Prodigal who wouldn’t accept

I’m a Roman Catholic.

Wow, I didn’t realize that “Roman” Catholic was more specific than anything else. I’ve finally becoming what I decided my Mom really had intended for me. And as a major confirmation, I realized how I had completed my Mom’s Sermon. It was even on my dad’s birthday, when the actual last piece was in place, that it dawned on me how I’d finished. Of course, I sent it to my dad and still feel he never saw it or understood. . . Ok, I sent it to my Step Mom, who shares everything like this with my dad. .

Or she reads, understands, and explores likely before sharing, to get it into context so he actually learns and grows from it, instead of fighting or ignoring it.

Simultaneously to this, I have been through the Men’s Welcome Retreat with the church. This ended with an AWESOME Rosary and then we washed each others’ feet.  And finally went in for a confession. I realized that though being a Prodigal, I never had done the actual Sacrament of Reconciliation. GREAT FAITH is focused on the Father, Focused on the Nature of GOD, Father Focused, Seeking to Understand, Will endure NO MATTER WHAT.  Learning to endure, to see beyond the visible, to sense in Spirit what God’s is Saying, Focused on the Ways and Character of GOD. GREAT FAITH, I’m Trusting God NO matter what!

This is what Charles Stanley is saying on the podcast right now: Matthew 8:8 and it’s about GOD now. . . Yes, 8:8 is my Emily’s Birthday, so this is more present and powerful for me than ever. It’s almost like my Daughter came to me to teach me this lesson. And she fought for 6 years to get to me. I knew someone was coming when Maryanne told me in High School. 

Yes, again I’m back in High School, the Prodigal who wouldn’t accept of believe anything was from God, Even though I had already exploited everything I was ever given . . Wow.

energy that we are evolving

Yes, I realize again how important it is for me to step into the place and power where I belong. My first experience this morning was with several Prayerline Callers who I’ve heard from before. I recognized a few stories of challenges people are facing. Then the computer suggests their name as I start, and I remember the last time we spoke. I am getting stronger and more focused, where the prayers just flow. I wonder what people think, always being insecure. But again I’ve had several people very specific about the word I used and the resonance they felt knowing when two or more come into Christ, He is with us. I am always reminded of Day Six in Genesis where God steps into the Garden with Adam and Eve and all things were good. That's where we all belong, at peace in Love and Beauty where things are very good!

This actually happens with every written word as well. The first podcast on TheJoyFM.com was specific about this power of the written word. Someone was speaking about three marriages and years of conflict and challenges. We all have periods of challenges and growth. That’s really what we are here for. It’s easy to get lost in the lies of the machine, that life is meaningless, or only about greed and selfish happiness. Course the very next podcast this morning with Charles Stanley was even more focused on how we are all challenged to grow, and step-out and take risks. 

Wow, that’s like my middle name, “Rafé Risks” is all that I do. Of course, then I remembered my presentation books, that I risked sharing with a stranger, exactly a week ago. Funny, as I type now 7:25am 10/18/2023, I realize that the last of the three books I assembled was exactly a week ago. I never considered her keeping and reading them in detail, but now remember the last minute additions and moving pages around to create the flow I needed in talking about things. So this morning I sent this podcast to her, and conveniently cut her name off of this text clip I made now.

What are you doing now, is wonderful! People only listen and follow when they want to. And the resonance and encouragement posted her really lasts for centuries and continues with the same messages to so many that read and find this. But some will always choose to “stay safe” with their heads in the sand. It’s really very easy there in Florida, the sand is so fine and nice. And you know, this sand is so fine and white because of age. Time breaks things down smaller and smaller, then it also clears out impurities and returns things to original structures. . . 

I Love you Jesus, and Yes I know that this idea and vibration have been coming through to me over and over again. Like the movie LUCY was on again last night. I thought it was a Spanish channel, but stopped to look anyway. Of course, the phrase that I heard was how electrons move all the time, so the knowledge and truth moves from cell to cell every second. We can really know all things at anytime we want to. #manofknowledge 

Yes, this is really the fundamental truth behind everything. That Love and Truth flow from cell to cell, and atom to atom . . . All of it is connected, exactly like Father Kevin said with “Each One Teach One” where ”each one teaching one was like an electric current passing through a wire until a whole community could be illuminated”. . . 

What are you doing now!

