping into the mystic and mysteries I found from week #15… means implementing the intense intimacy and intelligent Mysteries of God’s Dreams.