How could I love you more

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 I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you so much for all you do, share, and express for us to return to your love. I opened Wikipedia as l was Looking up “love” to see what it has, I needed to add what was missing. And the website blocked my ip address. It was really funny, as I have always walked through everything, never stopped by anyone.

Justification of the law by living only for the Spirit. Only the spirit of God, not the flesh. I keep feeling how I need to express the love vibration of GoD. . . How all creation is a vibration of you growing and evolving to become the new light and life of the expanding universe. And I realize all is at hand exactly as we had intended from the start. Which means we will all shift to a new life of truth.

 I know you are trying to make this easy for me. And I know I get stressed out over silly crazy things all the time. I know you are always with me, and I know you always provide for me, and I never have anything to fear or concern myself with. I can’t tell you how strange it is for me to always be protected and benefitting from anything that comes along. And I can’t seem to understand what it is you want me to do next, or what are the critical steps that I need to take ahead of me now.

I really have so much at hand and am beginning to get myself together. Each day I get more and more insight and direction. I keep getting messages and insight each day for me to move forward. I feel very lucky to see so much coming together before me. Like back to the original focus in the garden loving God and my own neighbors.

It is time for you to get more focused. The sun coming into your face over and over again is as clear and strong as we can make it for you. You have emails telling you the same story as well,

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Yes I know and I share as I can. As remarkable as it might seem, the more I know and understand what is before me the easier it is for me to get things done - and now again, I can feel and sense a new level of understanding . . it is another shift in the vibrations of creation. 

Each word, each typo, each scribble shows a higher and higher level of love. Vibrations of Joy and Place, watching the Magic of creation unfold before our eyes. 

This is exactly as we had planned from the very beginning. Even better than we could ever imagine, as you have seen and heard all of your life. Each Instant needs to just blow out your love. And then you realize that this is not your responsibility and you’ve been working, sleeping, trying to do something that somebody else is supposed to be doing and it’s distracting you from your place. Nothing will happen until you admit it and do it yourself its all exactly as you choose.

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Finally done something. I've had this to do list in my face since 4/18 and only yesterday did I actually do anything on it. I actually got a lot done on the list even.

It is time for you to turn on your server and get your sites back in order.

 I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ... Each time I get into my office, I only can handle it for a little while. I wonder if I get frustrated with the mess or nothing working right. And it is not only the clutter and mess in my office, but also the cutter and mess on my laptop.

I'm making a lot of progress with everything now. I always get this feeling of peace with the teachings of patience that keep showing up everywhere. It makes me wonder what I'm waiting for or what it is before me that I need to address. 

It is time, for everything to crash. Fill all your gas tanks

I knew it was always about me now. How could I love you more. Each moment this Love gets stronger and stronger. Never am I fearful, it always feels like love, I am always in joy and peace as I know and see what is before me, and it really feels Good too

yez It’s time, For you to get specific and Accept Each step before you. The act of creation is a choice, a desire for love and peace, knowing full well that it all has to be exactly as it is. What a total trip to understand and accept your place and time to share. 

I'm trying to understand this moment before me. And accept it as my choice and responsibility. Like taking care of my house, and laundry, and plants, and foods, and, and, and. Then there is so much in Christ and in love. I know it's really time for you to come. I'm sorry I always ask you to give us more time. I know it's not fair to all those who have passed wanting to return to love and family. 

It’s time

Yes for me now too. Yes I am ready. Bring all things to your Will and Truth again. We all belong with you. Yea I am ready let things BE in Your Love and Peace, Amen

It is time

challenged to Trust and Love

I love reading the Welcome Team Guide, by the Dynamic Catholic

I am up to Session Nine: The Jesus Question.

I feel like I know Jesus better than anyone else in my life.  I guess that is because I really do not know anyone as much as I Know Jesus. Then I also have never had someone so close to me in my life.  I realize how much this is who I am. Like I know Jesus, and we grew-up together.  As a child I could hear and find Jesus in everything I did and everywhere I went. Of course, it was very easy to pay attention to Him in Church, or in the Woods, or out alone somewhere.  Confusion and conflict only came with other people and circumstances surrounded me….

 

Write down everything you know about Jesus Christ.