Yes, I know i am in the Love of Jesus, and I know this deepest truth about the energy that we are evolving through us is expanding our universe more and more every second.

Again what you said here is something that your scientists would be able to measure and understand. While doing it now and bringing it foreword creates a resonance that is more lasting and significant than you can understand!

I Love you Jesus, Yes you always love saying things like this. We walk in the abyss together wondering what it’s all about, while we shift and grow creating more knowledge, more understanding and More Love that is really the fuel for everything else. Just like satan was all excited to get men caught up into the oil and gas fuels that they created, or exploited from your Glory thinking it could every surpass all You have before us in Love.

I woke up with dreams including very strong clear images. I had decided I needed someone else in my life. OR SOMETHING like that? And I ended up inviting all the young pretty ladies I knew at once. It was kinda weird as I already had someone in my house, who I knew and another lady showed up.  Both attractive women who I already knew! 

Then Kristen called too. "Sure I'm home, always love to talk" and then I saw her skipping down the road to my front door. It was so wonderful, as she looked like the petite little gymnast that I knew in High School. And as I opened the door, I was thinking how crazy is this to have three attractive pretty women coming up to me. . . and what the heck was I going to do about it?

As I woke up, seeing Kristen was so wonderful. She came to get me outside walking every day after my motorcycle accident in High School. . . tight, tiny, little short-shorts and roller skates, so she was just out of my reach, lol, which I thought was a brilliant way to get me out exercising again, as I never walked or ran at all.

When I woke-up today, I started this Exodus reading. Here it is, to the right, talking about how important family is. Yes, that’s what I’m returning to the Catholic Church for, to reconnect to my family of God. I must become part of this community in church and in St. Pete where I am now. Family of God, for me, not for my children, or for my wife, or my mom, but for me.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What are you getting ready for now?

I really have seen so many visions, dreams, insights, and FLASH into more each day, and I know it's about inviting my own passions forward. I mean, I’m seeing images of Gardens and teaching children, then images of women and healing them, and changing the city and systems of people to make schools more experiential and food more healthy for everyone, not just greed and selfishness. 

What did you see and feel now?

I was thinking about my SEEL class today. Its starts at 9am, so I have time for everything before it. I can do all my exercises, bike out to do my Yoga. Catch the sunrise and swim, before my 8am MASS. I've done this already this weekend. It was really my first time doing everything as i had learned. I was so happy to be able to get back into my routine. Or step into my new routine, my new life, my new experience.

What about today? 9:33am Friday October 13. . .

It’s funny December Friday the 13th, I moved into this house. March Friday the 13th, Covid sent me home. And now I was ready to bike and exercise at 7am, and I could have made it out, and done everything. And now I remember what we agreed!

What is important is to get back into the regular schedule you have created for yourself. You now have a great job that allows you to arrive at work when you want to.

I know it’s a very specific schedule. Prayerline, Podcasts, Prayers, Exercises, bike ride, Sunrise, Mass, and another ride home. I know I can do this every day. And I know we agreed to only a few days for Mass, and then more time and efforts at the beach with the mangroves. And I realize now, I can do it with my new job and I can get out there and do so much more for getting back into my health and power. It’s really about me stepping into the new life that I needed and wanted all along. It’s really about me this time, stepping into the Love that I am.

What about the Proverbs 20:7 posted here, that you heard on the radio as you were writing here before you. 

I recognize how my new walk in prayer, meditation and work are about bringing me into this new life. And again it talks about children and a new life with children. I wonder if I’ll be a parent again!

What you need to focus on is the health routines again. Make this a priority and to follow through with whatever opens to you. Like your meeting Thursday, you trusted and stepped into it at the level that you needed to make it work exactly like you needed. You never could imagine having someone so skilled and focused reviewing your books.  You might be really surprised at what results.

I am always surprised by what you do for me. Everyday I try to get more focused and specific on what you have placed before me. And each day I recognize that there is really so much more than I could understand happening in this moment and this time.

We are shifting more out and about that needs to be cleared and reset. Earth is hungry to reset and restore the beauty and blessing it is made of. So much will be changing everywhere and it’s important to avoid the stories and chaos that are beyond your reach. You have a lot to do here, and will be doing more and more as you go along. It’s important that you get back to your actions and motions of peace and love. Fearlessly step into more of who you are and just ignore all the rest.

I know, it’s about staying with you, and what you have given to me, and the priorities I can feel in Love with you.

