making progress on so much

2:44 Mon Jun 10, 2023

I get so very annoyed with this technology crap, I wish I could just scribble on paper again…. But all the scanners are not quick enough, nor do I ever stay in the same place long and stable enough for it to get out like you need.

This never works consistently. I'm always having to edit and revise this.  If it’s going to use AI, then it needs to get better faster, and stop reverting to dead crap we have fixed before. I have been happy with using chrome to blog in blogger. But I've not been able to keep a live link very long, so it really gets so frustrating.

Dear Jesus, if you get me up in the middle of the night to write, then you have to make these annoying tools more effective, and consistent. Yes, I know I can talk to it as well. But that can be so annoying too, because it shifts my experience. When I type, I’m always hitting the wrong keys anyways, and sometimes it corrects and sometimes it doesn’t. So that’s wicked annoying too, especially when I reread and see stupid errors like “connects,” instead of “corrects” here above. But then when I hand write, it only gets so many words correctly, and then there’s something missing or wrong that it takes 20 minutes to fix. This voice activated stuff works pretty good sometimes, but I also need to be able to just keep talking. It keeps sticking these periods in the middle of the sentences, but then they disappear. I hate having to say that word all the time, “period,” yes i said “period,” keep the fucken dot there please. And if I pause, and then continue talking, shouldn’t it make the period into a coma instead so I can complete the thought. 

. . . . This voice activated stuff works pretty good sometimes but I also need to be able to just keep talking. Keep sticking these periods in the middle of the sentences but then they disappear. I hate having to say that word all the time… I guess I just need to practice more , I guess I just need to practice more . . . . Now why did it put in the same phrase in twice, I have no idea. Yes the stupid app put the same phrase in twice, and I’m not deleting it now. I guess maybe I say duplicate and it comes out again. I’m sure there’s a Help video somewhere, but then I have to find it. Of course, there’s no Wi-Fi, so I couldn’t download it even if I did find it. 

Call Ken Steinke be writing about

So I guess what I need to be writing about. 

I said the same words twice there, the top line with ‘kin’ was what it came out with! Which totally disgusts me. Like Steve Jobs is rolling over in his grave to hide, disgusted and appalled that the AI-Bots we created to get more data out quicker, are now working more to confuse the data and misprint, misguide, misdirect all those that follow each keystroke. It’s really pathetic that it’s come this far, and it is only gettin worse now as we get to the finish line. Yes, I just wrote this all into a feedback report to apple, and I’m trying to link both the watches and video clips and everything. 

Yes, I’m still annoyed, as it’s like pulling teeth to ever get real feedback to them, and forget about any replies, they have no clue what we’re doing anyway . . . . even though we’ve been consistent and progressing strong since 1982. . . Oh before that? Wow.w.w.w.w

4:00:00am. Yesterday was totally incredible.

I got up at five as usual. Started with the Exodus app and went downstairs to get a cuppa coffee. Did the 12 sit-ups, 12 push-ups, 12-20pound lift squats, 12-10pound on the arm out, 12-10 little curls, and then 12-10 up over my head. Listened to the Exodus twice, and then started Pastor John’s sermon. I grabbed my Mangrove-tool, Strapped it to my bike, grab my helmet and took off.

Riding to the beach at North Shore and I picked up a big palm branch in the road. And I took it down to the one old mangrove that I had tried to save. By the time I got to the park, I had picked up a few other branches to add to my palm branch. When I got to the mangrove and it had been killed. No concrete bricks around as if somebody has been down there to big foot prints, yes smashing in the poor little mangrove.

I was all but crying when I saw it and know it was the same big boots that had smashed my other mangroves.  So I swam and didn’t really plant or do anything. All the branches I collected I put there next to the group of trees that’s still surviving. I wonder if they are trying to wipe out all those too. Of course the one bunch up at 26th Ave N are going really great.

So I swam and the road over to mass. Of course when I got there I had forgotten about the time completely, and heard the bells ringing as I plugged in my bike. Opps I’m supposed to be dressed and ready to serve when the bells ring. 

I ran over to the front of the church and Father Jonathan was there ready to do the mass. Cool, so I told him I’d get the cross and be with him in a second. He really had no idea what I was talking about. I told him how awesome it was to get back into my regular mass, swim, bike and exercise routines as I had before Exodus. . . And then ran off to get ready.