1. HE IS:
1. The Word, as Our Truth!
2. The Son of God, as Our Savior from sin!
3. The Life of the Holy Spirit, as our  counselor, wisdom, guidance
4. The Alpha and Omega
5. The Beginning and the End
6. My friend and confidant 
7. Always around, and always listening. . . IT is interesting is how strong HE can get, sometimes telling me what to do. But then at other times, seemingly no where to be found. Then I’ve learned to chant “Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ” to get Him close again like when I need help to complete tasks and stay focused.
8. Always interested in participating, and sharing in my experiences and challenges. Like now writing about Him, it’s kinda weird as He is watching, like reading everything over my shoulder, curious what else I will say or add . . . . .or curious what I will forget.
2. Who is HE:
1. I know he is LOVE, and each life on Earth is an Aspect of LOVE, seeking to grow and achieve more Love, a Higher Level of Love, a Greater Aspect of Love. Each of us is born with the mustard seed of Love gifted to us to carry and bring HIM forth from deep inside of us.
2. I know Love is eternal, so that we Live forever and we get More clear as we are More LOVE. 
3. I know the MORE we can LOVE NOW, the more we are given to Love, to Share, to BE.
4. I know we can achieve anything in LOVE. Being and expressing Higher, Clearer, Stronger forms of Love to lead us into a deeper Union and Mystery of Love with Jesus.
5. I know we can each BE and Live as Jesus in Love, in Healing, in connection to Nature, in all life.

Jesus is the son of God who showed us the deeper truths and power of Spirit to be fulfilled in the trust and love of The Word. Our generation now, which must Believe and Trust in the Word, and only our personal experiences of His Word, must have a level of Faith and Trust so much deeper and more profound than ever before. The Word is all that we have. We can witness and share the Word with each other, but never have we been so far and separated from Him. Today, there are so many false-prophets and countless pretense of the word in abundance all around us. All aspects of our culture and society propose and support methods and means opposing the word, which force a stronger more secure level of Faith and Love to be sustained.

Like I’ve been so completely challenged to Trust and Love where too much has been given to me, and too much comes through to me. I AM perplexed daily by the Grace and Freedom I have to share and express the Love of God. I was awake st 3am again. Completed the Exodus readings, and started the 33day of Merciful Love book again. I opened it in Adobe and had the app read it to me. Wow, was that just perfect. I wanted to get through everything I needed to read before my Fraternity Meeting today. Now I need to read for Welcome too.

how much a blessing my life is.

Ok I admit, things are happening faster than ever. I realize how much I have learned and how much things have shifted around in my life. It has really been incredible as I learn and share more and more everyday. Of course, I have always realized how much of a blessing my life is. I simply have so much and enjoy so much beauty and peace, like even this moment enjoying the fresh cool breeze coming through my house. I realize it is really beyond the capacity of understanding for most people. I know I am lucky to share and express anything or have anyone understand me at all.

I mean like how Jesus really provides for me all the time. I’m always perplexed and challenged. Like stopping to eat, as I know I can not continue to write with an empty stomach, as I'll just get stupid or lose touch. Yes, I know this after many years of missing meals. Ok, so I pack up my iPad and pencil and iPhone with whatever I think I might be able to use or complete while I eat my lunch. And then go down stairs, wondering what is fast and easy to eat. Oh, I know, I have a big bowl of chopped veggie in the fridge. So I step outside with my scissors, and I clip a few leaves of this lettuce and then pick a few perfect little red tomato's and then a few leaves of arugula, and a few big Cuban Oregano leaves and I'm all set for lunch. Yes, I grabbed my mail, while I was out and it looks like an IRS notice and medical Bills. Yucko!

I take my big bowl of salad and sit with those envelopes. Oh, great it's "not a bill" but the breakdown and accounting of all the dentist did. Super duper. Then the IRS notice says I've over paid. What? A refund from the IRS, who over pays them. How awesome is that, another check for almost $3000. I guess I am focused and doing what Jesus wants me to do, cause clearly He is providing for me.