We are making this easier for you. Getting your fruit and vegetables together again will bring you greater clarity and comfort. Having the strong clear mind will open more for you all around you. This clear strong focus will make everything else move easier. Again you will be shifting things that no one else can understand.

I get it. I’ve started my day with you, reading your word and setting myself into a space with you. I know this is where i belong all the time, and it is clear i need to do another confession with Father Kevin. He went out of town on another retreat, where he fell and broke his nose. I fell too, cracked ribs that are still sore now.

We got you to slow down now. That was important. You live in a beautiful city filled with love and blessings all around you. You are going to protect it and make it safer for the future generations. And it’s really wonderful before you as you are becoming more focused and dedicated in this space than ever before. 

I know, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to help us all step into this deeper stronger space you have created before us. In the name and Glory of Father, Son, and Holy Ghosts . . .

ONE at the top of the page

Okay first week with SEEL. I opened the book and have been praying and focused on the DAY ONE, Psalm 8, and WHO has helped me get to this moment now! And it’s always about Jesus who I se and feel coming through me in everything. IN the Air and the winds, in the rain and the mist, and in Earth and the dirt. . . All life has spoken to me. And it’s really my Church, St Raphael’s who has helped. “There’s my promised land” (song on the radio I hear now with TobyMac on TheJoyFM.com) . . . As “this whole life is part of a PLAN” . . . 

Yes these versus feels like the Contemplative Prayer book our Men’s Fraternity just finished, which is really the Grade Nine Prayer we did in the very first Class that Bonnie told me about when I was lost at St Pauls.

OF COURSE, then I see this morning, ready to read the next day in the Ignatian Adventure that I started with day ONE at the top of the page, but it was week two instead of week one! Opps, so today’s prayer and dedication needs to start at day one, in week one. Isaiah:1-7, and I can’t read more than the first verse and im in tears. For I’ve been called by name, Called by my Mom’s Name, Called as Rafé (aka . . . Raffie) that nickname of Her Father. As I am called forth into a New Life, and a New Community, and New Family and Church as my Catholic Mom KNEW. . . As she KNEW in naming me for Her Father. 

As the river and waters flow . . . Brings me to know that by my Baptism I and cleaned into the Grace of God. And my whole life has been the river. First the one behind my house in the woods of New Jersey, and as my professional career, modeling Rivers as and Engineer, and again now as we address these waters before us dealing in my newest career focused on saving lives as the waters rise around us.

Now today,…lol…I know again how I need to begin with the reading which Harriet provide on the first day. I was missing some when I  went to the meeting and had only printed the DOC files to convert into PDF to create my notes files. But had never included the PDFs she sent that I needed to include as well:  

"have as their purpose the conquest of self and the regulation of one's life in such a way that no decision is made under the influence of any inordinate attachment."

And I realize as I read this line that since 2017, my last SLAM was about this same things too. Lost Wife, Job and Home, BOOM! And it was all about getting more clear and focused on my love and growth with Jesus. This is when I moved my dad out of my Mom’s house. We never sorted or organized, but only did the most basic repairs and cleaning out the Garage again as I did in NJ after high school. But this time, I got my dad to pray with me each morning before doing anything. We would have the direct experience of ease and comfort moving and doing our chores whenever we prayed first. Several times we forgot to pray and would get hurt, struggle and encounter conflict. 

I would stop him and reach out my hands to hold his in prayer. Of course, this happened several times during the few weeks we moved and cleaned everything out. As crazy as it seems the old plastic bins full of screws and nails I organized in NJ were multiplied into many now, which he didn’t want anymore. So now I have 5-6 plastic drawer boxes filled with screws and nails in my garage. 

Yes, this has evolved for me into chanting: “Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,” just to get the WORD, feeling and Love of Jesus in my mind and heart. 

As I read this, I started to cry. My mom had named me at conception. it was her promise and commitment with the marriage. I was the only child “planned” in the family. The wedding commitment included a child named for her Father. As I cried reading this prayer i stopped to write my Step-Mom. This last week she took my dad to the hospital. . . 