I was fumbling with my leather sandals and finally just kicked them off knowing Fr. Jonathan could care less. But they told me to get them anyway, so I ran back to get them. Now they didn’t like me running around. But as usual I was all excited like a little kid, trying to get things together to work right. They had three kids there helping anyway, so I really wasn’t needed, but we had planned for me to be there so I made sure I was there.

When it was all done, I was so embarrassed I ran out as quickly as I could. I thought for sure I’d be fired again. I did get a email from Father Curtis, but that was about background checks and all. Oh great, that will get me kicked-out too. Then Mary wanted me to come see her Tuesday as well, so she could go over all the things I did wrong and that they were still keeping me on the schedule to help.

8:23 Wed Jun 12

Today, I found out Apple finally is releasing IOS 18 which will include all kinds of AI features built into Siri.  I got another 20TB hard drive so I can get everything locked in my safety deposit box. So now I’ve got all these copies running. Then I was thinking these new AI apps will be doing more of what I’ve been asking it to do. I mean they seem to have added a dozen things that I've been asking for. It’s really kinda weird again, as I just sent them this big long notice. I got all the data from both watch’s and the iPhone. . . Not sure if I got the iPad as well, but wanted them to get the data, and pictures, and videos and all together.

Yes again, they haven’t figured out the Workout app yet, but they are making progress on so many other things. It was kinda cool, as I was watching the WDC apple show I got the feeling that they built a new Beta App for me to program my website development. Like it’s going to give me all the tools and features I need to start publishing more and more quickly. . . Lol, even now when I have NO Wi-Fi!

We agreed how the end of the world

Wonderful weekend, again , , , 

I had Jonny over for dinner last night. It was wonderful of course. I thought it was funny how he invited himself for steak and wine. I certainly had invited him countless times, but thought it was odd how he made his request with a specific date and time. I asked him to bring the wine and I had planned to make a great meal for us.

When he arrived, he had brought wine and steaks; and corn on the cob, and broccoli, and garlic bread, with all the spices and such ready to cook the whole meal for us. Of course, I already had steaks seasoned, and cut onions and mushrooms ready to go. I added his cut onions, peppers and cilantro. Then put out some chili heated with melted cheese to nibble with nacho chips.

Yea I heated that up a few times to melt the cheddar cheese I put into it. 

He asked if I had Todd, Kevin and the men’s group over again. So I told him the nacho’s and chili were part of the meal we had on Wednesday with the Welcome Team. And then I called Kevin on the phone, to invite his family for a steak dinner knowing we had enough there for his family as well.

Yea, I got an answering machine and hung up. Catching him randomly open for something has happened before, but not then. Jon and I had a great meal and great conversation. We spoke about all that Jesus had done for us, and where we were growing and challenged. 

We agreed how the end of the world and greed is crashing more and more all around us. He still is studying the Bible so much more than me, and mentioned some signs of this Change. Like the persecution of Christians. . . . I told him how I will randomly browse through the Twitter Feed (X) and how I saw something about how the Moslems are taking over France. The majority of people there are now Moslems, and so the increased crimes are Moslems killing Christians and Jews.

Yea, I explained how I spent the day replanting my seed table. Yea, I’m still cleaning my backyard moving the stuff all around my deck. So I redid all my seed beds, feeling like I was teaching Urban Agriculture to the surviving people here wondering where their next meal will come from. . . Even recording a video for Sal to tell him how great the steal mixer he made for me works. . . 

dream and it was in the house

5/6/24 So I had a dream and I was in the house with two friends and we were getting up to go somewhere like to a pawnshop or something like that. We were making something to eat some spaghetti or something. It was leftovers, we decided to go somewhere with things that I had, very specific house in Seminole Heights. 

I think it was Chuck and I thought we had another guest and she was not done yet. Somebody said we had to go somewhere so we went to like this pawn shop and it was a really old store that you could buy and sell things, and it wasn’t like we needed anything. You know we were just piddling around and looking at different things and kind of weird. 