And honestly I have three people in my life now, that really make an effort to listen and understand me. Not just me personally, but also my current challenges and circumstances. And the real experience and emotions of the moment and the spiritual expressions and learning beyond this immediate moment. I really find it to be remarkable. Not only to have people who really understand, but more so people that take on the challenge to help and guide me through whatever insane experience and challenge I am led to share with them. 

Of course, now as I sit outside on my rocking chair in my front porch, and I realize I meet all three of these people within hours of each other every weekend. Yes so I'm totally blessed. . And now Carol has picked me up for the Phyllis Wheatley board meeting that we attend together once a month. 

this tool lets me do all kinds

 I am perplexed again. I realized that I can’t get to sleep and I need to share something about Jesus. I’m really not sure what. (Lol: https://journals2mygod.blogspot.com/2024/02/theres-mountains-so-your-climbing.html) He’s been getting more intense and more focused. Like there’s something gonna shift drastically. I just picked up my iPhone and started talking. It’s incredible how accurate this is now. 

At work today, I even noticed how the GIS program was doing things that I had wanted the CAD programs to do 20 years ago. It’s really weird when I see things shift in front of me like that. Like I had a new install on my iPhone twice this weekend. Usually I get a new install once a month but twice in one weekend. I guess I did send in like three comments this weekend about things they needed to fix. I wonder if they fixed them all.

I don’t know who I was speaking to this week, but I mentioned how Apple and Microsoft have been fighting for centuries and if those two companies could collaborate, we would be light years ahead by now. They get so arrogant and so selfish that they think they know what they’re doing. But instead, if they collaborated and worked together, we would have so much better technology, tools and resources. 

The amount of money they spend on secrecy and deception is obscene! And then advertisement is a complete waste of money, because it’s all a con-job anyway. But you know if they actually work together and collaborated intelligently to serve people instead of just steal from us, everybody would be better off.

It’s really the same story between nations and cities and states. Instead of fighting and struggling if they actually collaborated, everybody would be better off. It’s actually just the rich and the powerful that like to fight. All the rest of us are happy to collaborate and share because we know we’re better off doing that. 

Sooner or later we’ll be able to. I Always get this sense that the greed and a selfishness will strangle itself and all die off. Just like I always have this feeling that we’ll just be out of gas. Like one day we wake up and there’s no gasoline anymore. All of us have to do something without a car. The whole culture would change; people would support each other and help each other instead of racing around selfishly. 

We’d get back into families and communities instead of all this other bullshit. Wouldn’t it be remarkable if we could just get rid of the car? Everybody’s staying in their local community and their own neighborhood supporting and working with each other. Wow, what an incredible idea.

So I wonder if that’s what I needed to write about, or talk about. I bet you this tool lets me do all kinds of things that I haven’t figured out yet. Like I’m sure it puts in a period automatically instead of me saying it every time. I keep saying it anyway, even though I see the punctuation show up.

I thank you Lord Jesus for the wonderful opportunity to share Your Light, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to achieve in Your Spirit! Amen!

Prodigal who wouldn’t accept

I’m a Roman Catholic.

Wow, I didn’t realize that “Roman” Catholic was more specific than anything else. I’ve finally becoming what I decided my Mom really had intended for me. And as a major confirmation, I realized how I had completed my Mom’s Sermon. It was even on my dad’s birthday, when the actual last piece was in place, that it dawned on me how I’d finished. Of course, I sent it to my dad and still feel he never saw it or understood. . . Ok, I sent it to my Step Mom, who shares everything like this with my dad. .

Or she reads, understands, and explores likely before sharing, to get it into context so he actually learns and grows from it, instead of fighting or ignoring it.

Simultaneously to this, I have been through the Men’s Welcome Retreat with the church. This ended with an AWESOME Rosary and then we washed each others’ feet.  And finally went in for a confession. I realized that though being a Prodigal, I never had done the actual Sacrament of Reconciliation. GREAT FAITH is focused on the Father, Focused on the Nature of GOD, Father Focused, Seeking to Understand, Will endure NO MATTER WHAT.  Learning to endure, to see beyond the visible, to sense in Spirit what God’s is Saying, Focused on the Ways and Character of GOD. GREAT FAITH, I’m Trusting God NO matter what!