You Have Called Me by Name Oh, Lord my God, You have called from the sleep of nothingness merely because in your tremendous love you want to make good and beautiful beings. You have called me by my name in my mother's womb. You have given me breath and light and movement and walked with me every moment of my existence. I am amazed, Lord God of the universe, that you attend to me and, more, cherish me. Create in me the faithfulness that moves you, and I will trust you and yearn for you all my days. Amen. -Joseph Tetlow, SJ

“In the world, greater is the One Living inside of me, , , , every day I loss the battle . . . I hear a voice, and he calls me redeemed…” TheJoyFM.com Greater by MercyMe…. 6:26am

Morning men’s fraternity

 The men’s group this morning started a new series, called “Into the Breach.” This video is specifically talking about what it means to be a man, and what it means to be masculine. Wow, speaking about the “fatherless culture,” where so many never had a father figure, not just me. What was interesting about it was that the first video had us all talking about when we personally had the experience and the thought of becoming a man.

I hadn’t ever really thought about it, but what was interesting is that when it was my turn to speak, what came to mind was when my dad first punched me and I left home.  I was feeling his fist on my cheek, and not flinching, and recognizing that I didn’t have to hit him back! He hit me and I was still standing, and he couldn’t believe that and I recognize that I had beaten him at his own game and it was incredible. 

What came from that? I was the second man to speak in the men’s group, so I didn’t have any anything else to go on but my own personal experience. When everyone else had spoken and we had gone around the circle, one of the guys talked about how he had been involved with the men’s group and also with the teen group. He said how there was this great big gap between the men’s group and the teen group, and that step into manhood was missing! And for me what popped into my head was how I had done it with my son and the step that’s missing is called BoyScouts. No scouts today, so no stepping into manhood. 

And it remarkable for me to consider how the male transition came in scouts. And I remember leaving the home as a kids a dozen times, and always getting pulled back in. Except that last time when I got punched. And what comes to mind is teaching my son to swing an ax to chop wood and build a fire. Yes, that power in scouts made him strong. Oh yes, “steal sharpens steal,” so no brothers and no men supporting me but always competing and confronting me. As the next “Into the Breach” Episode started about the brotherhood of men that’s so powerful.

Then of course I also had the Men’s Group over for a Bonfire last night. Of course, the day started with the first SEEL class. And what was really amazing was getting to the SEEL class and seeing Bonnie walk into the class too. I told Harriet how my application started with saying how a wonderful lady at St Paul’s offered to help and recommended Saint Raphael’s where I stepped int the “nine Grade of Prayers” with Theresa of Avila. 

Of course, Harriet was totally fascinated by it since she had introduce me to Bill, who was also in the class. Bill hired me to my new job and Bonnie got me to this church in the first place. Clearly to all, God Hand was so very strong and focused in this experience before me. When we started the first class lessons, the one question for the introduction that was too powerful for me was about how “at this time in my journey” I am starting over, and I knew it will be wonderful beyond anything I could imagine.

And as it turned out that was exactly what I was doing today. I went out to lunch with my BOSS, and I told him how I went back to school and had not done engineering for ten years. Then lost my job, my wife and my home. And ended up homeless hanging at my dad’s snow-bird house, as he raced across the country in his RV. Yes, getting bored and suicidal, I finally called Bruce and asked for work. ANYTHING! And then started with his latest company as an engineering intern learning FDOT work with three other interns.

I really had started over, and what was remarkable was how I felt deep inside that I came to Tampa for Jesus and Emily. I Did my best following Jesus, to raise my daughter in his light and then was done, ready to leave. But now I’m starting over again and it’s something more for me. And this really means a deeper more personal experience with Jesus. Wow, how could that get any Stronger!

WOW, and HOW!

I opened my book and was focused all day on the ideas of God All around us. God IS LOVE, God is Nature, God is everything. Course, I’ve always known this, and so I had highlighted how “Ignatius encountered God in nature” and recognizing the gift and blessings of this ongoing creation, and having gratitude for God’s creations Of course, this was at 4am on the Prayerline as well, since I’m always reminding people about day six in Genesis, where all was done, and God, Adam and Eve were in the Garden and all things were good before the snake showed up.

Wowsy, wow, wow, as it’s all exactly like another book in the men’s group: Franz Jalics CONTEMPLATIVE RETREAT, where the first week was about awareness, and recognizing God in Nature and alive in the Oneness of all things. Which again is really about bringing me back to myself. Recognizing that the one experience is about the oneness I had being lost in the woods of New Jersey alone with God.

Then of course I could see this all around me, and then read a passage in my journals about it as well. 