I was like making a knife out of aluminum foil. I found something that looked neat and I started playing with it and I changed it and I fixed it and then suddenly I realized that I forgot the food on the stove. It was still on the stove cooking on the stove last time about half of it was still in the pot. But I realize that I forgot about it, that was like, oh my gosh it boiled over by now and it’s made a big mess that might be on fire. I realized that I pulled apart my fire alarms again to fix batteries, so the fire alarms weren’t there.

Last week the batteries were dead again, so I took them all apart, but I kind of freaked out because I realized it was still on the stove and I gotta get out of here right now. I just left the stove on, OK and I said let’s go right now and I just took everybody and whatever they were looking at. I put everything at the cash register. You know it was just like three trinkets that each one of us had, that we were looking at, or playing with. Whatever it was and I was like, I’ll just buy them all so we could get out of here. 

It was so vivid and so specific and I mean, I could tell you what the pasta looked like I could tell you what the food looked like. I remember we tried to pull it out because we were hungry and it wasn’t hot yet it was like half frozen, so I was like not still gonna put it back on the stove.  All of a sudden, somebody said this took off because whatever it was the store we were just around you could tell we were really focused on anything at least I wasn’t really focused on anything and it came apart and I folded over and I was like I can still make this work and and then I realized oh my gosh, I left the fire going.  And grabbed it when I woke up I was waiting, so weird. Write it down. 

5/16/2023 

I climbed into bed and all I can do is say OH THANK YOU JESUS, thank you, thank you, thank you. I love you, Love you, love you, thank you, thank you, thank you. 

I just can’t help it. I’m so happy and comfortable and in peace and joy and I just spent the last hour in the salt water bath with a beer, ha, ha, ha, wow!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What DO YOU REMEMBER ABOUT YOUR BIRTHDAY? 

Each year you step into a new vibration and new place of power. The spirals of the planet and the galaxy are all connected to your own magnetism and spinning. You call it the sine wave of your life. It’s about who you are, and where you are. Each year you really shift, millions of miles from where you started. You are knowing more, stepping into more, shifting into a better place.  Like in your conversation with Dick yesterday morning you recognized how to get all you’ve learned together. 

First, starting each new Task with Prayer, as you learned about at work. It was odd for you to use the bathroom as the reminder there at work, so now as he said, to start “each new task with prayers.” This before you is an easy reminder for you. Creating these routines each day that really work for you is critical. Like with the Exodus 90 Exercises and biking again and swimming. You love starting each new stage of your life, and have celebrated this alone on your birthday and other Holy-days all your life. And you have been asking for us to get more clear with you as well. 

We were very clear to you about sharing the Blessings you witnessed this week at your new class yesterday. The Divine Mercy Novena Chaplet you started yesterday was ideal. Dick even recognized that your new Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday schedule now for Church was better than Sunday, Monday, Tuesday you were struggling with. Yes, yesterday you noticed every blessing they shared in the Novena group was another reminder of events you had seen. And as you tried not to say anything, but again heard connection closer and closer to you, so you finally stepped in. 

You knew at the very beginning that you needed to share. This was really ideal too, because as you heard everyone else you reconnected to all the blessings you saw all week. And each experience you shared with others brings you more clarity and more connection within this community. 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ for everything you share with me. . . 

5/17/2023 7:37am

OK I had another dream last night. This one was like a nightmare and I really tried to avoid writing up anything at all. I know you want me to, but YUCKO. And I finally started talking about it and I didn’t save that, so I’m starting over again now a few hours later. I don’t know why, because I can’t stand writing or dealing with nightmares, but it was so clear it was so strong.  Yes, I often will talk to my iPhone to print into a blog with a dream, because the more I move and think the quicker the dreams fade.  So the IPhone blog page is fast and easy always ideal.

It was a dark scary dream, I was in kind of an old city area, like deep in the hood. And I was with this kid and he knew that he knew where he was going. Like after drugs or something else he shouldn’t be doing anyways. I thought he knew what he wanted and I kept trying to tell him that I know, it’s not a good place to go, but he kept going and I knew it was getting worse and worse and I kept trying to stop him, but he went too far. I mean, I wouldn’t go any further.  He was a big kid, like his dad thinking no one could stop him.