This is what Charles Stanley is saying on the podcast right now: Matthew 8:8 and it’s about GOD now. . . Yes, 8:8 is my Emily’s Birthday, so this is more present and powerful for me than ever. It’s almost like my Daughter came to me to teach me this lesson. And she fought for 6 years to get to me. I knew someone was coming when Maryanne told me in High School. 

Yes, again I’m back in High School, the Prodigal who wouldn’t accept of believe anything was from God, Even though I had already exploited everything I was ever given . . Wow.

energy that we are evolving

Yes, I realize again how important it is for me to step into the place and power where I belong. My first experience this morning was with several Prayerline Callers who I’ve heard from before. I recognized a few stories of challenges people are facing. Then the computer suggests their name as I start, and I remember the last time we spoke. I am getting stronger and more focused, where the prayers just flow. I wonder what people think, always being insecure. But again I’ve had several people very specific about the word I used and the resonance they felt knowing when two or more come into Christ, He is with us. I am always reminded of Day Six in Genesis where God steps into the Garden with Adam and Eve and all things were good. That's where we all belong, at peace in Love and Beauty where things are very good!

This actually happens with every written word as well. The first podcast on TheJoyFM.com was specific about this power of the written word. Someone was speaking about three marriages and years of conflict and challenges. We all have periods of challenges and growth. That’s really what we are here for. It’s easy to get lost in the lies of the machine, that life is meaningless, or only about greed and selfish happiness. Course the very next podcast this morning with Charles Stanley was even more focused on how we are all challenged to grow, and step-out and take risks. 

Wow, that’s like my middle name, “Rafé Risks” is all that I do. Of course, then I remembered my presentation books, that I risked sharing with a stranger, exactly a week ago. Funny, as I type now 7:25am 10/18/2023, I realize that the last of the three books I assembled was exactly a week ago. I never considered her keeping and reading them in detail, but now remember the last minute additions and moving pages around to create the flow I needed in talking about things. So this morning I sent this podcast to her, and conveniently cut her name off of this text clip I made now.

What are you doing now, is wonderful! People only listen and follow when they want to. And the resonance and encouragement posted her really lasts for centuries and continues with the same messages to so many that read and find this. But some will always choose to “stay safe” with their heads in the sand. It’s really very easy there in Florida, the sand is so fine and nice. And you know, this sand is so fine and white because of age. Time breaks things down smaller and smaller, then it also clears out impurities and returns things to original structures. . . 

I Love you Jesus, and Yes I know that this idea and vibration have been coming through to me over and over again. Like the movie LUCY was on again last night. I thought it was a Spanish channel, but stopped to look anyway. Of course, the phrase that I heard was how electrons move all the time, so the knowledge and truth moves from cell to cell every second. We can really know all things at anytime we want to. #manofknowledge 

Yes, this is really the fundamental truth behind everything. That Love and Truth flow from cell to cell, and atom to atom . . . All of it is connected, exactly like Father Kevin said with “Each One Teach One” where ”each one teaching one was like an electric current passing through a wire until a whole community could be illuminated”. . . 

What are you doing now!

Yes, I know i am in the Love of Jesus, and I know this deepest truth about the energy that we are evolving through us is expanding our universe more and more every second.

Again what you said here is something that your scientists would be able to measure and understand. While doing it now and bringing it foreword creates a resonance that is more lasting and significant than you can understand!

I Love you Jesus, Yes you always love saying things like this. We walk in the abyss together wondering what it’s all about, while we shift and grow creating more knowledge, more understanding and More Love that is really the fuel for everything else. Just like satan was all excited to get men caught up into the oil and gas fuels that they created, or exploited from your Glory thinking it could every surpass all You have before us in Love.

I woke up with dreams including very strong clear images. I had decided I needed someone else in my life. OR SOMETHING like that? And I ended up inviting all the young pretty ladies I knew at once. It was kinda weird as I already had someone in my house, who I knew and another lady showed up.  Both attractive women who I already knew! 

Then Kristen called too. "Sure I'm home, always love to talk" and then I saw her skipping down the road to my front door. It was so wonderful, as she looked like the petite little gymnast that I knew in High School. And as I opened the door, I was thinking how crazy is this to have three attractive pretty women coming up to me. . . and what the heck was I going to do about it?