10/6/2023 twice I’ve expanded and added stories above here. And twice Chrome has crashed. So twice the paragraphs have vanished completely!  The first, I rewrote ideas from my journal about “starting over” doing real regular exercises, like I never have before. And then second about when I DID Restart with the birth of my Granddaughter who came 4/4 with Michelle’s TheJoyFM.com donation of $444.44 and making my Mom’s Chicken and Rice to fill my daughters freezer! New Breath, New Life, and start over means a job, starting Fresh, as a new intern fresh out of college. . . . WOW!  

The concept that”responsibility” vs. the love

OK, so I recognize the need to be writing a lot more than I understand, and I need to step into this at a higher level. That means recognizing that I can just talk to my iPhone, and let my blog to create from there. So now I’m starting the Ignatian Adventure, this book has been really strong for me already. The first day I got it was the day I had a meeting with my Spiritual Director.

The Spiritual Director (Rick) started the meeting with me and I had just opened the package from Amazon.  He Said it was a crisp new book, where I hadn’t turned the cover yet, and it was really strong for me already. That first day I read it after our call and the thing that jumped out at me was on page 2, the Gospel truth became a part of me, “to whom much is given, much as expected.” 

This was all I could read. It followed from our discussions so strongly. The concept that I was challenged with, was how “expectation creates a responsibility,” versus the love affair. And Rick said to me, it’s doing for “love” not “responsibility,” and suddenly I understood him and I could feel the difference in my body so clear and powerful. What it really means in Love with Jesus. Responsibility in raising my kids was really a love affair with Jesus, as I could see how strongly this child was with me. And it was a lot more than love, more than responsibility, more than knowing it is all here now for me to love share and experience. Not for later, not for less, but clear and strong for this moment where we could share and be at a better space, a better love, a better power and focus.

Yes, it was a responsibility or was it the love. As he said this to me, I realized it was more about love, and what the love is to be shared with others . . . . and again I needed to step into that higher place in my heart, to know and share this Love so clear and obvious to me. Like this now, today I received another beautiful movie about my childhood trauma, that all know and speak about in the world, but none really understands or takes seriously.

The experience of God is about this love affair. The experience of God is about a love affair that I must write about in a new way, beyond my own imagination. The experience of God is about this love affair from all my life, writing and knowing that so much is shifting, shifting in such a powerful clear manner that it makes me feel so happy to be able to share it with others who have found this word now. And I prayed how I wanted us all to survive, not just the few, but He created all of us, and we all have a place, so why not find a way for us all to survive?

I need to get all my highlights from this book, into this blog. This seemed like such an arduous chore, but then I remembered how easy I could read it into my iPhone. And pop it opens in my blog! Here we go:

Page 2 starts it all, where the yellow highlight shows to whom much is given much as expected. God broke through my cluttered thinking and Clearly got my attention. Tell me who is God for you.

Then i go to Page 3, whenever I thought about teaching, I experience the deep-seated enthusiasm. Page 4 God has guided me in the past, how God labors in my life in the present, and calls me in the future. Page eight was next where I got this in the first of several mystical visions: enlightenment that allowed him to see the world with new eyes, and to find God in all things. And to make notes of his spiritual insights. Page 14 emphasizes experiential, and the practical and life of prayer. . Page 17 in discernment of spirits, we noticed the interior movements of our hearts. The key is being open to the spirit. Which brought me back to the questions from Rick, discerning Love beyond responsibility and knowing this feeling I have to do more spiritually, is really who I have always been. Jobs and working  just bring me the confidence and support I need to step into who I really am and what I really need to do.

Then on page 19, God works with each person uniquely. Page 20 room for adaptation, => creative adapting the exercises to be experienced not read that invites prayers to encounter the living God, Spiritual Director, who serves as a guide for the journey is central to the exercises offered in this format. BE Directed by God; page 23 first commit to spending 30 to 45 minutes per day. Find a prayer space! page 24. Look over these materials before you formally begin your prayer.  Either the evening or the morning before. Page 25. Imagine how God looks upon you with great joy and gratitude for your offering of time. Ask in Him in Gratitude: “God be with me in prayer, the body and spirit work together.” 

Find a posture conducive to prayer ask God to be with you in this time of prayer. Page 26 we pray for a certain grace or gift from God! Ask God our Lord for what I want and desire! Imagine God asking you what do you want me to do? Now for your Grace above all else is God‘s presence in your life. Page 27 you should formally bring your prayer to a close. 