Next thing I knew I was with his dad. He is a big guy like Mr. McDade or something like that. Maybe it was him after one of his sons equally tall and lanky? Again, he wanted to get his son back. I brought him in there again. It was just a nasty space. You know the further you got into it, the more you saw mean people and dirty and nasty and crime all around and you know it was just dark. I mean, I got nervous about myself getting out. OK, don’t know if he actually found his son, because I wouldn’t get into the darkest back corner where they were. But when I got to that last section that you knew they did that it was really bad, because I could recognize the places.

Ye, I recognized the buildings broken down, and the dangerous streets. I could recognize so many things. I got the feeling like I’ve been to hell and back. . . . Again!

I realize now that it’s Pentecost this weekend so that might be why I had to write this! I actually haven’t written more than a few words, I’ve been talking it into my iphone. Which is kind of funny because Johnny came by to get some fedex box, and he had gotten a new cheap flip phone for himself. Yes and was gonna give me his old iPhone like he did with the iwatch. So then I’d have this 11 max that Kim got for me and then the one that Johnny gives me is a 14. They’re coming out with the 16 soon too

I need a better camera, but I don’t know, wait-and-see!

NOW AGAIN I must get more specific and clear about my own personal needs and desires. Getting real about what I want and who I am is really critical.

What have you found now as yon are practicing your exercises and readings and really learning to play more. Do you an how such mine you an speaking with us and do you recognize how much more we are sharing with you, 

I seem to have found the same place I’ve always been. Starting over again, but with more clarity and focus. And My Father brings me home, Always in the Right Place at the Right time who I am is really critical.Yes as the Darkness and the Light are the Same for You Jesus, and you Know You can always carry me through. As you will always be with me and I thank YOU!

What you found again here and now, how you are writing with your pen allows you to express and share something more at a deeper level.  You have been getting clearer all the time and know more about your place and tasks than ever. Getting things done outside allows you to do more every day. You have more trust and more confidence in these steps before you. This focus brings you more power and direction each day. Such actions will allow more to open for you. As everything shifts as you become ready to step into more. . . . . .

I am is really comfortable and happy. Last week at the farmers market, the guy in line before me got a pretty New York strip steak so I did too. Fresh organic and yummy! So I made a bunch of mushrooms and onions. Today I got some sweet potatoes from my front yard and it was so yummy together

What have you found now ?

I am always in such Joy getting into bed . . . Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus, I Love You Jesus, I Love You Jesus, I Love You, I Love You, Thank You, Thank You, Thank You!!!

What have you found?

I am always dumbfounded by the circumstances that evolve in any day of the week for me. My time and experiences are always so incredible. I know, I wanted to say DIVINE to Honor YOU, especially since you got this stupid keyboard working again. Yes, I went into the bathroom ready to sit and relax with my iPadPro and my pencil. Then I noticed the pencil was already on, so the battery there is dead dead dead. Seemed like there would be no blogging as I sat, but then I fiddled with this keyboard enough so now I’m typing. 

Yes, I seem to type when I have work to do. I’ll write with the pen when it’s more emotional, then I’ll talk into it when I have a lot to say and get done. It’s always kinda cool. Anyway yesterday was really powerful, or I guess I had a great weekend. It was my birthday Thursday, and I had a free dinner at Ruth Chris Steak House. I was some financial retirement marketing thing, but seeing my birthdate on it, felt like a gift so i went. 

Thursday morning started with Mass and then followed by the ladies group again. Yes I got to mass early Last Sunday after a short swim. Mary was busy setting things up for Mass, as usual and walked by me so I told her how I missed the weekly meetings with all the ladies. She told me they still meet Thursday mornings after Mass and invited me to go with her. So it was great to go on my Birthday.  And I even invited someone to join me with the Steak Dinner. Yea, late notice so forget that.

When the group started, people were invited to share any blessing from the previous week. I kept getting symbols to share more as several mentioned events that I had also experienced.  And of course this included the people sitting right next to me, so I finally chimed in as well.  I mentioned the first blessing was to finally get back into my routine, biking and swimming as some awesome group of ladies got me into the Men Exodus Group where I’ve gotten very focused in my healthy habits. Better still was to get this invite to join the ladies who got me started at St Raphael’s so I felt I had gone in full circle. 

What have you found deeper still in this?