As I woke up, seeing Kristen was so wonderful. She came to get me outside walking every day after my motorcycle accident in High School. . . tight, tiny, little short-shorts and roller skates, so she was just out of my reach, lol, which I thought was a brilliant way to get me out exercising again, as I never walked or ran at all.

When I woke-up today, I started this Exodus reading. Here it is, to the right, talking about how important family is. Yes, that’s what I’m returning to the Catholic Church for, to reconnect to my family of God. I must become part of this community in church and in St. Pete where I am now. Family of God, for me, not for my children, or for my wife, or my mom, but for me.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What are you getting ready for now?

I really have seen so many visions, dreams, insights, and FLASH into more each day, and I know it's about inviting my own passions forward. I mean, I’m seeing images of Gardens and teaching children, then images of women and healing them, and changing the city and systems of people to make schools more experiential and food more healthy for everyone, not just greed and selfishness. 

What did you see and feel now?

I was thinking about my SEEL class today. Its starts at 9am, so I have time for everything before it. I can do all my exercises, bike out to do my Yoga. Catch the sunrise and swim, before my 8am MASS. I've done this already this weekend. It was really my first time doing everything as i had learned. I was so happy to be able to get back into my routine. Or step into my new routine, my new life, my new experience.

What about today? 9:33am Friday October 13. . .

It’s funny December Friday the 13th, I moved into this house. March Friday the 13th, Covid sent me home. And now I was ready to bike and exercise at 7am, and I could have made it out, and done everything. And now I remember what we agreed!

What is important is to get back into the regular schedule you have created for yourself. You now have a great job that allows you to arrive at work when you want to.

I know it’s a very specific schedule. Prayerline, Podcasts, Prayers, Exercises, bike ride, Sunrise, Mass, and another ride home. I know I can do this every day. And I know we agreed to only a few days for Mass, and then more time and efforts at the beach with the mangroves. And I realize now, I can do it with my new job and I can get out there and do so much more for getting back into my health and power. It’s really about me stepping into the new life that I needed and wanted all along. It’s really about me this time, stepping into the Love that I am.

What about the Proverbs 20:7 posted here, that you heard on the radio as you were writing here before you. 

I recognize how my new walk in prayer, meditation and work are about bringing me into this new life. And again it talks about children and a new life with children. I wonder if I’ll be a parent again!

What you need to focus on is the health routines again. Make this a priority and to follow through with whatever opens to you. Like your meeting Thursday, you trusted and stepped into it at the level that you needed to make it work exactly like you needed. You never could imagine having someone so skilled and focused reviewing your books.  You might be really surprised at what results.

I am always surprised by what you do for me. Everyday I try to get more focused and specific on what you have placed before me. And each day I recognize that there is really so much more than I could understand happening in this moment and this time.

We are shifting more out and about that needs to be cleared and reset. Earth is hungry to reset and restore the beauty and blessing it is made of. So much will be changing everywhere and it’s important to avoid the stories and chaos that are beyond your reach. You have a lot to do here, and will be doing more and more as you go along. It’s important that you get back to your actions and motions of peace and love. Fearlessly step into more of who you are and just ignore all the rest.

I know, it’s about staying with you, and what you have given to me, and the priorities I can feel in Love with you.

We are making this easier for you. Getting your fruit and vegetables together again will bring you greater clarity and comfort. Having the strong clear mind will open more for you all around you. This clear strong focus will make everything else move easier. Again you will be shifting things that no one else can understand.

I get it. I’ve started my day with you, reading your word and setting myself into a space with you. I know this is where i belong all the time, and it is clear i need to do another confession with Father Kevin. He went out of town on another retreat, where he fell and broke his nose. I fell too, cracked ribs that are still sore now.

We got you to slow down now. That was important. You live in a beautiful city filled with love and blessings all around you. You are going to protect it and make it safer for the future generations. And it’s really wonderful before you as you are becoming more focused and dedicated in this space than ever before. 

I know, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to help us all step into this deeper stronger space you have created before us. In the name and Glory of Father, Son, and Holy Ghosts . . .