Ah, yes the key here … Page 28 journaling:

• What were the significant interior moments? 
• What was the prevailing mood of my prayer?  
• Was my prayer more about the head or the heart? 
• What word, phrase, image or memory meant the most to me during prayer? 
• Is there some unfinished business?  
• Do I feel moved to do something concrete in my life? 

Am I making a necessary preparations for my prayer, considering journaling, as another way of praying, feel free to write directly to God the father. . . lol 😝 and 😂 yes I’ve done this since death at 16 and know it’s all exactly where it needs to be. Like the Calligraphy pen apple added to the app now. I never even wrote them about it. I would use the highlighter since it was cut in the same shape. lol, I was always annoyed it wouldn’t work right, and tried to make it work, still drawing in the prayers myself for the letters of love carried more style than anything else.. . . lol. . . I wonder if they added som calligraphic options to type her too: I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom dearest Saint Mary and Saint Joseph that I may be as your SON! 

And so then I get this movie invite, https://link.angel.com/SM6CON3jvDb, and it’s telling my same story again, old news for me, but so important to those who choose to deceive and lie. . . As the truth will always come out! The next spiritual exercise is the Battle in Autumn Exodus: When you do your nightly examine, ask God to reveal to you any ways in which you have been cutting corners on your Faith!

Now record encounter after encounter with God

My very next phrase to read in my Catholic Studies was: In writing down Israel's history in Scripture, the sacred authors record encounter after encounter between God and those he has chosen from Adam and Eve in the garden to Noah on the ark . . . 

Actually I even copied this phrase too, but then decide to post this picture and copy the next phrase to write about. So I’ve really honored my moments in Christ, since 1980 when I got into my motorcycle accident. Again now after I SLAMMED into a car on Labor Day 9/4/2023 before 8am I need to get more deeply into these studies.

Yes I’m essentially doing the same thing I did after my motorcycle accident. “OH GOD,” what have I done?  I’ve always been protected, walked through walls, and invisible to my adversaries . . . Never even stubbed my toe, most of the time. BUT THEN, SLAM! Clearly, I’m not listening or discerning, or most likely intentionally ignoring the obvious and clear direction that I get. Again a wake-up of pain, that carries with me for days for me to get more serious.

But to be SLAMMED 9/4 when I’m clear and intentional about stepping into my “new routine” and schedule of work, as it suddenly appears before me. Yes, I know I got a notice about being “short-listed” at USF the same day I accepted an offer. Then 9/5 at 5:16pm I get a St Pete note about an interview?  SO I was SLAMMED and stayed home another week before starting the new job on 9/11. Oh my GOD, starting a new job on 9/11/23, while left me 9/11/17 when the Hurricane hit me. YES, 30 years in Tampa, and never nothing, I mean I barely lost power in 30 years of Hurricanes, but then 9/11 and I’m out of power for a few days. . . All alone, no wife, no dog, no job, no power, nothing another wake-up call. I seem to get really strong messages and very many benefits.

So to start again a new gig on 9/11 sounds so ominous. Yes, I’m fearless and can always step into whatever God places before me. But getting SLAMMED the day before, the scheduled start date and then two other opportunities appear, seems like a very clear sign i need to get moving into another direction. And to still start anyway, brings an ominous warning of 9/11 in my face.  What can I learn, or is it really about being clear and conscious through out my work and steps forward.

I am back to my reading in Lectio Divina Prayer . . . Your WAYS are Holy oh Lord with Psalms 77 remembering all your Mighty Works. Mighty is your hand Dear God. And each day I see your works before me, sending insights and guidance. . . Carefully I step, and carefully I discern. Yes, I know this is my lesson here again. SLAMMED again, I hobble about in pain and recognize I must stay slow and at ease. Not pushing through the pain, but acknowledging your guidance and rebukes of my pride. Remember, yes remember the guidance and understanding we’ve been given these last four years.

Now again in my studies we jump to Psalms 105:1-6. And the Joy of the Lord comes through to me stronger than anything here. I remember when chuck called me about moving back to Tampa. We had graduated from College on the same day. He had returned to NJ, and redid the basement in his parent’s house as his own apartment. I had already married, had my Seminole Heights house and Emily playing with me that moment. He asked if he should come back to Tampa. I laughed sipping a Heineken as I watched the children playing in the grass before the Florida Orchestra. 