I guess I realized how I needed to include more of my mother’s history in the Welcome Witnessing. What seems really critical now was how I expressed to the ladies how wonderful it was to be paper of a Men’s group that really I the only family I have now. And I couldn’t say that last bit without crying. So it was great to share with the ladies. Of course I remember the first class with them, when Mary spoke about the ninth grade of prayer that she had experienced once. I could relate so much and responded I had done something similarly before I recognized it was something no one else had experienced.

What else did you find in that? 

Yes I remember how embarrassed i was that the experience we shared i sorta do all the time. And to learn and understand that it’s not very common seems really critical at this moment now.

What have you found. 

I really get frustrated when I wanna type and the keyboard isn’t working. I can test it and get it working in other apps, but then when I start to type again in my blog, it stops working. I seem to be spinning again, where I’m not sure what I’m doing and where I should be. I cleaned my laptop and got everything working in the new Sonoma. But then it dies again. And I’ve opened up my desktop and gotten that working and even can FTP to the server. I have not edited or done anything yet. I’m talking to this blog now and it is getting every other word wrong!

What have you found with your prayer life.

I realized I’ve still not been doing prayers with each task. Seems like I am really going backwards again. Yes I’m really happy about cleaning and fixing some things, but the. The next moment I can’t seem to get it right. I always feel like I have so many responsibilities, and when nothing comes together, I feel irresponsible and I do nothing, because it just doesn’t work. I had scheduled an electrician to visit today and he cancelled so nothing has worked all day. I did try a few other things, but still not.

I've got my pen working again, but still have all sorts of errors. Like over five times to get the last word right. It's crazy as I know so much needs do be done and no one seems to be engaged.

How could I love you more

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 I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you so much for all you do, share, and express for us to return to your love. I opened Wikipedia as l was Looking up “love” to see what it has, I needed to add what was missing. And the website blocked my ip address. It was really funny, as I have always walked through everything, never stopped by anyone.

Justification of the law by living only for the Spirit. Only the spirit of God, not the flesh. I keep feeling how I need to express the love vibration of GoD. . . How all creation is a vibration of you growing and evolving to become the new light and life of the expanding universe. And I realize all is at hand exactly as we had intended from the start. Which means we will all shift to a new life of truth.

 I know you are trying to make this easy for me. And I know I get stressed out over silly crazy things all the time. I know you are always with me, and I know you always provide for me, and I never have anything to fear or concern myself with. I can’t tell you how strange it is for me to always be protected and benefitting from anything that comes along. And I can’t seem to understand what it is you want me to do next, or what are the critical steps that I need to take ahead of me now.

I really have so much at hand and am beginning to get myself together. Each day I get more and more insight and direction. I keep getting messages and insight each day for me to move forward. I feel very lucky to see so much coming together before me. Like back to the original focus in the garden loving God and my own neighbors.

It is time for you to get more focused. The sun coming into your face over and over again is as clear and strong as we can make it for you. You have emails telling you the same story as well,

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Yes I know and I share as I can. As remarkable as it might seem, the more I know and understand what is before me the easier it is for me to get things done - and now again, I can feel and sense a new level of understanding . . it is another shift in the vibrations of creation. 

Each word, each typo, each scribble shows a higher and higher level of love. Vibrations of Joy and Place, watching the Magic of creation unfold before our eyes. 

This is exactly as we had planned from the very beginning. Even better than we could ever imagine, as you have seen and heard all of your life. Each Instant needs to just blow out your love. And then you realize that this is not your responsibility and you’ve been working, sleeping, trying to do something that somebody else is supposed to be doing and it’s distracting you from your place. Nothing will happen until you admit it and do it yourself its all exactly as you choose.

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Finally done something. I've had this to do list in my face since 4/18 and only yesterday did I actually do anything on it. I actually got a lot done on the list even.

It is time for you to turn on your server and get your sites back in order.

 I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ... Each time I get into my office, I only can handle it for a little while. I wonder if I get frustrated with the mess or nothing working right. And it is not only the clutter and mess in my office, but also the cutter and mess on my laptop.

I'm making a lot of progress with everything now. I always get this feeling of peace with the teachings of patience that keep showing up everywhere. It makes me wonder what I'm waiting for or what it is before me that I need to address. 

It is time, for everything to crash. Fill all your gas tanks

I knew it was always about me now. How could I love you more. Each moment this Love gets stronger and stronger. Never am I fearful, it always feels like love, I am always in joy and peace as I know and see what is before me, and it really feels Good too

yez It’s time, For you to get specific and Accept Each step before you. The act of creation is a choice, a desire for love and peace, knowing full well that it all has to be exactly as it is. What a total trip to understand and accept your place and time to share. 

I'm trying to understand this moment before me. And accept it as my choice and responsibility. Like taking care of my house, and laundry, and plants, and foods, and, and, and. Then there is so much in Christ and in love. I know it's really time for you to come. I'm sorry I always ask you to give us more time. I know it's not fair to all those who have passed wanting to return to love and family. 

It’s time

Yes for me now too. Yes I am ready. Bring all things to your Will and Truth again. We all belong with you. Yea I am ready let things BE in Your Love and Peace, Amen

It is time

challenged to Trust and Love

I love reading the Welcome Team Guide, by the Dynamic Catholic

I am up to Session Nine: The Jesus Question.

I feel like I know Jesus better than anyone else in my life.  I guess that is because I really do not know anyone as much as I Know Jesus. Then I also have never had someone so close to me in my life.  I realize how much this is who I am. Like I know Jesus, and we grew-up together.  As a child I could hear and find Jesus in everything I did and everywhere I went. Of course, it was very easy to pay attention to Him in Church, or in the Woods, or out alone somewhere.  Confusion and conflict only came with other people and circumstances surrounded me….

 

Write down everything you know about Jesus Christ.

1. HE IS:
1. The Word, as Our Truth!
2. The Son of God, as Our Savior from sin!
3. The Life of the Holy Spirit, as our  counselor, wisdom, guidance
4. The Alpha and Omega
5. The Beginning and the End
6. My friend and confidant 
7. Always around, and always listening. . . IT is interesting is how strong HE can get, sometimes telling me what to do. But then at other times, seemingly no where to be found. Then I’ve learned to chant “Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ” to get Him close again like when I need help to complete tasks and stay focused.
8. Always interested in participating, and sharing in my experiences and challenges. Like now writing about Him, it’s kinda weird as He is watching, like reading everything over my shoulder, curious what else I will say or add . . . . .or curious what I will forget.
2. Who is HE:
1. I know he is LOVE, and each life on Earth is an Aspect of LOVE, seeking to grow and achieve more Love, a Higher Level of Love, a Greater Aspect of Love. Each of us is born with the mustard seed of Love gifted to us to carry and bring HIM forth from deep inside of us.
2. I know Love is eternal, so that we Live forever and we get More clear as we are More LOVE. 
3. I know the MORE we can LOVE NOW, the more we are given to Love, to Share, to BE.
4. I know we can achieve anything in LOVE. Being and expressing Higher, Clearer, Stronger forms of Love to lead us into a deeper Union and Mystery of Love with Jesus.
5. I know we can each BE and Live as Jesus in Love, in Healing, in connection to Nature, in all life.

Jesus is the son of God who showed us the deeper truths and power of Spirit to be fulfilled in the trust and love of The Word. Our generation now, which must Believe and Trust in the Word, and only our personal experiences of His Word, must have a level of Faith and Trust so much deeper and more profound than ever before. The Word is all that we have. We can witness and share the Word with each other, but never have we been so far and separated from Him. Today, there are so many false-prophets and countless pretense of the word in abundance all around us. All aspects of our culture and society propose and support methods and means opposing the word, which force a stronger more secure level of Faith and Love to be sustained.

Like I’ve been so completely challenged to Trust and Love where too much has been given to me, and too much comes through to me. I AM perplexed daily by the Grace and Freedom I have to share and express the Love of God. I was awake st 3am again. Completed the Exodus readings, and started the 33day of Merciful Love book again. I opened it in Adobe and had the app read it to me. Wow, was that just perfect. I wanted to get through everything I needed to read before my Fraternity Meeting today. Now I need to read for Welcome too.

how much a blessing my life is.

Ok I admit, things are happening faster than ever. I realize how much I have learned and how much things have shifted around in my life. It has really been incredible as I learn and share more and more everyday. Of course, I have always realized how much of a blessing my life is. I simply have so much and enjoy so much beauty and peace, like even this moment enjoying the fresh cool breeze coming through my house. I realize it is really beyond the capacity of understanding for most people. I know I am lucky to share and express anything or have anyone understand me at all.