It must have been another Art Festival or just the Orchestra in the park day. Relaxing in the grass and seeing the sunshine glimmering off the Tampa University Minarets and chuck wanted to know if he would be better off in Tampa. I thought it was so obvious? But still he asked me to get out my journal and copy some pages that ended with my Prayers to Jesus. He had seen these pages before. Whenever I received such clear strong guidance from God, I would always end with a big graphic in love and thanks to God.

It’s funny now as I remember this, and realize that the inspiration came from the Psalms remembering the joy and wonderful works of God and sharing this joy and blessing so others can see, learn and understand. SO this is the Lectio that jumps out to me, “remembering the Joy in God!” And to meditate on this, or reflect on this meaning. . . . Hum what comes to mind is how Jesus was always asking me to write, record, and share all that I could. And I remember saying to him how I was here to act and change things, not just write about it. Like all the writing I did after my accident, getting the Dreamers and Doers Award for Disney, never seem to chang anything. Countless people read and even studied that essay. Like the retired dude from NASA who volunteered with us and said he’d seen and helped build some of that story. Wow, so I guess my written words had significant impacts. I remember him telling me the solar defense system I described would never work, and they tried several scenarios and never go it working.

Yes “ME WRITE?” why me, Jesus you need to get a regular Journalist. Course, that’s when conversations with god showed up. And then I got a free pass to their first conference in Asheville, NC; where I gave them the copies that chuck returned to me after he moved back to Tampa. Funny, chuck and neil never asked for anything more, and they both went off thinking they knew it all already. Yes, so be it. . . Not my problem any more. So now I guess the fun part starts. . . Ah yes, i get it, i go find a random old journal page and cut out the text and format that we created to share in the Holy GHOST.

What we have been doing is preparing you for the changes before all the race and Earth.

I have been listening and living with the Holy GHOSTS forever I guess? I know them as Angels, Ancestors, Guides and Brothers here before me, and sent to me by Jesus. All come only in the name and WORD of Jesus Christ, and all must use the Name of Jesus, before I listen, share, and write anything. Yes, one of the tricks of the devil is to pretend to be whatever voice you are accustomed to hearing. And he will sneak in any chance that he can.

Ah yes, u get it, so now respond to this phrase as well “What we have been doing is preparing you for the changes before all the race and Earth shift”

I have the Holy GHOSTS here again making demands of me. And it’s always an easy conversation, if I accept that YOUR WILL and desire, for my moment here with you, is always the priority. So again, I realize this is about sharing what you have opened for me now. And again it’s the very present moment we are stepping into the time of change. The love and power of God is powerful and approaches more and more each day.  We have all heard this before and recognize the story of the Jehovah’s Witness warning that the end times are near at hand. But we have all heard this for years and see catastrophe after catastrophe wanting it simply to be over, for God to reclaim his kingdom, and the city of Jerusalem to be restored with the temple.

Yes, What changes before all the races of Earth?

I know my dear Holy GHOSTS, guiding me this moment again. The temple and the city is but a symbol and a metaphor of what is to come and where we will build and survive. The shifting of the earth and all life is happening faster and faster as each place is growing to be in love and support more love. Those in greed and selfishness serving the snake and his desires will all fall away and then the righteous will arise to support and share in the blessings to come.

We have already been changing the races and Earth preparing to restore the gardens and flows of life that once covered the earth. Those in greed will be running out. Areas of plenty will become destitute and the greedy will starve and die.

Ok, I know I’ve heard this before and even written it before. Like the story of chuck and neil, I’m sure I've written these stories a dozen times before. And yes, i also realize this was about my lessons today where i needed to catch up on all the reading i need. And its something Holy changing as I speak.

We have always been very clear with you. This passion you have for transparency is why you have always been so strong and so alone. You scare people all the time, as no one wants to accept that your conversations can be so clear and so strong. You have noticed that those who have witnessed these challenges you walk through and the blessings that come your way so easily are more able to walk with you. Further, you have noticed that there are more and more people who show up in your space who are ready to read and understand. This is what we have been preparing you for. You have always led others, and you have always wanted to do so much more than this. The changes before you are about bringing the entire human race to share and listen more deeply to the Earth and Love of God that is all around them. 

I get it. Talking more about listening to you everywhere and understanding this will be easy to share and teach others. I’m not worried about it, and I’m sure the opportunities and responsibilities will become very clear and apparent before me. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to us all for your Glory!