I mean like how Jesus really provides for me all the time. I’m always perplexed and challenged. Like stopping to eat, as I know I can not continue to write with an empty stomach, as I'll just get stupid or lose touch. Yes, I know this after many years of missing meals. Ok, so I pack up my iPad and pencil and iPhone with whatever I think I might be able to use or complete while I eat my lunch. And then go down stairs, wondering what is fast and easy to eat. Oh, I know, I have a big bowl of chopped veggie in the fridge. So I step outside with my scissors, and I clip a few leaves of this lettuce and then pick a few perfect little red tomato's and then a few leaves of arugula, and a few big Cuban Oregano leaves and I'm all set for lunch. Yes, I grabbed my mail, while I was out and it looks like an IRS notice and medical Bills. Yucko!

I take my big bowl of salad and sit with those envelopes. Oh, great it's "not a bill" but the breakdown and accounting of all the dentist did. Super duper. Then the IRS notice says I've over paid. What? A refund from the IRS, who over pays them. How awesome is that, another check for almost $3000. I guess I am focused and doing what Jesus wants me to do, cause clearly He is providing for me.

And honestly I have three people in my life now, that really make an effort to listen and understand me. Not just me personally, but also my current challenges and circumstances. And the real experience and emotions of the moment and the spiritual expressions and learning beyond this immediate moment. I really find it to be remarkable. Not only to have people who really understand, but more so people that take on the challenge to help and guide me through whatever insane experience and challenge I am led to share with them. 

Of course, now as I sit outside on my rocking chair in my front porch, and I realize I meet all three of these people within hours of each other every weekend. Yes so I'm totally blessed. . And now Carol has picked me up for the Phyllis Wheatley board meeting that we attend together once a month. 

this tool lets me do all kinds

 I am perplexed again. I realized that I can’t get to sleep and I need to share something about Jesus. I’m really not sure what. (Lol: https://journals2mygod.blogspot.com/2024/02/theres-mountains-so-your-climbing.html) He’s been getting more intense and more focused. Like there’s something gonna shift drastically. I just picked up my iPhone and started talking. It’s incredible how accurate this is now. 

At work today, I even noticed how the GIS program was doing things that I had wanted the CAD programs to do 20 years ago. It’s really weird when I see things shift in front of me like that. Like I had a new install on my iPhone twice this weekend. Usually I get a new install once a month but twice in one weekend. I guess I did send in like three comments this weekend about things they needed to fix. I wonder if they fixed them all.

I don’t know who I was speaking to this week, but I mentioned how Apple and Microsoft have been fighting for centuries and if those two companies could collaborate, we would be light years ahead by now. They get so arrogant and so selfish that they think they know what they’re doing. But instead, if they collaborated and worked together, we would have so much better technology, tools and resources. 

The amount of money they spend on secrecy and deception is obscene! And then advertisement is a complete waste of money, because it’s all a con-job anyway. But you know if they actually work together and collaborated intelligently to serve people instead of just steal from us, everybody would be better off.

It’s really the same story between nations and cities and states. Instead of fighting and struggling if they actually collaborated, everybody would be better off. It’s actually just the rich and the powerful that like to fight. All the rest of us are happy to collaborate and share because we know we’re better off doing that. 

Sooner or later we’ll be able to. I Always get this sense that the greed and a selfishness will strangle itself and all die off. Just like I always have this feeling that we’ll just be out of gas. Like one day we wake up and there’s no gasoline anymore. All of us have to do something without a car. The whole culture would change; people would support each other and help each other instead of racing around selfishly. 

We’d get back into families and communities instead of all this other bullshit. Wouldn’t it be remarkable if we could just get rid of the car? Everybody’s staying in their local community and their own neighborhood supporting and working with each other. Wow, what an incredible idea.

So I wonder if that’s what I needed to write about, or talk about. I bet you this tool lets me do all kinds of things that I haven’t figured out yet. Like I’m sure it puts in a period automatically instead of me saying it every time. I keep saying it anyway, even though I see the punctuation show up.

I thank you Lord Jesus for the wonderful opportunity to share Your Light, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to achieve in Your Spirit! Amen!